Feelin Weird

An audio journal in which I discuss how I process big feelings as a result of being triggered by what someone else says/does AND how I see how my projections play a part in that process.

This is a PATREON Bonus Episode!  Go to www.patreon.com/feelinweird to listen to every bonus episode & to support the show.

I also discuss:
learning to collaborate; judging my feelings; BPD; 'feeling' rejected; wanting to lash out; non-violent communication; making space for OLD pain; learning to play again; and SO much more!

Recorded Sept 15, 2020.

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Nic (Pynk Spots, Bitchy Shit Show, etc) talks repressing emotions, anger, disability, getting diagnosed with autism as an adult and SO MUCH more!

Listen-to and/or Watch my episode (ep 002) on Pynk Spots

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Tobias didn't receive his autism diagnosis until he was in his 20s!  In this episode, he explains disability, stimming, masking, ableism, and his experiences and obstacles.

We also discuss: sensory overstimulation; not having childhood memories; eye contact; closed captions; accessibility barriers; learning disabilities; CRIP CAMP; fear of disability; disability-first language; conversion therapy (ABA); shame; unlearning bias; colonialism; neurodivergence and neurotypicality; and SO much more!

Tobias's instagram: @artfxg

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Hilary Jacobs Hendel (author of "It's Not Always Depression"; psychotherapist) explains AEDP, how emotions & trauma function, and how shame, depression and anxiety act as adaptive states.

We also discuss:
emotionphobic culture; laughter as a defence; feeling overwhelmed & dissociated; banishing parts of the self; repressing emotions; triggers; emotional neglect; "the body knows how to heal"; creating a sense of safety; and SO much more!

Hilary's website: http://hilaryjacobshendel.com/

Read "It's Not Always Depression" (article)

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(CW: brief talk of suicide & self harm)

Alexis explains how white supremacy and racism has drastically impacted her mental health as a black womyn.  She talks growing up in white spaces; needing to work X times harder than white people to get half as much; and the power of collective/communal trauma & healing.

We also discuss:
depression; suicide + self harm; dissociation; feeling HIGHLY sensitive + emotional; challenging parents; learning to trust people; embracing softness & vulnerability; breaking the cycle of emotional repression; grieving; unlearning colonialism; learning to support and BE supported; feeling lonely; and SO much more!

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Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :)

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James Sebastiano Jr. talks anxiety, depression, and his pursuit to understand his mental health, all of which are topics of his recent film, Chasing The Present (available Sept 29, 2020).

We also discuss:
panic attacks; numbing feelings with drugs/alcohol; learning to suppress feelings at a young age; masculinity; opening up to parents; ayahuasca; getting everything you've ever wanted (and still feeling empty); spirituality; meditation; anxiety as a warning signal; self-sabotage; surrender and SO much more!

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Penny Fenske (AEDP practitioner, clinical counselor) explains what Accelerated Experiential Dynamic Psychotherapy IS and how it affects people.  Penny is one of the warmest, kindest, strongest people I know and I feel so honoured to share this conversation.  I myself have gained tremendous benefits from this therapy modality!

We also discuss trauma; learning to trust people; DSM diagnoses; connected-healing; BPD; depression; anxiety; attachment wounds; and we give a real-time example of what AEDP looks like.

Contact Penny Fenske here:  https://www.nurturecounselling.org/about

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Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :)

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PEPAḴIYE Ashley Cooper returns (episode 18) to continue the discussion about race, racism and stepping into fear.  She tells of her experience as an indigenous woman, reclaiming her identity, culture, language and sense of belonging.  This is a tender and HEARTWARMING conversation with a DEAR friend of mine.

We also discuss:
INTERGENERATIONAL TRAUMA; unlearning BIAS; learning to let love in; inner-child healing; gender; adult children of alcoholics; learning to PLAY again; decolonizing; feeling JOY; validation; grace in making mistakes; and SO MUCH more!

Follow Ashley on instagram: @pepakiye

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Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :)

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Chayenne (Episode 94) returns to continue the conversation about privilege, identity and belonging.

We also discuss:
SHAME, white men; "all lives matter"; understanding my gender; feeling invalidated by parents; "I don't see colour"; LABELS; editing parts of the self; collective trauma; collective gaslighting + trauma response; naming "the thing' and MUCH more!

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Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :)

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This is a conversation about fear, connection, and the POWER of gentle kindness!  Chayenne and I enter into a topic that I feel SCARED of: RACE AND RACISM. Chayenne called me IN to this discussion (I wanted to avoid it because I felt so scared of getting it wrong and being punished). As a result, I've grown A LOT from it.

We discuss:
privilege; calling people IN; call-out & cancel culture; body shame; sense of self + belonging; grace; learning to make mistakes; fear/shame-based parenting; challenging parents; and SO much more!

• SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/
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• Instagram: @feelinweirdpod
• Website: www.feelinweird.com
• Email: [email protected]

Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :)

*Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)