For The Worldbuilders

This episode is for our Libra eclipse moment, it’s especially for YOU if you’ve been wanting more balance and clarity inside your practice. If you’re overwhelmed by the sheer number of your ideas and desires on your heart then listen up! This is the worldbuilder’s dilemma but it is also our power. So let’s dive in.

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Cover Art: Julie Mehretu, Stadia II, 2004, ink and acrylic on canvas, 108 x 144 inches Carnegie Museum of Art, Pittsburgh) © Julie Mehretu

Today I want to talk about the permission I had to give myself to pivot before I could invite anyone else into the transition. Today I want to talk about how sneaky scarcity mindset can be, even with the abundance of wisdom, tools and skills we’ve learned inside our journey of transformation. Today I want to talk about why, after a summer of experimenting with 3 different offerings (a retreat, a monthly membership and accepting applications for a 1:1 service-based offering), I am bringing the Seeda School paid-offer ecosystem back down to 1 core offering.

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Cover Art: A black and white film photograph of David Hammons creating his “body prints”. The photograph is titled “David Hammons, Slauson Studio” (1974) by Bruce Talamon. Source: Studio Museum of Harlem

Last week we talked about how the journey is the dream and the destination is the practice through the metaphor of teaching and learning. I want to pick that thread back up. Just as I believe creativity is the spiritual disposition of our species, I want to argue curiosity, teaching and learning are organic to our ways of being as well. So organic the debate of nature vs. nurture has been going on for centuries now. Today, I’m less interested in teasing out the difference between the gifts we’re taught and the gifts we’re born with. What I’m more interested in teasing out is what happened to us and how can the lessons we learned along the way serve others?

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Cover Art: Two black girls look out the window of a “Freedom School”. © Ken Thompson, United Methodist Board of Global Ministries. Image Source

Maybe you’ve been talking yourself out of taking a creative risk for months, maybe years just like I have. A life is something we create, too. Maybe your creative risk is leaving a job with an abusive company culture, moving to a new city or removing yourself from relationships where your power is perceived as a threat to neutralize instead of divine intelligence to collaborate with. Whatever transition is tugging you toward its trail, whatever creative calling won’t leave you alone, I need you to know the journey IS the return on investment.

This isn’t an ableist episode full of executive function shame but it is an episode in honor of Virgo Season asking what are our systems, processes and practices for getting shit done and feeling good while doing it? I’ve been there, the over-extended teacher inspiring a classrooms worth of epiphanies but too tired to go home and fill the cup from which the curriculum flows. Maybe you’ve been there too, the over-extended teacher with a depleted capacity for your own curiosity. The healer with an over-committed calendar leaving no time to tend to your own spirit. The community organizer growing exhausted from the demands of parasocial relationships while your closest, most nourishing relationships suffer. How might checking in with our longings, our boundaries, our needs and nurturing a relationship within ourselves where we’re allowed to want, to desire, to create, to rest, cultivate more secure attachments and relationships beyond ourselves?

Invitations

Let’s talk numbers. The “enough number” concept is looking at the expenses in your life and business and determining a revenue goal or baseline for living comfortably instead of living in the cycle of incessant growth for growths sake. I’ve seen and heard this concept discussed in multiple workshops, YouTube videos, panels and podcasts over the years. Probably because establishing an "enough number" in the beginning is a good idea and fetishizing infinite, up and to the right, hockey stick growth is not only a bad idea but goes against many of our core values. But what I can’t stop thinking about is: Maybe there are other ways to stay in integrity with our values and business growth without putting literal and subconscious caps on our potential revenue and impact?

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As a heads up, if you’re listening to this on Monday, July 29th enrollment into the Treehouse closes tonight and it’s $67 bucks to join! The Treehouse is a monthly membership holding you accountable to weekly returns to your Zone of Desire through live workshops, open studios, guided meditations and black feminist worldbuilding tools. I hope you’ll join us inside The Treehouse! Our first workshop inside is on August 6th and it’s all about collaborating with our ancestors, desires and intentions inside our Weekly Dispatches.

I hope you’ll Discover your Weekly Dispatch with us this Thursday, July 25th at 12pm EST in the last live Worldbuilding Workshop I’ll be giving on the Treehouse for the year. The Treehouse is a monthly membership holding you accountable to weekly returns to your Zone of Desire through live workshops, open studios, guided meditations and black feminist worldbuilding tools. And enrollment is now open! It’s $67 bucks a month, enrollment closes on Monday, July 29th. Join us inside the free workshop on the 25th to learn more.

Who are we outside of white supremacy culture? Perhaps the simple answer is healers, holders, stewards. Perhaps the simple answer is the people that refuse, repair and restore. And perhaps we don’t have to go anywhere to learn these skills, perhaps the best teachers and stories are already embedded in our intuition and ancestry. Perhaps the stories they’re whispering invite us into a culture with more bearable and breathe-able characteristics where perfectionism becomes improvisation, individualism becomes collectivism and “right to comfort” becomes “right to transformation”.

I too, have put more value in the things that hurt because suffering is familiar. I know her. I know suffering. And I have plenty of evidence that the shelter of suffering has kept me safe, kept me “out the way”. But at what cost? There is rent for living underneath the shelter of suffering. As with everything, there is a sacrifice. The cost was often my inner child who needed me to tend to her wounds but I couldn’t bear her pain so I just kept looking away. The cost was often my body which needed my attention, my care, my tenderness, my grace but was often treated as a liability instead. The cost was often my dreams that needed my power, my protection, my faith but seemed too wild to be safe, too pleasurable to count on, too gooooood to be true.

I just want us to consider, if only for this moment, how exhausting it is to be in perpetual disbelief of our power.