I came across this little thing that I made a while ago and he can't really see but I wrote all over it oh you can kind of see and I was trying to outline some of the things that I was reading and discovering about the work of dr. Daniel Siegel and he has the book mind sight he has another great book called the pocket book guide to interpersonal neurobiology it's not much of a pocketbook it's quite thick but it's a very good book and I might have mentioned it before but I was noticing as i was coloring over some of it in darker ink as opposed to pencil that i wrote here states become traits and this is what I've been talking about in the in my thoughts about how the manic state can let us know what trades to practice to actually have those traits as opposed to only having those traits in the manic state and that's what i call embodying your mania and the retrospective process is sort of harvesting your mania or hacking your mania and and he actually says it right in what i wrote down states become traits and the example he gave was by putting oneself in a mindful state for say 10 minutes a day eventually a person will actually have the trait of mindfulness so the 10 minute a day practice of mindfulness leads eventually to actually just having that trait without actually having to practice anymore and that is the same equivalent to one having a state of mania where they have all these traits in the state but they're not actual traits that we actually have as real traits their temporary trades and that's why i mentioned practicing the manic traits so even i wonder and I've never really thought of this before if even just practicing a certain trait for 10 minutes a day alone just creating some kind of practice around generosity and and I guess that's why people say practice gratitude some people have a gratitude practice or journaling in a way this video making is a bit of a practice for me to just talk about stuff and make things relational I've talked about making things relational before and I and I actually I got that from dr. Daniel Siegel I have several people who have influenced my thinking and I'm especially fond of the ones that are into neurobiology I have a different video where I talked about the work of Steven Kotler who I called Stephen Coulter in the video oops and Jamie wheel they talk about the flow state and there's neurophysiology in neuro electricity and the brain is very interesting so there's those two dr. Daniel Siegel david bohm dr. david bohm who's no longer with us he pioneered the holographic theory of the brain along with Carl Primbram I think I said that right and I've also been influenced by Krishnamurti J Krishnamurti Alan Watts Eckhart Tolle for sure and there's just some really great minds out there who I resonate with but with dr. Daniel Siegel I don't know if it's seagull or say call or whatever but I've been saying seagull so I think it is dr. Daniel Siegel anyways I was talking about how he talks about the relational mind and he gives the definition of the mind as a process that regulates the flow of energy and information and it's both relational and embodied so embodied is the brain and relational is our relationships so it's like the space between people and our mind exists in that too and he talks about how and I'm not really sure it makes sense to me but I can't really explain it right now maybe later you can always look up his work that's why I talk about making ones mania relational through the traits so the manic traits are very they're quite social a lot of them and by making them relational by relating in that way of the traits as the traits it's practicing it's not only practicing that state to make it an actual trait embodied in the brain actually embedded in the neurophysiology and the neural anatomy and the neuro electricity of the brain and that also it changes the brain by acting a different way and and that's the thing is I feel like that extra energy in mania is actually t

this energy is the energy of action perception action when we see something we must act and it's also a state of lots and lots of ideas and we're entertaining ideas and were being entertained by ideas and not to say they're facts they're just ideas and I remember watching an interview with David Bohm Dr. David Bohm and he said to David Suzuki that we need another source of ideas and to me this other state is a good source of ideas it's a source of ideas that most of them don't come from a person's ego consciousness and also Einstein talked about problems won't be solved by the same level of thinking that created them this again to me is a different level of thinking it's not all completely coherent and intelligible but it's a different level and maybe there's 99 not so great ideas to everyone good idea but there might be a million times the ideas then a person in ego consciousness will ever get and I feel some of these could be harvested for the good and a lot of us create visions and and have these visionary experiences of how to help the world if we put those together I think a lot could be created so in that state there is a wider range of thought associations and it's making new associations and new connections and a lot of that is based on the patterns one sees in reality and one is learning through that pattern recognition and extrapolation process mania is like the universe brainstorming through it shakes up the prefrontal cortex which is a lot of the ego thought structure it shakes it up it scrambles it J Krishnamurti has a great quote that he repeated often I am the world and the world is me and he said it as it is a fact and I believe it was a fact for him this is how he