For The Mental Girlies Podcast

Priorities, priorities, priorities….as a college student or as a student of life that is living the experience of being working class.. do you prioritize sleep, your art, your body, or academics, work, pouring into others? Why? Do you wish you were prioritizing other things? Well, how can you get there? That’s what this episode is all about. I have a link to a class survey I would LOVE for you to do! It’s all about your priorities, I want to learn more about my immediate and farther out community. How can I help raise awareness of our priorities and help guide us towards living a more peaceful life?

Wellness and Priorities Survey

Hey y'all I'm sorry it took me so long to get y'all these affirmations. I am doing my absolute best! :) 

I affirm that these affirmations nourish your soul with cool water.  Also meet Ezla~ Affirmations include:

I am just that bitch, y'know?

I no longer judge or criticize myself, I am free to love who I am.

There is no struggle to be better. All I need to do is love myself more today than yesterday and treat myself as someone who is deeply loved.

I affirm that I am willing to release the causes and patterns in consciousness that are creating any negative conditions in my life.

I am a beloved child of the universe and have been given everything I need for every experience I will ever have - it is nice to keep that in mind, man.

My current thinking shapes my future. If I hear myself using negative or limiting words, I change them.

The moment I say positive affirmations, I step out of the victim role. I am no longer helpless. I acknowledge my own power. 

Trees are so abundant. I am as loved as all the baby trees on Mother Earth. Trust the Mother Earth. 

You weren't made wrong. Different is not bad. You are beautifully crafted and created and only You understand you best. The power of my mind will reflect this: Don't resist, feel, and fall. And get back up.

thanks for listening to Rolandesperspective. Finding it very hard to keep going....but there is no other option. idk.

Affirmations coming soon.

This week on Rolandesperspective

it's sick

i'm sick

we're all sick.

life's sick.

and i feel like really coughing right now...

Rolande Kangnigan ™️ RP ™️

But Wait, Healing Don't Pay the Bills. Manifestation, healing and feeling good, vs. Realism, hard work, and long-term sacrifices. 

Currently writing this as I wonder how to balance school and life. This shit is not my life, but if I don't make it a good chunk of my life, I will not succeed. Where is the balance? Can I trust myself to do what I can, listen to my body, and take my ass to sleep? Even when I'm not done studying and if I stop now, I won't be able to finish it tomorrow, because tomorrow has its own things and work to do? I don't mind working every day, but working for HOURS every day, is a stretch. On my mental and physical. It's insane that if I decide to hang and play uno with my friends, I'll be up to do my work and going to sleep at 2....no. But what'll happen when I stop trying to do it all? When I intentionally say fuck it, I've done all that I can do, and intentionally not set myself up well for quizzes, exams, etc? Every day there is something to do. Something to learn. When do I rest? When do I spend more than 2 hours with my friends? Maybe that's just a sacrifice I have to make. And I be thinking to myself, is this an Emory problem or a college problem? Lowkey, I want it to be an Emory problem so I can at least feel good about going here. If this is an everywhere problem, the value in going here feels a little less. But it sucks that things being harder means they're more worth it. But this is a tricky balance because the big dreams that you want do not always come with ease and believing fully that they do and MUST, takes you out of reality and into delusion. Yes, you create your own reality, but you are not going to get that car without coming up with a way to make the money to pay for it. If it was easy, EVERYBODY WOULD DO IT. I have never felt this to be more true. I have been JUDGING people who "choose" to have jobs. I have been JUDGING people who have "chosen" to be in debt. I have been JUDGING people who say life is hard. It is. If it was easy, who would say it's hard? Why must they be wrong? This is the issue with constantly saying "I do not want to be strong." "I don't chase, I attract." "When I spend it, it comes right back." You do not have a job. There is nothing 100% wrong with saying "be realistic" and I'm starting to see it now. Or is it my thinking making life hard? Lol.....There is nothing 100% wrong with saying those affirmation either, but when they blind you to where you no longer put in work other people have had to, make sacrifices that other people have had to for MILLENNIA, then JUDGE those people?...you indeed delude yourself. Find the balance, and put in the work. No one wants to work. God is not going to pay the bills every month. You aren't just going to do nothing and never work again. My parents worked their ASSES off to get us the house we have today. They didn't WANT to work! Who does??? How do I DO that????? I literally cannot stand the idea of doing something I do not want to do for money. BUT WHAT ELSE AM I SUPPOSED TO DO? I CANT SIT HERE AND HOPE MONEY COMES OUT THE SKY THEN JUDGE PEOPLE WHO TAKE CONTROL AND DO SOMETHING ABOUT THEIR LIVES.....I will not shame myself or berate or judge myself. I have done a lot of work. But man, healing don't pay the bills...

Idk.. I believe I deserve a life of ease, but maybe it's just not right now. Why is it so hard for me to do what my parents did? Am I just entitled as hell? Well how do I get through that? How do I not invalidate my very real feelings here? My capacity? How much of this is even my fault? Maybe I won't always be able to hang out with friends, and that will just have to be my balance. But the present is all that exists, isn't it? What if I die tomorrow? 

Then I guess I'll die knowing I was building for myself a beautiful future.

Anyway, this episode is about not overdoing (school) work so you can still keep your sanity. Letting go of doing the extra.

Part one of all the illusions I'm running into on and off campus (in my mind, online, etc...)

I love you, and you are good.

This episode is about alignment, school, fear, and judgement. I finally was able to put my first two weeks of college again into words. This is the space where I did that. Please enjoy! And Don't forget to share <3

The Garden of My Soul by Deepak Chopra - https://open.spotify.com/track/282f0otiZSIcKQmWgQ2HRX?si=5764ad54f4a940a4

Energy Budget by Toni Jones - https://open.spotify.com/track/5xNANYd1HTdPVVkgIB70wj?si=8da3c5c570b245f3

Listen to me decide what to do with my life. As a multi passionate and outgoing extroverted bubbly people loving being, I’m ironically finding it hard to change and to be myself in the new spaces I find myself occupying. I took my Sounds of Human Language linguistics class and kinda hated it.

I notice the differences in who I am now vs who I was in 2020-2021. I also notice the cycles I brought back from that time, by being on this same campus. I talk about my fears of being back and how I feel about myself vs how other people view me. I also talk about my peers graduating and leaving me! Oh Emory my Emory….

I can only pray and wait.

Themes: Authenticity, change, peace, discretions and sensitivities, tact, college majors, psychology, linguistics (ish), NOT KNOWING WHAT YOURE DOING.

OK thanks, byeeeeee.

Reframing Consistency and Motivation: It’s just One endless Present Moment.

I had such a good time engaging in this conversation. Join me and musician Namire on a conversation on listening to your body, the present moment, and how those things intertwine with discipline and consistency!!!

Where to find Namire!

IG: https://instagram.com/namire_mbe?igshid=YWJhMjlhZTc=

Here Comes A Thought:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dHg50mdODFM

Happy New Year  #2022