Feelin Weird

Nathalie Maragoni (associate family & marriage therapist) was diagnosed at age 11 with OCD, but presented her first symptoms at age 4.  She explains how ERP (exposure response prevention) saved her from her own torment.  She's currently in the midst of completing her masters degree and training hours so that she can specialize in helping people with OCD and anxiety disorders.

We also talk about:
Pure O,
scrupulosity,
sexual orientation,
intrusive thoughts and compulsions,
and muuuuuuuuuuuuuuch more (obvs)!

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BONUS episode!  I talk about my tumultuous + toxic love affair with cocaine and what eventually led to a suicide attempt last September.  Though suicide is often seen as purely negative, I found this experience to be life-changing and I think it needed to happen to me.

This is not a 'typical' episode because, as you see in the title, I interviewed myself.  I thought it would be a funny way to talk about something fairly "heavy".  I don't know if it ended up being funny at all...  But I think the episode is still very interesting--though I'm very nervous to share it.  People open up to me (and thousands of strangers who listen to Feelin Weird) every week about things that scare them, and 75% of guests (not a mathematician...) feel VERY nervous about doing it and are often hesitant to even share their stories, so I think it's important for me to share my WEIRD things as well (so I know what it's like).  In my opinion, it's VERY important to talk about suicide (ideations, attempts, and just suicide in general) and I'm happy to share my experience.

TRIGGER WARNING: I talk about suicide, drugs and cutting myself--also, there is mention of blood.  Please be cautious if any of those things trigger you!  I honestly don't find these things hard to listen to--I LOVE HEARING THESE STORIES--but I know everyone is different.

Thanks so much for listening, friend!

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JUST WHAT THE WORLD NEEDS, more of me *eyeroll*.  Well, okay, this is an interview I did for an anonymous person and I decided to share it because WHY NOT.  The full version of this episode is available on my Patreon Account

Things we discuss: 
crippling depression, 
life after a suicide attempt (TW), 
what keeps us going, 
the absurdity of life, 
workaholics, 
cocaine, 
faking it, 
mental health diagnoses, 
laughter as a coping mechanism VS avoiding our problems, 
journalism, 
documentaries, 
and MUCH MORE.

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PART TWO of my talk with an anonymous guest: from bible college to rehab.  It's the classic "it started out as a really fun time, and soon after became a horrific dependency" story.  Wait, is that a classic?  I dunno...  ANYWAY, on a solo backpacking trip in Europe, she broke her wrist in a drunken accident.  Naturally, it didn't heal properly so a number of surgeries later, she was left in a cast with nothing to do for an entire year (which was ample time to develop a dependency on cocaine and alcohol).  

We talk all things: 
disordered eating, 
cocaine and alcohol addiction, 
rehab + recovery, 
being HYPER SENSITIVE (HSP), 
TW sexual assault (briefly mentioned), 
TW self-harm (cutting), 
inter-generational trauma (how trauma passes down the line), 
therapy pets, 
VULNERABILITY + people taking advantage of us, 
the horror of shows and school (being HSP), 
and a whole shit ton more :)

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We talk: being a highly sensitive person (HSP) & an empath; being a "good" kid; bible college; perfectionism; organized religion; & feeling inadequate

PART ONE! My guest was class valedictorian, got good grades, went to bible college, and didn't drink or have sex until she was 20, so how did she end up in rehab a few years later?  She appeared to be "excelling" in life (destined for great things), but she was SEVERELY depressed--her coping mechanism was disordered eating, and later alcohol and drugs.

This is PART ONE of her story.

We talk about:
being a highly sensitive person and an empath; 
organized religion; 
perfectionism; 
stage fright; 
feeling inadequate; 
being a female in a male-dominated music scene; 
overwhelming pressure to "succeed"; 
comedy specials; 
and SO much more.

Listen to PART TWO here!

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Tilly tells her story of surviving (and thriving) with a B.P.D. (borderline personality disorder) diagnosis!  

Tilly Baker (diagnosed with B.P.D.) is one of the most magical, wonderful people on this planet!  She's an angel with GREAT style and mental health issues.

We talk ALL things BPD.  This is one hell of an episode; you'll love it AND fall in love with her.

Tilly's IG: @tillybaker

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Tanille Geib, multi-disciplinary artist/educator, talks with me about the power of vulnerability!

We also talk about:
aging,
rejecting beauty standards,
rejection & desire,
healing the self,
complex PTSD (CPTSD),
burnout,
self-care,
trauma and SO much more!

Contact Tanille:
http://www.tanillegeib.ca/
Instagram: @tanillegeib

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Kimberley Quinlan specializes in treating Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) and Body Focused Repetitive Behaviors (BFRB's) and she talks to me about THE STRUGGLE.  How did the daughter of a hard-working farmer in Australia end up as a family & marriage therapist in Los Angeles?  Listen to this episode!

She explains how Exposure and Response Prevention (ERP), Acceptance and Commitment Therapy (ACT), and Habit Reversal Training (HRT) are the only medically proven techniques for dealing with intrusive thoughts and BFRBs.

Kimberley's resources:
http://kimberleyquinlan-lmft.com/
Instagram: @CBTschool
BFRB.ORG

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BONUS episode!  This is the first time I've tried doing an episode where I talk about my life and ramble on (in like....2 years???).  It's scary to put this out there, but................I don't really care anymore.

Things I talk about:

my father's depression

my trauma

acknowledging my trauma

healing my trauma

how my trauma affects how I exist and the relationships I have

the INTENSE pain and fear and hurt that exists within my body

my GAYness 

anger and hurt (go hand in hand)

'The Body Keeps The Score'

the first time I used a dildo

moving out of the city; moving to calm/quiet/nature

the power of journaling

positive affirmations

moving in with my parents for the fourth time as an adult

adopting a dog???

LEARNING TO LOVE/ACCEPT MYSELF

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CW: sexual assault, violence, murder, and suicide.

Shayne D has spent 22 of his 47 years in prison.  In the last few years, he has been diagnosed with BPD and ADHD which has allowed him to access support for his illnesses.  BASICALLY, Shayne is a glowing example of how untreated trauma and mental illness can manifest in EXTREME pain and suffering.  Oh, also, he's currently serving a life sentence for murder...  But, don't let that trip you up, because Shayne is one of the most sensitive, well spoken people I've ever talked to.  JUST LOOK at the episode photo--that's the smile of a kind soul. 

In the last few years, he's discovered theatre and poetry and piano and has found them to be TREMENDOUS outlets for his internal pain and his feelings.  

This is a MUST listen.  I know I say every episode is my favourite, but this one hits me right in the feelings.  

We also talk about: 
being abandoned by parents who struggled with addiction; 
sexual abuses he faced and hid from himself and the world due to shame; 
fear of rejection + abandonment; 
being HIGHLY sensitive; 
overcoming fear; 
solitary confinement; 
intuition & empathy; 
extreme feelings of loneliness; 
understanding your triggers; 
the power of validation and support groups; 
and SO much more.

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