Feelin Weird

Dr. Robyn talks developing relationships with our bodies; sitting and BREATHING (coregulation) in nature; rejecting & reclaiming spirituality; autism (sensory overwhelm); & MORE.

Dr. Robyn Henderson-Espinoza (TransQueer Latinx Activist Scholar & Politicized Theologian) joins me for a heart-felt conversation about co-creating & rebuilding heart-centered communities and connections (with ourselves, our bodies and our communities)!

We also talk:
relationships as HEALING;
proliferating love;
a love-hate relationship with humanity;
eating food together as powerful connection;
the transactional nature of capitalism;
needing better models to pattern ourselves after;
fragmenting of self;
spirituality as CONNECTION;
reconnecting to our inner truth;
having ideas, not answers;
sitting in nature and remembering how to BE (SLOW down);
defining 'god';
atheism & agnosticism;
pantheism (god in everything);
forest bathing & earthing;
the slow road back to self;
composting social media;
the challenge of being around people;
the paradox of being meaningfully very small and very big;
and MORE!

AND Non Wels joins to talk about reconnecting with our inner-child.  Pre-order his Dear Childhood Me journal.

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Recorded March 14, 22 (Intro: April 4&5) 2022.

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The second episode of THE WEIRDO CALL-IN SHOW features inter-dimensional listener phone calls, listener-submitted songs AND guests like Producer Kye, Colin Show, Dagenson, Sarah Sarenson, Legal-Advisor Timmy, and FUTURE ME!  This one's weird, silly, and heart-centred!

Topics include:
decolonization;
inner peace=outer peace;
finding REAL support;
belonging & connection;
compassion;
crying;
shape-shifting tricksters;
sadness RIGHT underneath anger;
the paradoxical nature of reality;
and MUCH more.

Featuring songs from Gary Candlewaxface, Frank Bottoms, and Billy Goblinhat!

Recorded March 9-16, 2022.

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Natalia and I navigate shut down; taking in love; fear of people, spirits, & losing control; magic, mystery & awe; challenging trips; reclaiming spirituality; & "what is my place in this world??"

Natalia joins me for what MIGHT be the most interesting & challenging podcast recording I've ever made!

We discuss:
psychedelics as agents of change, healing + harm;
reclaiming spirituality & magic;
challenging trips;
fear of love, people, ghosts, demons, spirits, bears, cougars, sleeping alone, losing control;
spirituality (and shame);
the mystery, magic and AWE of life;
the harm of capitalism;
"what is my place in society?";
the importance of ART, relationships, and beauty;
BELONGING;
nurturing silliness, play & creativity;
and MUCH more.

Recorded July 13, 2021 (intro: Feb 24, 2022).

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The first episode of THE WEIRDO CALL-IN SHOW featuring 1 hour of inter-dimensional listener phone calls, listener-submitted songs AND guests like Producer Kye, Gaby, Blee-Bleep, and younger versions of me.  This one gets REALLY WEIRD, really silly, AND really REAL!

Topics include:
waking up crying;
getting drunk to avoid feelings;
self-compassion;
dissociation;
learning to love and accept your younger selves;
ding-dongs, weirdos, and strangies;
depression;
peeing your pants;
autism;
being a "cool guy";
friendship;
inter-dimensional love;
and MORE!

Recorded Feb 10-14, 2022.

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Do you need and/or want someone to listen to and hold space for you as you grieve/feel and reconnect with your body and emotions?  Are you tired of seeing therapists who don't ACTUALLY listen or support you?  Do you like hearing my voice and want to be heard by me?  Do you want to remember how to feel, how to REALLY exist in your body?  Do you need to grieve generations of pain and sorrow?  I can be that person for you (if it feels right).  

I have been sitting with people one-on-one in a relational-healing context for the last 4 months and I want to open myself up to sitting with new people.

I'm not a therapist/counsellor but I do have a gift for holding space and going deep with people.  I will not psychoanalyze you, I will not try to fix you; I will support you as best as I can, in a way that actually FEELS supportive to YOU.

