Feelin Weird

My guest and I are autistic.  We talk about being HIGHLY sensitive, masking, autistic burnout, neurodivergent shame, and getting a diagnosis.

We also discuss:
the shortcomings of the western medical system;
turning off ALL emotions as a response to having big feelings;
special interests;
the gap between logic and heart;
queer and spiritual;
O.C.D., G.A.D., & major depression;
BPD and not identifying with past diagnoses;
understanding and respecting your own needs and boundaries;
fear of taking up too much space;
clear, direct communication;

PLUS, Gaby, Dagenson and I chat about feeling scared and believing in our selves AND I rant about the humyn species and how confusing they/we are!

Recorded June 15 & Oct 17/18, 2021.

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Non Wels (You, Me, Empathy; Feely Human) and I navigate BIG feelings, jealousy, psilocybin journeys, DIY healing and art, limiting beliefs, self-harm and the belief that "I deserve to be in pain."

We also discuss:
perfectionism;
BPD;
the power of podcasts;
shutting down in order to survive in our families growing up;
reconnecting with our younger parts;
being and Eyore;
EMDR;
mind-stories;
unlearning;
fear of joy;
identifying emotions in the body;
small talk;
and SO much more.

Learn more about Non.

Recorded Sept 9, 2020 & Oct 8, 2021.

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Do you need and/or want someone to listen to and hold space for you as you grieve/feel and reconnect with your body and emotions?  Are you tired of seeing therapists who don't ACTUALLY listen or support you?  Do you want to remember how to feel, how to REALLY exist in your body?  Do you need to grieve generations of pain and sorrow?  I can be that person for you (if it feels right).  

I'm opening myself up to seeing people one-on-one in a relational-healing context.  I'm not a therapist/counsellor but I do have a gift for holding space and going deep with people.  I will not give advice, I will not try to fix you; I will support you as best as I can, in a way that actually FEELS supportive to YOU.

Sliding scale rates; no one will be turned away who is too poor.

Send me an email if you're curious: [email protected]

Do you need and/or want someone to listen to and hold space for you as you grieve/feel and reconnect with your body and emotions?  Are you tired of seeing therapists who don't ACTUALLY listen or support you?  Do you want to remember how to feel, how to REALLY exist in your body?  Do you need to grieve generations of pain and sorrow?  I can be that person for you (if it feels right).  

I'm opening myself up to seeing people one-on-one in a relational-healing context.  I'm not a therapist/counsellor but I do have a gift for holding space and going deep with people.  I will not give advice, I will not try to fix you; I will support you as best as I can, in a way that actually FEELS supportive to YOU.

Sliding scale rates; no one will be turned away who is too poor.

Send me an email if you're curious: [email protected]

At age 18, Greg Washington had the chance to enter the NFL draft and instead chose to serve his country (USA) and go to war.  A few years of combat later, his two best-friends were killed and he was forced home by the military, he found himself drinking daily just to cope with his PTSD and TBI.  He almost killed himself but he had a guardian angel who intervened.  Since then, he's found healing and meaning.

We also talk about:
complicated grief;
the cumulative effects of racism and slavery;
loneliness and isolation;
wanting to FEEL again;
PRESSURE;
opening up in a culture that teaches a man to shut down;
connected healing;
intergenerational trauma;
taking care of family;
and SO much more.

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An anonymous guest was cyberbullied and gaslit by students in his college for an entire year, he shares how this DEEPLY impacted his sense of safety and self!

We also discuss:
fear of eye contact;
understanding trauma response (fight/flight/freeze);
the impact of trauma;
"I am a failure";
self sabotage;
psychosis or gaslighting???;
fear of "going crazy";
PTSD;
sitting with emotions;
coming out after being bullied;
intrusive thoughts;
and SO much more!

Recorded Dec 15, 2020 & Aug 6, 2021.

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James W. Jesso (Adventures Through The Mind) and I discuss the potential of psychedelics for DEEP-healing, the POWER of understanding emotions. and the MAGIC of words.

We also discuss:
transforming a "BAD TRIP" into a life-changing experience,
experiencing "I AM HOME in my body",
AFTER the wave of terror,
"WHAT IS mental health?",
harm reduction,
"these are NOT party drugs",
context of use,
feeling triggered,
understanding emotions,
being shown DEEP traumas,
entheogens & plant medicines,
PLUS, I have a CONVERSATION with THE UNIVERSE!

James' website: https://www.jameswjesso.com/

Recorded June 8 & July 16, 2021.

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Conflict is inevitable. My partner, Tuna, joins me to destigmatize conflict within relationships (especially for people with deep attachment wounds and traumas)--to normalize "sometimes it feels really hard to be in relationship (and this is how we find meaning within that)."

We also discuss:
FEAR of CLOSENESS, intimacy & love;
crying together (healing);
being HIGHLY sensitive;
developing code words and unique language;
learning to sit with my feelings before responding or reacting;
non-violent communication;
creating a world within a relationship;
emotional CO-regulation;
NEEDING other people;
plant medicines;
FULLY resolving conflict;
taking my armour off, dismantling my walls;
repressing needs/feelings;
fear of conflict;
CREATIVITY & Co-creating;
and SO much more!

Recorded July 4 & 6 2021.

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Alex Benbow Carter (artist, musician) and I talk ALL things ANXIETY, depression and CREATIVITY.

We also discuss:
panic attacks during class presentations;
SMALL talk;
opening up to strangers;
INSOMNIA;
challenging relationships with our dads;
HOW TO be an adult?;
grieving death in family;
health-anxiety ("I HAVE CANCER!!!" (except I don't));
parent's divorce;
finding moments of PEACE;
CBT, meditation, being present;
trying to avoid conflict;
needing to slow my thoughts down;
ART and PAIN;
General Anxiety Disorder;
and SO much more!

Alex's IG: @alexbc_art

Recorded Sept 25, 2020; June 28&29 2021.

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Christina Jumper (Pickles and Vodka podcast) and I question REALITY, spirituality/Christianity, Brene Brown & celebrity WHILE also wondering "is riding a motorcycle meditation for people who need danger to feel safe??"

CW: BRIEF mention of suicide.

We also discuss:
IS THIS A SIMULATION?;
TAKING UP sssspppaaaaaccceeee;
meditation or "I HATE SITTING STILL!";
RIDING motorcycles and loving it;
bulimia;
cannabis & psychedelics;
learning to DANCE again!;
reconnecting to the heart;
the damage done by capitalism & religion;
being KIND to the self;
CYNICISM!;
intellectualization as a defense;
"celebrities are lost";
self-censorship;
reparenting the inner child;
believing there is something EVIL inside me;
embracing PLAY;
taking life less & more seriously;
UNLOCKING the door to the meat prison & transforming it into a MEAT palace;
and SO much more!

Christina's IG: @picklesandvodkapodcast

• SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/
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Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :)

*Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)