Two years agoI packed up my life and moved back home, into my parents house, after deciding to get a divorce. It's a decision I never wanted to have to make but it was my only option. Relationships take two people who want to do everything to make it work, and unfortunately I was the only one who wanted to try.
So I sent my mom a text and let her know what was going on. I knew that once I sent that text things were going to start to happen and I would be headed home - once mom knows, that's it!
I had never felt so low in my life. I was scared, embarrassed, and mad at myself for even being in that situation in the first place. I was 28 years old and I had given up everything for my relationship. I was away from my family, left my career, and doing everything for someone who didn't care about me at all.
I thought leaving was going to be the hard part, over the last two years I have had to take a real look at myself and come to grips with the decisions I made that put me in that situation. Decisions that were for other people, and not myself. Decisions that were influenced heavily by society, and not trusting my gut.
In my lowest of lows I sent that text to my mom with one second of strength - trusting myself to do what I knew what the right choice but was also going to be the most difficult and devastating.
Sometimes when your back is against the wall like that you have no other option but to trust yourself. But sometimes that is the hardest thing to do. You might not feel strong, confident, or bold in that moment but finally deciding to trust yourself is one of the boldest things you can do.
That decision is the catapult that brought me here and I am so thankfully you have decided to listen to my story and join me on this journey. We are going to dive into a lot of what I have learned in the past 10 years and I hope that you will find resources and the courage to be bold along the way!
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