DIZZY VX

In the beginning for most dreamers- in the beginning of the dream, we typically never understood why we started we just remembered our passion and that we wanted this ya know? We all question why are we doing this? We seek for our own reasoning and our own resolves and sometimes we forget the best parts about dreams is waking up and seeing it come to fruition. I remember when this dream first began. The first song that I ever rapped to was Lil Wayne's Beat Build. The year where Lollipop by Lil Wayne came on. You remember that year? It was an amazing year. So amazing that as kids we were inspired. As a Kid, I loved entertainment. Loved, everything of what it meant to be a rockstar. With humility and a sense of love, dedication became the new norm. Wishing came into working. The dream, slow in the beginning but over time gave birth to new reasons for finally reaching that "AHAAAA", living it. Those new dreams, gave dreams of more. Dreams of love and how much more further we can expand and grow. I love it.

4.) A Mix Of Lyircs I Remembered by D.Payne

MIDAS TOUCH (Prod. By ScottyMuzik) by D.Payne

Inside I realized certain things that I overlooked for others until I realized the things people address hypocritically. So quick to judge in the beginning. Hate when love turns into a test. Especially when it comes to people that are loved and I am sure you realized it too. Some people feel a disconnect. Walking around aimlessly unsure of who they are or even what you are and really in the end I guess it makes sense. Where spirit is and where love is. I say test the spirits and even guard your hearts.

Then I'm Done Freestyle (Prod. By Mike Hertz)) by D.Payne

This one was selfexplanatory. We go on and on again. There was a description I wrote but... Whatever...

Nobody knows, why we put these words together in the ways that we do. Nobody knows why we search for what's the best thing to say. Nobody knows why we fight for these things that we are passionate of and about and for. Money hungry people always tend to forget theres more to life. Slaving away to be the next best thing. We all seek for comfort. Peace. For Love. What happens when theres nothing left to prove because you've already proven you're great and you can stop trying. People go back to my old music and hear me freestyle and reminisce on the fun that used to be what was the best times with nothing but a microphone and what was the belief of what is simply moments where we should celebrate how far we've come. Nobody knows if we're going to Heaven or even Hell and one day we'll have to stand by God and answer for what we did. Our hearts will be weighed and personally- I get tired of other people being that weight. On my heart. On my mind. Nobody knows why empathetic people turn so cold. Nobody understands the difference between performing miracles and wanting to be seen as an individual of nobility. Nobody knows why we want the validation. Saying the same things differently, conveying stories that can impact, make a difference and even emulate a change. Nobody knows if it is therapy or if it is truth. All we have is the understanding of beginning and ending.

People are not as accountable as they believe they are. People believe that they are all victims of a terrible perpetrator. However, the good people that get tired of being haggled get tired. Especially those that have been abused. We all get tired of being the good person. Sometimes, we are the strong ones that people rely on. Sometimes we play the background character even though God wants you in the forefront. Sometimes we believe that our responses are justified but some are not. I've overreacted after being wronged for an continuous amount of time. Truly, I think we all have at one point or another. Sometimes certain people hate you for the actions that they took with you. Sometimes the judgements of others cause us to change our behaviors and actions. We need to do better. All of us. You, me and really I do believe there is always a space for healing. And the reality isn't the people are not as accountable as they are. Some people believe just apologizing is enough. It takes work to build relationships. They can be ruined instantly. Nobody is perfect. We all have perspective. Everyone believes in communication but a lot of people struggle to understand comprehension is important. especially dealing with people that believe that giving an answer instead of letting a person vent. People say certain people dont listen but what do you do when you've been listening entirely and people that will exemplify that they want to leave situations due to insecurities that are projected. Hatred and coercive control that are gifted meanwhile you were hoping for a difference. All without speaking about any situation- what if you are perceived as the bad guy and you're offended by the perspectives of another even though you shouldn't shoulder it and you're last resort is being the bad guy because people didn't understand that you were respectful in the very beginning? People are people. All things fade but God stays. Those who take the time to understand you... Those are the ones that deserve the accountability.

If Loves A Drug, This would be the portion that makes a drug user think his life over. I got love. That is my lean. That is my drugs. I've done em. Personally, we chase cheap dopamine. cheap thrills, we forget how beautiful life was before the introduction of a lot of things. I've never seen weed kill anybody until it became legal. Alcohol and vaping has become a lot of peoples new norms. Crazy to think we have an epidemic of people that consume drugs to alleviate, our anxious hearts. Our deepest and depressive sensitivities. We numb ourselves. Block out pain as if it doesn't exist. Without projecting, we've lost people to drugs. I love doing art. I love the rush I get from what I've done. Whether bad or good. If I took it more serious as a lot of other artists. Maybe I'd live my life that way. I don't. I understood just as quick as you can get something you can lose it. Proverbs 10:22 states that God doesn't add sorrow. And you know just to be honest people in the bible also had things going on too. Equivalently human in every shape fashion and form. I say people have a right to themselves. Some change, some don't. But my drugs, won't be heavy. I'll be high off life. High off love. or hide my sadness away from people. But for love of myself.

What happens when the drive and the fire that resides in you goes brittle and the fire that burns seems to dwindle away? People think when it comes to music-It's glamorous how we go from being basically nobodies into somebodies when in reality theres artist that don't say anything... or if they did... It was ONE LINE THAT CAUGHT SOMEBODIES ATTENTION. How fast we deliberately give an audience of lesser attentive minds a chance to believe that we are the ones that are truly deserving. A cop saved Lil Wayne. People are struggling else where and tbh I think the things we glorify and want recognition for we never really seem to value it without a sensation of pride. Being a good person isn't just about performative behavior. I tend to believe it is a little bit more. And when the curtains close and you're home after your first sets of adrenaline rushes are gone, I think we remember just how human we are. Artists going to jail for making basic human errors. Some people just believe they're above things... Ironically the program. People go oh this person just wants to be famous. Honestly, I believe those who want fame need understanding on how to maintain it. Too many people dont have identities. Then again, as humans we feed off of knowledge given to us. We used to idolize these human beings. Forgetting we are really just human as they are. So what happens when the drive and the fire that resides in you goes brittle and the fire that burns seems to dwindle away? Who are you at the end of the day? I'd rather be the guy that says something and nothing of substance with intention of awakening and truth. Even where my previous self was so keen on proof of my legitimacy who remembers when that fire first was invented. Music doesn't make you a rockstar. You either are or you are. Without a microphone. To the nurse who saved that child. Thank you. To the mailman who delivers great news. Thank you. To the person who gave you your first couple of steps and giving a footing thank you. To the previous rappers who have came and went thank you for being the spark and Lastly, God bless and thank you GOD. We are all humans here for what is a speck of a second. Lets be glad that in our exsistence we are reminded that the fire is what we are and who we are. It isn't what others perceive and it also is where truth still resides in sincerity. We want the chicks, the blow up and nobody really understands really it truly is God that adds wealth unlike the world. Even when the money, flows and everything else in life is in alignment with God we learn to be honestly our very best in every action, decision and opportunity that presents itself infront of us.