experienced the world and it's not something that you can say verbally and that doesn't mean a person experiences it in my mind a person in mania experiences the world as I am the world and the world as me and this can be ecstatic and this can be terrorizing it depending on what is going on in a person's consciousness and to go in that state and first be awakened to the fact that one is the world and the world is one especially the first time can be very troubling and it perhaps gets easier over time it's like opening the can of worms the first time if I was the world in the world was me how would I want to be how would you want to be if if it was just one thing and I am the world in the world does me also implies complete responsibility and he talks about this too that were each responsible for the whole world and in the state of mania we actually do feel completely responsible for the whole world and I think that's why a lot of people feel like I have to save the world or I'm a hero or there's some kind of plot going on because we just really feel like complete responsibility for the world and that can be associated to a lot of different metaphors and stories when a person is in that state any kind of story can be made up in one's mind in order to confirm that felt sense of this is how it is and there's a truth to that that we are each completely responsible for the world when this energy comes in it's like having a conversation with the universe with the cosmos it's no longer having this monologue happening in one's head about one's own personal ego complexes but it is the universe having a conversation through you with you as you and it's talking with that and that conversation it's not like a linear logical rational conversation because the universe doesn't really work on rational principles the ego mind works based on logic and rationality when that breaks down whatever it is that's coming through is not going to be logical and rational because the ego is no longer filtering it that way and so it's a matter of listening and witnessing the conversation without taking it too personally I think and I feel like if the the psychosis process is initiated which is like the downswing it's like the deceleration it's coming back to one's ego conscious

I've done a lot of talking and a lot of what I'm talking about I would like to summarize by saying it's kind of like hacking mania so I've talked about mania as a vision casting state I've talked about embodying one's mania I've talked about harvesting one's mania for one's manic traits and it's not about the manic state as much as it is embodying one's manic traits and I talked about the idea of harvesting practicing and embodying so harvesting one's mania practicing the traits and then getting to a point where one is embodying one's manic self and daily life not as in the manic state but actually in daily life and it's embedded in the body in the neurophysiology in the neural networks and in the gestures in the muscle memory so one has become that which one was in the state mania and that's one of the things that makes mania so desirable is one really loves how how one is and so my thought is that we can still be that way in daily life it just might take a little bit of practice and even though it takes practice in daily life it doesn't necessarily have to take practice because one can become manic or in the manic state with a snap of a finger and my thought is by practicing embodying the version of oneself that one is in mania when that extra energy comes it will actually be able to be more efficient and be able to be enacted relationally and this is another thing that I thought of was that this extra energy that we that takes over us in a way a lot of times it is directed into creativity playfulness learning and just a bunch of the different manic traits and a lot of those traits and a lot of the creativity is actually something we want to share or we want to make it relational and a lot of times if we are out in public we get into conversations with strangers that we otherwise wouldn't get into and so in that way we're actually making it relational by relating with others with that manic energy and they might not even be aware that we're in the state of mania because they've never seen us before that's one of the benefits of strangers if I was in a manic state and acting out of character around my family they would start giving me the funny eyes like what is wrong with you and I would probably sense that and it would be sort of one of those buzzkill experiences and that energy gets dissipated instead of that energy getting shared relationally with a stranger who might actually find the interaction quite enjoyable with the family interaction if I'm out of my character of my normal ego self that energy is going to be dissipated in being defensive or getting into some kind of something over something and it'll be kind of a waste and it'll also bring me down and probably agitate me because I'm not being allowed to be that self that I'm wanting to be or that energy is wanting me to be that's the thing too that extra energy comes in and animates us in different ways it through through gesture through so many different things I've experienced in the manic state being a lot stronger a lot more flexible and this is just overnight there's no reason why I should have way more strength there should be no reason why I can dance sufficiently better even though i am not really dancer um and I'm stronger and if I run through a bush of prickles I don't get a scratch on me somehow so there's a lot of different things and another thing is my family they comment that I look taller which is interesting they always say oh you look taller so there's those are just some physical things that that happened but really it's that energy I think that energy totally releases all the muscle tensions that are the ego memory complexes stored in the muscles and the adapt tations we make over time and gravity that energy comes in and takes a lot of that away so I do think there are a lot of clues in the manic state and if one can survive it I've gone into a state of psychosis after and also states a depression which may have been caused more so the depre

