Diary Of A Black Man

Here I discover years later than the death of my father when I was 20 years old would end up being a life changing event.

Short story on what it’s like living with a muted mind in a society where you have to watch what you do and say. As an African immigrant I have had an insight to feeling castrated by my own mind.

A short story about my road to being a father and how I see fatherhood in the Morden day.

Todays podcast I discuss body image issues the hidden tragedies that the world is facing in todays world of social media and fitness planet.

Todays episode I talk about suffering, it’s not in common for people to suffer all over the world and it’s not unique for us as human being to suffer. What we must strive to do is learn to find coping mechanisms.

Today’s episode I dive deep into the reasons people fail because they take themselves too seriously with regards to living an east and uncomplicated life. As a 45 year old male I find myself asking questions as to why I still feel unsatisfactory despite my many amazing achievements. Why I have failed in the past and the better way to live this life without the crippling toxic relationship I have with wanting to be seen as a successful man.

Every day, I find myself thinking about the subtle nuisances of life and I ask myself question as to how I find myself in certain situations. I think about mental health and the effects that get us to be in a state of a fractured mind. The need for perfection and success. The need to be loved and to be seen to be doing better than expected. I breakdown conversations that get you to think about your very own experiences in life.

In this episode I discuss how it is being separated and trying to get back into the dating world. After years of living in Surrey a predominantly white county, how does a middle aged black man get back to the dating world. What’s it like to date black again. How easy is it to make a meaningful connection with someone who’s from a different race. My thoughts regarding why I married outside my race. Rarely discussed topic, regarding the difficulties is belonging on n a place where, you will always feel like an illegal alien.

This episode I dive into my personal life with snippets of traumas that I have dealt with and continue to deal with through out my life until now. A celebration of a year into my life after a liver transplant. Breaking up, have a big breakdown and staying in a mental hospital having been sectioned.

In a world where, they are so many pitfalls, it’s important to ask yourself important questions, are you living a life full of Purpose. What does that actually look like, in life we can either coast through life and live without purpose or we can seek a life that will fulfil our daily needs, a life of joyful experiences and purpose required for a successful life. It can often be tragic when we walk round with our heads buried in the sand like and Ostrich. That’s never a good thing to do, it’s unethical and unnerving to people round us.