Feelin Weird

Raul is disabled, queer and radical; they have Lyme Disease & Bipolar; we talk dissociation, CPTSD, Meds, support systems, being young and disabled & more!

CW: violence

Raul Odo has been living with chronic pain since they were 6 and were bitten by a lyme-carrying tick.  It was caught immediately, and Raul was informed that they would never have to worry about it...but somehow the antibiotics didn't kill the bacteria.  This is their story!

We also discuss: 
being young and disabled, 
dissociating, 
being homeless and sick, 
inability to work a 9-5 job, 
CPTSD, 
kratum, 
medication, 
introversion vs. extroversion, 
doctors who don't listen, 
social media as a support community + outlet, 
coming out trans/queer at a young age, 
aaaaaaand MORE.

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• Instagram: @feelinweirdpod
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Contribute $5-to-50/month AND access EVERY regular + bonus Feelin Weird episode on the Feelin Weird PATREON: patreon.com/feelinweird

(PART 2) Shayne Dyment returns (from ep 60) to talk about life as a free person after serving 20 years in prison for murder.

We talk all things:  
positive thinking / manifesting your destiny,
prison life + sociopaths + jealous people,
hope,
EMDR,
reality tv + tabloids VS. openness / vulnerability,
denial + being unable to process trauma,
being a self-taught person (learning on your own),
SHAME,
and all things BPD, ADHD, and HSP.

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Shayne returns to talk about life outside of prison: being sensitive, freedom, optimism, trauma, suffering, enlightenment + MORE

Shayne D. returns (from ep 60) to talk about life as a free person!  He was recently released from prison--he served 20 years for multiple murder charges--and has LOTS of thoughts and observations about life on the outside.  The answer to "how does it feel" is not as straight forward as you may think...  

We also discuss:
being a Highly Sensitive Person (HSP);
Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) (fear of rejection / abandonment);
loneliness;
trauma;
optimism;
empathy;
shame + guilt;
why we suffer;
our ability to change;
enlightenment;
psychological solitude;
the power of vulnerability;
AND MORE

Listen to PART TWO on patreon:

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Amber talks abusive/neglectful parents; radical healing; hyper-sensitivity; compassion & empathy; & finding out her abusive dad was repressing his homosexuality (after he died)!

She found out her angry, violent father was gay after he died (via his hidden dildo and porn collection) but he never let on that he had a secret. But what chance did he have? His dad used to drive him into the country to beat the shit out of him and leave him to find his way home. Amber suspects it's because her grandpa knew her dad was "different". I call amber my guru--she considers herself a claircognizant medium. She went through a four year period of deep, crippling depression but managed to work through her trauma in a strange and wonderful way. This is a wild story!

We also discuss:
OCD,
getting pregnant at 16 and kicked out of her house,
cutting + depression + hopelessness,
optimism,
compassion,
being HYPER SENSITIVE,
her dad's speedo collection,
a secret, magical letter she wrote me,
and lots more!

Listen to the FULL episode on patreon

• ​​Support on PATREON: patreon.com/feelinweird
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• Instagram: @feelinweirdpod
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 Access EVERY regular + bonus Feelin Weird episode on the Feelin Weird patreon: patreon.com/feelinweird

My friend from church + high school days and I reconnect 14 years later to talk about growing up in conservative, extremely sheltered christian environments.  We had a falling out in 12th grade, which we discuss.  Both of us started drinking and partying shortly after this.  This is the fallout of sheltering your children from "the secular world".

We also discuss:
taking philosophy courses which caused us to "lose our faith",
shame + guilt,
divorce,
trauma,
sarcasm,
the long list of boys I've loved,
being a queer in a straight world,
teenage angst,
the weird christian world we lived and breathed,
missions trips,
AND more...

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Joey talks surviving a SEVERE eating disorder; outpatient recovery; binge + purge; sexual assault (CW); & the harm of "clean eating".

Joey (poet/artist) tells her story of surviving a severe eating disorder--at her worst, she was bingeing 5 times per day but eventually she checked herself into an outpatient recovery program. PLUS we talk about the inter-connection between eating disorders and mental health. Joey is a writer who lives in New York (AND ALSO A REALLY NICE + FUNNY PERSON!).

We also talk:
unplanned pregnancy + abortion,
sexual assault (CW),
"clean eating" as a gateway drug to disordered eating,
binge + purging,
set point weight theory,
writing as an outlet,
AND MUCH MORE!

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My high-school partner & I chat agoraphobia; coming out; being FLAKEY; benzo addiction; fatphobia & our past relationship!

Two teenagers with panic disorders dated but never realized they were both experiencing similar anxieties.  My first romantic partner talks to me about growing up with severe social-anxiety and weed-induced depersonalizations and dissociation:  she was open about her struggles, I kept mine locked up.

She also talks about agoraphobia, benzo addiction, coming out, growing up in homophobic environments, protective bubbles, BEING FLAKEY, medication, weight gain, fat phobia, body-positivity, roller derby, patience, dating a Christian straight edge teenager (me), and moooooore.

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P8: My long-time close friend sat down with me in front of a fire, in a dark cabin in the mountains, late at night, to finally answer the question, "WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME?"  We've toured the country, gone on trips to other countries, and lived together for many years, but we haven't been in contact since I started being vocal about my mental struggles.  He gave me his perspective (and it's an interesting one)!

We also talk about:
confidence VS. insecurity,
being a 20-something shit head,
suicide (TW),
idealism,
family drama vs. making your own family,
mood swings and introversion,
judging people,
mental illness
AND SO MUCH MOOOOORE  

Access ALL Feelin Weird episodes + bonus content at: 

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Instagram: @feelinweirdpod  

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PART TWO ("She Was Raised in a Christian Cult")! A mother of two is actively healing the childhood trauma she experienced from psychological and sexual abuse.

We talk about:
relationships with problematic/toxic family members,
sexual abuse + the grey area of sexual assault (TW),
lack of sexual education and sexual repression,
the power of connection + vulnerability,
drugs, alcohol, and sobriety,
depression/mental illness, 
being a Christian missionary in Nepal,
having anal sex before vaginal sex to preserve your hymen,
and MooOOOooOOOre!

Access ALL Feelin Weird episodes + bonus content at: 

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We talk religious brainwashing; cocaine addiction; becoming a Christian missionary across the world; being a mom; sexual assault (CW); conversion therapy; and abusive parents.

PART ONE!
From religious brainwashing to cocaine addiction to becoming a Christian missionary across the world, this is a story of a mother-of-two who is processing the abuse she experienced in her younger years. Her parents were hippies in the 70's but a bad trip led them to the Jesus Movement and later to become extremely conservative evangelical Christians who sheltered their children from the outside world. This is the dark side of "the light".  

We discuss:
psychological manipulation,
sexual repression,
abusive parents,
being a prophet,
sexual assault (TW),
denouncing your upbringing,
conversion therapy,
the long-term effects that brainwashing has on children,
and MOOOOOOORE!  

Listen to PART TWO here!

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• Instagram: @feelinweirdpod
• Website: www.feelinweird.com
• Email: [email protected]

Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :)

*Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)