Todays episode is my thoughts on how I’m dealing with grief after the recent untimely passing of my younger brother Chiko. I try to articulate the small parts of dealing with grief, the head space that I find myself in. The title is from a note, that I got from my sister, that describes perfectly the emotions that occurs during a time of grief, confusion, brain fog, the tiredness, the lack of sleep, the feelings of guilt, the question marks that plague you as a sibling, brother, friend.