so lately I've thought up a lot of probably 30 to 40 typed pages of much of it single spaced and they're just disjointed thoughts and ideas and insights and possibly new memes and I've been making videos on this stuff and in the last week I haven't had as much time to do that cuz i started a new job so i have a lot of to get through and i'll try my best and I don't know how coherent it will be but the point of making these videos is not as much to be coherent in a linear fashion as to just put a voice to some of the thoughts and ideas that I've had in the insights to just yeah to just put a voice to them really and they're not really intended to be anything that is necessarily true they're just sort of my own little hypotheses oftentimes when I'm getting ready for work or getting ready in the morning that's when I have a lot of insights come to me so I write them down and then after I write them down I type them up and now I'm going to translate that into video because I'm finding a lot more fun to just make videos then type up an article or something because articles usually assume that it's going to be somewhat linear and if I'm just going to have a conversation with myself I can just say whatever I want and it doesn't have to be logical or linear it just is what it is another reason I do this is because I can't remember so if I type up a paragraph and I intend it to be in some long blog post I won't remember that I typed at that particular paragraph so I won't know to put in the next logical step of that and then if I want to know how to do that I need to go and then reread what I just wrote in order to do that and so n debris reading and rereading and rereading and whereas if I just look at an idea and decide to talk about it I don't have to I'm not going to come back to that idea it's just done usually it takes a bit to get on a roll with this video making stuff my first idea that i have written down is around designing one's altruism and i believe i've talked about this before and how in mania a person often times at least for a period of time becomes very giving and altruistic and trying to put out fires wherever they go to me if a person is able to design altruism into their life it might be in alignment with the mania and something that the manic energy is trying to create which has more altruistic people at least for part of it that is actually being put into daily reality instead of just manic reality and I think that energy that's trying to create us as more altruistic worldcentric beings would be very happy about that and part of that is just thinking about what was your cause when you were in mania was there a certain thing that really fired you up and that could be something that you're actually really passionate about but in your daily monotonous life it's not something that you're concerned about but all of a sudden when this passionate energy comes in then that part of us is ignited so I had a sense of being passionate about homelessness and and that's the part two is that there's a lot of talk about this process of mania feeling like a spiritual experience now I could get attached to my spiritual experience or i could put myself in a position in life in daily life where I'm actually doing something about homelessness and in that way I'm taking what I learned from my spiritual experience and making it practical or making it a daily thing making it a reality instead of just this feeling that I had and that's a little bit of a theory I don't know if it's true if actually putting some of the elements that came to a person in that other state into practice in daily life if that actually helps or not I at some point would like to put that a lot more into practice in my own life I also feel that there'll be a time when we go from perhaps identifying as psychiatric survivors to thrivers to magic thrivers and at some point when we really become in touch with our magic we won't really feel the need to apologize for

it's all good and I'm noticing things about my communication some of the videos I'm a little bit more humorous some of them flow a lot better some of my talk for a lot longer without a break between what I'm talking about which could be a blip in the video or a blip in the video could be because I coughed or said the words really wrong I could just keep going but I decided that I would stop and then say the word over so that I could come back later and edit it so gone through and I've done a lot of editing and done a lot of editing and I think I'm ready for the next iteration of whatever it is that I want to say and I was even thinking that maybe at some point I won't even feel like I need to talk about this anymore because at least I've said it into videos I've made it into videos and I could just move on i could just drop it and whether or not i ever release the videos to the public or not it doesn't matter what matters is just that I got to say it I've got to I just think it would say it out loud and then revisit it and watch it and and I almost came up with oh did it again I'm I almost came up with a lot more insights