Elaina

Living with Fibromyalgia, is like being hot and cold at the same time, while being aggravated by the pain. Fibromyalgia is consider as an autoimmune disease. The pain can be like needles, fire, ants to electric shocks at any point in the body. Being so stiff you fill like you are carrying bricks when you walk. A tiredness that never goes, even eight hours isn’t enough. Fibromyalgia can cause many other issues as well. Also I have CPS(Central Pain Syndrome), where my body no longer knows how to process pain, that’s why I’m always in excruciating pain. Some seasons are worse then others, like summer and winter are worse when it comes to the pain, then with the rain and cold temperatures. There really isn’t a break from not having pain. Fibromyalgia can happen from many factors but two of them is trauma and if you had a serious accident, like an injury to your back. Which I fit all the criteria. Doing research, butterflies are a symbol of being fragile but a rebirth. To live with a condition a disease a new way of life, while looking vibrant from all the changes of life.

Some people can't stand to see the individuals who are winning, they run to who is winning. Keep that smile on your face, keep spreading the light. Everything done in the dark will come to the light. I realized being an adult is like high school 2.0. Some people haven't grown past high school, while others are beyond their age. No storm lasts forever, it's okay to be angry for a little while, but eventually, you'll see the wisdom in it. Funny how life can teach very important lessons while keeping you patient.

Not only did it happen once, it happened twice two individuals breaking your confidentiality without your permission. You thought I would be angry or take extreme measures for it to never happen again. Both of you were in the medical field, you should know what violating HIPPA means? Let’s get to the point you didn’t care. You only care now because you lost your job and credibility. You can never be trusted ever again. You play the victim and blame others for your own doings, but you were a lying traitor who can be trusted ever again. You got what you deserve, I won’t be letting this go anytime soon. 

When you fall for someone, you had a crush on them. It could have been years ago, but they played you like a fiddle. They were scared of you. They would run and hide, and they were afraid to face you, so they would get your friends to tell you what they had to say. Instead of being a man and being brave, you couldn't face me yourself. You would hide behind everyone to feel safe. You would give orders to all of us in the class, but you couldn't face me? How does that work? A woman wants a brave man, who isn't afraid to speak up, not someone who has to get everyone to do the work for him. It's no wonder why your relationships didn't last, and why you had so many arguments. If you dared to say how you felt, you wouldn't be hiding behind everyone else.