Feelin Weird

Danika Ransome talks about her experience growing up with BPD, fibromyalgia and chronic fatigue syndrome.  We also discuss nine symptoms of BPD, which gives the listener a better idea of what it's like to experience the disorder.

CW: bullying, self-harm, violence.

We talk about:
dissociation + depersonalization;
fear of abandonment;
self-harm;
her chaotic childhood (bullying & violence),
using social media as a support system;
body positivity;
self-medication;
validation; 
laughter as a coping mechanism;
chaotic relationships;
anger;
and SO much more.

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Holly Lowery (ED recovery coach + anti-diet advocate) talks about her history with disordered eating & recovery AND presents healthier ways to have relationship with food & eating.

We also talk about:
myths & misconceptions about food & eating, eating disorder grey areas, atypical anorexia/bulimia, "clean eating" communities, diversifying our online representations of beauty, the damage disordered eating inflicts, set-point weight, fear of food and weight gain, food restricting, getting rid of the word "exercise", over-exercising, the link between depression/anxiety and eating disorders and SO much more.

This episode is awesome!  There are SO many misconceptions about eating disorders (most people aren't even aware of their disordered eating habits) and they affect SO many people.  Food is not a moral issue!

Holly's IG: @hollylowerydavis
Books mentioned: Health at Every Size by Linda Bacon AND Intuitive Eating by Evelyn Tribole.  

If you wonder whether you have an eating disorder or not, take NEDA's quiz https://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/screening-tool

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Janet talks binge eating & purging; her mother's death; fatphobia; body-shaming & positivity; the myth of "good" and "bad" food; 12-step programs & the challenges of recovery and MORE!

CW: suicide, self-harm, addiction, death.

Janet Ford (artist & author) talks about her 22 years of disordered eating.  It started at age 14, as her mom was dying, and soon she became addicted to both-binge eating and purging as a coping mechanism.  At one point she was binge/purging 4-8 times per day (each purge could cost $100 and she spent ~3 hours in the bathroom afterwards each time).  She lied, cheated and stole so she could afford the habit.  BUT, there's redemption!  This is a fascinating story for anyone, whether you suffer from eating disorders or not.

We also talk about:
misconceptions about bulimia, body positive instagram accounts, diet culture, breaking down "good" and "bad" food, the concept of 'health', adults as role models for children, recovery and SO much more!

Janet is the author of Delusions of Grandeur and the soon-to-be-published 100 Days of Bulimia.  She can be reached on Instagram @fordjanet or [email protected]

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Paul G (artist/musician) talks about: their journey from CIShet monogamous male TO agender, pansexual, polyamorous person; the paradox of the universe; the gender binary; non-violent communication; co-dependency; toxic masculinity; ayahuasca retreats; & body dysmorphia.

We also talk about:
the coming out process, Wu Wei, cannabis + alcohol dependency, misconceptions about polyamory, accepting diversity, what it's like to be non-conforming in a binary world, rejecting and embracing labels, gender dysphoria, the paradox of the universe, Wu Wei (trying not to try), the importance of respect, and SO much more.

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Cher shares his experience with D.I.D.*; being trans; having an abusive step-father; being bullied; and his various alters ("alternate personalities").

CW: suicide, emotional & physical abuse, homophobia, transphobia, bullying.

D.I.D. is often portrayed through a negative lens in the media, but now we have a chance to hear first hand what it's like to live with.

Cher also talks about:
his transphobic father and mother (a doctor) who doesn't believe in meds or mental illness; coping with trauma and PTSD; shame spirals; suicide attempts; anxiety and depression; medication; therapy; being misgendered as a child; and SO much more.

(*the media has labeled D.I.D. "Multiple Personality Disorder" though it is not a personality disorder--it's also referred to as split personalities or multiplicity).

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He was in rehab at age 14 and living in a homeless shelter in his 20s.  He crashed a car into a house and was locked out of his apartment by police.  He's sober now (and an amazing photographer)!  My anonymous guest tells his story of addiction, recovery, grief, suicide attempts, and finding peace.

CW: suicide, self-harm, death, addiction.

We also talk about:
relapse, his father's death, detox, blackouts and fighting, the shame cycle, losing everything, spirituality, meditation, getting around "god", 12-step recovery programs, and MUCH more.

You will love this one, I promise.  He has a WILD story and a big heart.

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Haley O. talks about her experience with depression, PTSD and Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviors (called "BFRBs" eg. skin picking).  She talks about her diagnoses (Turrets, ADHD, OCD, anxiety and depression) and about the two major traumatic situations that led to her BFRB and major depression.

CW: sexual abuse.

We also talk about:
having sensitive nervous systems, PTSD, trauma and guilt, support groups, high-stress jobs, reaching out for help, courage, redefining "success" for yourself and SO much more.

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An anonymous guest tells the story of how she was rejected from an out-patient program (rehab) after hitting a "bottom".  She talks about BPD, addiction, rehab, self-sabotage, coping mechanisms & health insurance.

CW: overdose, addiction, hospital.

We also talk about:
drugs, alcohol, anxiety, depression, self-hatred, abstinence-based recovery, shitty AND good therapists/doctors, fear of being "too much", labels and diagnoses, therapists, healing, meditation, meds, (CW) overdoses, drug interactions, creating our crazy-person-commune in Cincinnati and MUCH more.

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My guest talks about her bipolar mother & wealthy, absent father, how her childhood traumas transferred into addictions which she later went to rehab for, AND how she's learning mindfulness in order to deal with her anxiety, depression and relational challenges.

CW: self-harm, addiction.

We also talk about:
having to parent your parent, codependency, The Chopra Centre (Squamish, BC rehab), having a mentally ill mother & wealthy absent father, cannabis addiction, meditation, non-violent communication, self-esteem, CHALLENGING relationships & challenges within relationships (being hyper critical of yourself, your partner and your relationship), mindfulness, privilege, major depression, bipolar, BOUNDARIES, being hard on yourself, and much more.

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Levi Chase (Ep 16) talks about their first threesome, fear & attraction towards men, non-monogamy, being sensitive & neurotic, AND my recent suicide attempt.

CW: suicide, self-harm.  

We also talk about:
making friends on dating apps, the validity of our queerness, group sex, non-monogamy and all the confusion associated with it, relationships, (CW) why we shouldn't kill ourselves, AND about how much we love each other!

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