based on just listening to what I was saying so while I was talking I had ideas of what I wanted to say but when I was expanding on those ideas i came up with new ideas and then watching myself speak i actually came up with ideas beyond some of the ideas that i said or new ways to tie them together so it was like the next integration the next evolution and it almost feels like now I've entered into this space where I'm just constantly learning from myself from that other communication that comes through and it almost feels like maybe I never need to read another book again and some of the stuff that I speak about has a background in some of the stuff that I've read and some of it doesn't but it almost some of it the book stuff is actually confirmed by my experience so then I refer to the book stuff because of that because basically and that's another thing I say a lot basically because I need more words for basically but and also i can say maybe because maybe those people have done sort of the science and i have this experience and i read those books and then I had this experience and now I'm relating my experience back to the books on what the books were saying so maybe the books and things I read primed the experience but it's just interesting after like doing all this reading and then having these experiences and being in rogers and retrospect being able to be like wow that really resonates with all the things i've read yet my experience by society is interpreted as a mental illness and i don't really see it that way as you know if you've watched some of my videos but it's okay to also include that I I do feel like it is partly true say like one or two percent true in that and it could be more percent true because that's the truth that people behold within their relational minds about that concept or suppose in fact people see it as a mental illness and that's why to me through these conversations and logs with myself just getting that energy in motion into sound words thoughts new means it could actually perhaps help to change the relational mine or change the way we relate and talk about these experiences and I have no idea if that's true but I don't know what the alternative is the alternative seems to be something really slow there's a lot of great people doing a lot of great work out there and I don't know of anyone who just starts talking with themselves into a camera about it and posting it and i don't know if i will post it the reason I'm saying this is because I feel like these perspectives might resonate with a lot of people and maybe I'll share a thousand different perspectives or a thousand different ways of thinking about it and it's not about saying that these thousand ways are right maybe they're all wrong the point is that i am thinking about it differently i'm thinking for myself about

I've been reading some of the work of dr. Daniel Siegel and in his book interpersonal neurobiology and mine site he talks about how if a person is experiencing trauma the hippocampus is shut down due to cortisol among other things and when the hippocampus is shut down the memories of the event can't be encoded properly and they lack echphoric sensation which he means they lack the sensation of the time element which means that if a memory of that event again popped up I wouldn't know that it's from the past whereas he gives the example if someone says when did you learn to run your bike you can say because you're recalling from the past you can actually think about when and describe the event so the traumatic events black this egg Forex sensation because of the hippocampus being shut down and what I thought of and I have no idea if it's true is that it's possible that when the hippocampus shuts down that information going from maybe the heart to the brain or it could be partly like the heartbeat the heartbeat is different and it's like partly contributing to the release of cortisol which the heart beats in a different way based on the perception so the perception of something not good happening seeing it like if one couldn't see it or feel it they wouldn't know what was happening to a certain extent and then the cortisol being released shuts down the hippocampus and it's not encoding the memories properly and I wonder if this is partially to protect a person from remembering everything the way it actually happened or or what it is exactly but I feel like it's possible that it happens because some of this memory actually stays and quoted in the heart so even though like a lot of times a person might not actually see what's happening to them properly but they know something Bad's happening so the heart is feeling like something bad is happening some of it could actually be encoded in the heart memory because the heart does store some memories and maybe a lot more than we actually know and I'm thinking that this could actually be like an adaptation because if the heart if the heart has the memory the heart can see the pattern recognition of of what it is that they're seeing I feel like we partly see with our heart so we see with our brain but the heart mind actually and the feeling can calculate if situation is bad for example so if a person again gets himself close to a pattern or a situation that this heart memory sees the heart immediately alerts right the heart goes and has a little rapid beat so in that way it's almost like protection from that thing happening again which you know because the brain doesn't store it rationally and logically and maybe it doesn't because whatever happened wasn't rational and logical it was fearful and terrifying it was to do with the feelings it was due to do with like