Sliding Scale + Pay What You Can rates; no one will be turned away who is too poor.

Send me an email if you're curious: [email protected]

Dayle Hendrix's entire life changed when, at age 16, she received a terminal diagnosis (Fabry Disease).  She thought she'd be dead at 30, but she's surpassed that age and now she's making sense of her diagnosis and what LIFE and DEATH mean to her.  This is one of my fav episodes!

We also discuss:

Being raised as a conservative Christian;

Witchcraft;

The loneliness & challenge of processing a terminal diagnosis;

Martyrdom;

Denial of death;

Death rituals;

Wanting to leave a legacy & be remembered;

The fear of heaven and hell;

Deathphobia;

RUNNING AWAY FROM DEMONS;

What happens after I die?;

the Christian savior complex (Good intentions which harm others);

Missions trips (colonialism);

The challenge of looking into the mirror;

Fear of death (and anxiety);

Needing intimacy;

Laughter as a defense mechanism;

Everyone has a terminal diagnosis, they just haven’t received it from an authority figure;

Ignoring death and grief = not fully living;

Partying as a response to a conservative, Christian upbringing;

Gentle, slow healing;

Surfing the waves of life;

Exercising when I feel scared (releasing the physical energy);

Integrating emotional changes;

Avoidance-of-death as a cultural trait;

Grieving as a way of celebrating and honouring death/loss;

Seeing many different perspectives;

Honouring the weirdos (wackadoodles);

and MUCH more.

Dayle's IG @the___simple___life & Youtube!

Recorded Dec 20, 2021 (Intro: Jan 18 & 19 2022).

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Dresden von Saturnalia was raised by an emotionally inept military father & an absent mother (who died when Dresden was 18).  Dresden, until recently, struggled VERY hard with stability, friendships, safety, and emotions.  He's found deep healing in his journey and has joined me to share his story.

We also discuss:
Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (CPTSD) & Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD);
the ripple effects of healing;
rapid cycling of moods & shifting;
processing, venting and validating anger;
having FIERY emotions/passion;
AFAB & identifying androgyne;
collectively processing grief within community;
the grief of surviving;
decolonization;
no longer identifying with a diagnosis;
having basic safety-needs met;
compassion for self & challenging people;
becoming a tattoo artist;
check-ins & consent;
gratitude and survivor's guilt for healing;
and so much more.

Dresden's IG: @saturnalis.artes

Recorded July 27 (intro/outro Dec 30), 2021.

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A solo episode involving a body-scan meditation (to remember what it's like to have a body), a pep talk for anyone experiencing a challenging time (eg. holidays with family), & a heavy dose of love for your healing inner-child (that deep core of you who loves and needs to feel loved) from my healing heart to yours.

Recorded Dec 23, 2021.

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CONTENT ADVISORY: death, suicide, violence, self harm.

John Penman returns (episode 76) to talk about his recent relapse into self harm (and how he's learned to treat himself with compassion), processing death, BPD, consent and psychedelics.

we also discuss:
self-punishment;
forgiving self;
being a part of a death-centric cycle;
watching the self GROW;
the WAVES of life;
moving through GUILT & shame;
accidentally killing animals + the GRIEF;
monogamy & partnership & love;
clear communication;
neurodiversity;
and MUCH more.

Follow John on IG @jnpnmn

Recorded May 23 & Dec1, 2021.

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Amber Nicole (episode 71) reached out to me at a time when I was at my absolute lowest (~5 years ago).  She sat with me as I tried to untangle years of confusion, trauma, and deep, deep shame.  This is a conversation many years later where we discuss what those initial meetings were like and where we're both at now.

We also discuss:
feeling compassion for past selves;
psychedelics;
the grief walk;
healing the inner child;
learning to take love in;
needing physical nurturing;
relational healing;
addiction;
total despair;
carrying trauma in the body;
resentment;
allowing emotion to ROLL through;
running from love;
being my authentic self;
makin amends;
therapy as an antiquated model of support;
emotionphobia;
believing painful stories about self;
living on a challenging planet;
and MUCH more.

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