Feelin Weird

Nicole explains the feeling of wearing an emotional sunburn for 3 weeks of every month--like being in a tunnel: impossible to see the future, seemingly lost and stuck in struggle.  This is her experience with PMDD and she wants people out there to know they're not alone.

We also discuss:
deleting everyone from social media, letting love in, endometriosis, everyone's unique way of processing their hurt, toxic relationships, not remembering as a survival strategy, BPD, challenges with the medical system and doctors, binge eating, support groups, and SO much more!

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My guest from episode 37 returns to explain her last two psychotic episodes and her visits to (and stays in) psychiatric emergency ("the psych ward"), where she received 8 treatments of ECT.

We also discuss grief, compulsions & intrusive thoughts (OCD), wanting to be 'off meds', connection with others, and SO much more!

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Artist Luke Ramsey joins me to discuss creativity and the challenges of everyday life. 

We discuss the importance of adults/teachers in the creative journey; toxic shame; feeling compassion for self; wanting to quit; crying in public spaces; and SO MUCH MORE!

"If you're stoking that fire of warmth and goodness within yourself then you want to resonate that in others"

Find Luke's art at https://lukeramseystudio.com 
or on instagram @lukeramseystudio

Post a drawing inspired by this episode with hashtag #feelinweird

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My guest grew up as a happy child but when she turned 8, her "happiness faded".  She felt perpetually scared of angering her father and her mother was dealing with depression.   Eventually my guest turned to self-harm as a way of coping: digging her finger nails into her skin, she felt a sense of relief.

In this episode, we discuss fear of conflict, the challenge of puberty,  fear of not being liked,  perfectionism,  feeling empowered,  needs,  fear of expressing anger,  AND MUCH more!

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My guest and I discuss addiction, challenging families, how to NOT pass on trauma to your kids, feeling okay with doing nothing, needing creativity, FOMO, the quest for power and fame and SO much more.  

CW: brief talk of self-harm and suicide.

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Tessa (@citywitch) talks about the COMPLEX relationship with their mother, their B.P.D. + Bipolar diagnoses, learning what their needs are, fantasy as escape, somatic therapy, and reparenting their inner child!

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My partner and I discuss my Borderline Personality Disorder diagnosis and how I've found space to heal and grow.  

We also talk:
understanding trauma & attachment wounds;
identifying needs;
communicating needs & boundaries;
chaotic relationships;
and fear of rejection/abandonment.

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My partner and I discuss my Borderline Personality Disorder diagnosis and how I've found space to heal and grow.

This is a PATREON Bonus Episode!  Go to www.patreon.com/feelinweird to listen to every bonus episode & to support the show.

We also discuss:
understanding trauma & attachment wounds;
identifying needs;
communicating needs & boundaries;
chaotic relationships;
and fear of rejection/abandonment.

• SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/
• Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/
• DONATE via Paypal
• Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts
• Instagram: @feelinweirdpod
• Website: www.feelinweird.com
• Email: [email protected]

Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :)

*Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Rain Dove talks about the complex relationship between compassion and rage: how they deal with a stranger's anger being directed at them. 

We also discuss:
activism; gender; trusting others; trauma; 'righteous rage'; power dynamics; violence; making mistakes; and SO MUCH MORE!

• SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/
• Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/
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• Instagram: @feelinweirdpod
• Website: www.feelinweird.com
• Email: [email protected]

Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :)

*Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Magnolia McKay talks about being raised Christian (where abstinence-based sexuality was the norm) + the pain and confusion that surrounded that experience.

We also discuss:
Spiritual Abuse, Divorce, Shame, Sexual Repression, being attracted to multiple genders, reclaiming her sexuality, and much MORE!

Listen to Kye's Christianity story in episode P17!

• SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/
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• Website: www.feelinweird.com
• Email: [email protected]

Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :)

*Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)