one's humanity not to do with ones like linear memory process so in that way could be stored in the heart and maybe that's one of the reasons why a lot of this stuff is difficult to resolve it's not really it's not really in the rational brain process it's it's encoded more in the heart and I feel like it helps us maybe recognize something so we can escape beforehand and I feel like it's part of the fight-or-flight and you know maybe some of these patterns are already in our heart and that's why we know to jump away from certain dangerous animals and and that's pretty common to humanity it with a reflex but then some of us we have other reflexes programmed into us or experiences and a person that goes through psychosis or mania especially psychosis maybe has new patterns of fear programmed in their heart by reacting to things that weren't really there in physicality yeah they're they're inside and they're scary they could be sort of coming out of the heart or they could be just a way of kind of scaring our heart again and maybe getting the heart to fear certain patterns that are normal in society but maybe aren't so normal lik

I was just sitting down and meditating and I don't often do that the only time I ever do really is when I just have this urge to sit down and meditate which is every so often and basically I just sit down and start meditating I don't really think about it it's not premeditated meditating and I was sitting there and some random images and associations were going through my mind a little bit and then it subsided and it became really quiet and I realized I realized in that moment that my attention or the center of my felt sense of who i am who i was at that moment at least it dropped into my heart and i've read before that some people have actually have the sensation that they reside in their heart and just in that moment a few minutes ago i really felt that I didn't feel like I was my head I felt like I was my heart and and maybe I have felt that way for a while and not notice it but that was the first time that I really noticed that I felt like I was my heart and then I was breathing and noticing my breathing and I was talking in a different video about breathing and how certain types of breathing especially even amounts of breath into even amounts of breath out is coherent breathing and after a while it produces a coherent heartbeat and there's an app called stress doctor that helps one do this and there's another app called complete coherence or that's the website and the complete coherence guy I forget his name I remember watching a talk and he talks about how the heartbeat has to be coherent in order for the right sort of electrical nutrition to go from the heart to the brain because there's actually more neurons going from the heart to the brain then from the brain to the heart so more information is actually going from the heart to the brain and if the heart's beating erratically or stressed that basically goes along with stressed emotions which probably means there's a storm of thoughts and feelings going on in the body in the mind that correlate with that stressed heartbeat so all that information a lot of it is actually coming from the heart if the heart was calm the mind would probably be a lot more calm but what I was thinking about today when i realized that i was actually residing in my heart was that i was just wondering if it matters as much to breathe coherently or if the coherent breathing is sort of a way to be mindful and actually calm the heart to be in the heart and the subtle difference here is I'm wondering if a person is just in their heart if the heart is naturally more coherent instead of having to sit down and coherently breathe and there's still a ton of value in that I'm just wondering that if a person naturally was in a state of breathing coherence or heart coherence then naturally there'd be breathing coherence there'd be the proper electrical signals and energy going from the heart to the brain naturally so is it as much to practice breathing coherently or could it also be helpful to actually have the felt sense that we reside in our hearts more so than our minds and how to do that I don't know exactly perhaps not having so many thoughts in one's head all the time when naturally might feel more connected to one's heart I just feel personally that thoughts in general are very detrimental whether positive or negative there's way too much emphasis on thinking and reasoning and logic so if there's a bad logical thought and you place it with a good logical thought it's still logic and there's a lot more to life beyond that logic and what is more to life beyond that logic is life itself and life isn't logical life is life it's like a living energy vitality force so being in one's heart center is like being connected with the vital force the heartbeat that electromagnetic energy field that it creates which is thousands of times stronger than the electromagnetic field of the brain so that goes along with some of my thoughts around how a lot of mental health troubles are actually problems of the heart

I had a strange thought that kind of tripped me out actually and sometimes when I have these insights or something that I see not for real but sort of see as inner seeing it freaks me out and I've had that happen a couple times lately and then when that happens I sort of say to myself not now which just means that's not happening now so I don't need to have like the next scary thought related to that thought I don't know if that works but it seems it seems to because it's difficult to to embody having these sorts of inner visions and impressions the mayor not may not be true they're almost like future predictions or possibilities and then some of them are bit freaky and then if I get freaked out it could produce more freaky thoughts and then I could be just scared and terrorized by these possibilities so that's why I've been saying not now and I haven't had to do that very often but for example I had this sort of thought about how one day we'll probably be able to like upload ourselves into the cloud because we're uploading data and documents and everything so one day you know will probably be uploaded into the cloud and I was sort of related to simulation theory which says chances are one day will be in a simulation version of reality and if if that's true then chances are were already in a simulation which is kind of weird it's a good simulation so I just related to that I'm like well we've probably up in the cloud which if we're all up in the cloud we would be able to almost project infinite simulations as our cloud selves and basically if we all went up into the cloud as our cloud selves and then the earth got destroyed because it inevitably will be at this rate yet if a few human survived eventually those few humans would probably go back to just living like the indigenous people did you know because everything else was destroyed or everything that was created by the mind of man didn't work out so it'd almost be like okay let's not do that let's go back to being indigenous people and then eventually they would just be like the indigenous people again and the earth would restore itself to some extent and then all of a sudden maybe like the people from the cloud come back and that's like you know the appearance of the alien you know the alien species which basically came back and then you know maybe decided well let's put the jeans back in the people that were indigenous in order for them to actually create again this world of man in the biology because you know it was kind of boring up here in the cloud in infinite simulations and an instant gratification you know we we want to go back to the world where we don't know what's going to happen where they're surprises where you know everything feels real and material and everything and then you know then they get to the point where is it oh we're uploading yourselves into the cloud again this sucks well let's wait for the earth to be restored and then we'll go back down and do it again so I had that thought that you know people would go back to the indigenous nature and then it was just sort of start all over again maybe that's already happened numerous times if not that would make a cool movie script right another thing about connecting to this inner energy this inner voice this inner information that's producing different voices or different information or different thoughts creativity it's to me it's almost like the voice of nature and it's the voice of Gaia and it's very distressing to see all the things that are happening to the earth and that's one of the things that causes these aberrant weird behaviors is that somebody's like in distress over all of this and instead of being able to communicate like oh my gosh look look like we're due into the world and each other it's taken as this person is unwell but really we need a listening ear we need somebody to listen to us and and I'll just talk us back into reality but also listen to some of the concerns because a lot of

so the first random bit I want to talk about today is about experiential learning and how altered states of consciousness such as mania are sort of like experiential learning experiences so usually we try to learn by maybe reading or watching YouTube but it's another thing to have an energy take us over that causes us to behave in different ways that actually gets learning happening in our psychosomatic organism in our physiology in our neural plasticity so if I wanted to learn tennis and I practiced a lot of hours that would be embedded in my muscle memory as well as in my brain and neuroplastic changes in my brain certain areas my brain would be more connected or larger or light up when I'm in that action of tennis so in that way I feel like the universe is trying to get us to be some kind of player it's trying to get us to act and be in a different way and I talked before about how Buckminster fuller had a quote relating to the spontaneous social behaviors needed in order to save humanity and save the planet and I feel this energy is an energy that is creating some of those spontaneous social behaviors to save the planet and after a person has an experience like this at least in my experience it changed me a lot and I also had the thought that mania is sort of like disorganized kindness or or disorganized altruism a person to just popping around trying to be kind everywhere and being kind beyond one's bounds so for example I might in that state think that I should give all my money away because I feel like I have everything I need so i should give all my money to charity and while that's really wonderful and kind of me it is not going to help me function in a daily basis because i'll have no money to function so society is not structured the way that a person in mania feels it is it feels like Society runs on kindness and giving and sharing and love and that actually might be the underlying fabric of reality and how reality works naturally that's how we're naturally programmed from birth is to connect and to be kind to each other into care just like the mothers programmed to care for infant and the infant is programmed to respond so I feel like in that state that altered state called mania or maybe magic or mystery a person feels like they understand those underlying fundamental laws of reality and they are the laws of reality but they're written / by our clever human programs and so I also thought of this idea of how mania is kind of like its kindness and wonderful and lovely but a certain point it becomes altruistic anxiety it feels like one has so much to give and doesn't know how to give it and so it's almost like we implode because we have we just don't know how to be in that state all the time and perhaps because that state isn't the way society is designed it's a state we feel like we get to that state and it's like an infinite state and it's a timeless state so it feels like that's how it always is and that's how it always has been and that's just the way the world works but once reconnected to consensus reality we realized well as not the way it works but that state exists in a place beyond time it's always everywhere ever-present omnipotent it's something to do with the quantum hologram and it's like the underlying fabric but since that knot isn't how it is all the time we feel it just when we're in that state which feels like a timeless state but I still feel that that state wants to unfold and inform the material linear everyday reality so there's something to be harvested from that state and usually a person in that state it's too much energy there's way too much energy in that state and and I've talked in another video how it's like a person goes around dissipating all the energy until they crash and they usually crash lower than the baseline but it's because it's almost like it it is that painful to come back to daily reality from that timeless state and I'm not saying that's true this is just these are ju

some people that aren't these extreme adventure sport athletes well the same can go for mania if mania is sort of a flow state can one bring some of those elements into one's daily life to be more flowy in daily life instead of just following into the cycle of depression and then not taking anything of value from the mania I feel like if something's taken and practiced then maybe the depression won't happen so much I also had a thought that it seems that there is an evolutionary force that's trying to shut down the prefrontal cortex so mania addictions schizophrenia you know probably various mental until illnesses shut down the prefrontal cortex which is the me the linear thinking the sense of separation and then there's a lot of movement consciously to shut it down through mindfulness through meditation through yoga through so many things that people are doing on a daily basis to shut it down and in terms of the flow state that shot sit down so flow is so great like why do we need this prefrontal cortex at all where do we get it from one of my questions is why do we condition kids out of their flow because I feel they're in flow when they're born to a certain point when they go to school and I learn the rules and they learn this and they learn the judgments and they learn how to measure themselves again and compare and then here goes the yammering voice yadi yadi yadi why do we give people why do we get children that voice at all and then we cradles hoopla and self-help and even this if this research about flow be like wow it's so amazingly flow right flow we got to be in flow well we were in flow when we were kids so why do we keep giving our kids this why are we allowing them to inherit this why do we keep going on with this and then interestingly enough I don't know much about the neuroanatomy or neurophysiology or neuro electricity or neurobiology of autism but I'm guessing that there's something ask you with the prefrontal cortex which is the me which is the thinking which is the reasoning which is the rationality which is the judgment which is the words which is the language why are such a large percentage of children acquiring or whatever happens of course there's lots of debate about why there's so many children that are autistic or on the spectrum they're not picking up language I feel that language is actually the problem we're talking about old genetics of this and genetics of that I mentioned in another video is really the memes it's the memetics it's the words we're poisoning each other with our words and now there's a generation of children being born or it's been going on for a while and I think it'll only get worse that are not able to pick up the language in the same way something that you know 20 years ago was taken for granted that a child would just pick up language now all of a sudden there's a whole profession and so many people trained on how to intervene to shove language down these children's throats who can't acquire it and we never questioned the words themselves we never questioned what it is we're trying to force them to acquire and I feel like the prefrontal cortex is on its way out through people going through these spontaneous crises and transformations and not being steady state and so many people meditating there's so many people trying to get rid of the very thing that we're trying to impress upon these autistic children and I'm not trying to say don't teach them language I'm just it's just very sad and interesting to me that I feel autism is evolutionary as well just like mental health and mania and this energy coming up through people in mania and in another video I talked about the spontaneous social behaviors that will stave off extinction and I feel a lot of those are expressed or someone in mania with their hyper altruism and sort of dissipate it out to the multitude and then the person crashes and instead of seeing them as sort of a hero temporary hero in a way they're seen as ill