In this episode, I open up about the moments I’ve tried hardest to forget — the silence, the betrayal, and the heavy truth that I let it happen.

It’s a raw reflection on what it means to be blamed, erased, and left behind, while still finding the courage to take back your story.

This isn’t about blame. It’s about honesty — the kind that hurts before it heals.

If you’ve ever looked back at something that broke you and whispered, “How did I let that happen?”, this episode is for you.

Life can get noisy. Between work, responsibilities, and the constant pull of the world around us, it’s easy to miss the small, quiet moments that truly matter. In this episode, I reflect on the subtle joys, fleeting connections, and overlooked experiences that often slip by when life feels overwhelming. Through personal stories, reflection, and gentle prompts for awareness, we explore how slowing down and noticing the little things can reconnect us to ourselves, others, and the world in ways we often forget.

If you’ve ever felt like life is moving too fast to catch the beauty in the everyday, this episode is for you.

In this episode, I open up about something I’ve always struggled with — appearing “okay” on the outside, even when everything inside me is falling apart. It’s easy to convince the world that you’re fine, but behind that mask is a quiet kind of exhaustion that slowly breaks you down.

This past week has reminded me how dangerous it can be to keep everything bottled up — to tell people you’re just “unwell” when really, you’re unravelling. I talk about how pretending to be strong can isolate us from the very people who could help us heal, and how the belief that asking for help is weakness couldn’t be further from the truth.

If you’ve ever felt like you have to face your battles alone, or like reaching out might be a burden, I hope this episode reminds you that you don’t have to do it all on your own. Because strength isn’t about surviving in silence — it’s about allowing others to stand beside you when the war gets too heavy.

💙 Listen now — you never have to go to war alone.

This episode explores one of the most misunderstood parts of healing: why we grieve the very lives, loves, and routines that nearly destroyed us. Leaving a toxic relationship or life doesn’t just bring freedom — it brings emptiness, loneliness, and a strange ache for what once felt familiar.

I talk about the quiet grief of walking away, the hollow space healing creates, and the temptation to mistake missing for needing. This isn’t a conversation about weakness — it’s about being human, about learning to hold the ache without running back, and about making peace with the truth that we sometimes miss what hurt us most.

If you’ve ever left behind a toxic life and wondered why the grief still lingers, this episode is for you.

We’re told to “just get on with it.” To push through. To smile, cope, and endure without complaint. But what does that actually cost us? In this episode, I explore the heavy toll of always powering through — the exhaustion, the isolation, the anger, and the invisible weight we carry when we bury our pain.

It’s raw. It’s honest. And it’s a reminder that real strength isn’t silence — it’s allowing ourselves to feel, to speak, and to be human.

Tune in as we uncover the true price of getting on with it and why breaking the cycle is the first step toward real healing.

Sometimes, survival means keeping parts of yourself hidden. In this deeply personal episode, I explore the “art of holding back” — a skill I learned as a teenager and carried into adulthood. From carefully edited truths to protecting others at the expense of my own wellbeing, I share what it’s like to live behind a filter, the cost of internalising pain, and the moments that remind me just how heavy silence can be.

This episode dives into real-life experiences, from school and work to life-threatening situations, and reflects on how holding back shapes our relationships, our sense of safety, and our ability to heal. It’s raw, honest, and ultimately about the slow, difficult process of reclaiming your voice.

Trigger warning: This episode discusses trauma and emotional suppression.

There’s a growing misconception that ADHD in women has become a trend — a fashionable label, the “in thing” right now. But the truth is very different. For decades, girls and women were overlooked, their symptoms masked, their struggles misunderstood. What looks like a sudden surge in diagnoses isn’t about fashion — it’s about recognition.

In this episode, I share my own story of masking, self-blame, and finally finding answers. We’ll explore why women are so often diagnosed later in life, how research and awareness have caught up, and why dismissing these experiences as a trend is not only wrong, but deeply harmful.

If you’ve ever wondered why you felt “different” but couldn’t explain it, or if you’ve carried the weight of being called lazy, disorganised, or not enough — this conversation is for you. ADHD in women isn’t a trend. It’s a truth finally being seen.

Recovery isn’t always neat or Instagram-ready. In this episode, I share the messy, unseen side of healing — the setbacks, the quiet victories, and the progress that still counts even when it doesn’t look like recovery.

“Nature vs. nurture” makes it sound like there’s a winner. In my life, both shaped me—and so did a quiet rule I learned young: don’t share, just get on with it. In this episode, I tell the story of how that rule became my armour and my isolation. I carried it into every room—family, friendships, work—until speaking up felt dangerous and staying silent felt like strength. I share the seasons where I thought I’d been chosen, the moment that illusion cracked, and the narrowing that followed: the cold logic that convinced me nobody would care if I disappeared. This isn’t a blame story. It’s a context story—about longing to be wanted without being seen as a problem, and about what it costs to carry everything alone. If any part of this sounds like you, I hope you feel less alone here.

Content note: Mentions suicidal thoughts and an attempt (no graphic detail). UK support in notes.

Resources (UK): Samaritans 116 123 (24/7) • Text SHOUT to 85258 (24/7) • NHS 111 for urgent mental health help • PAPYRUS HOPELINE247 0800 068 4141 (under 35). In an emergency, call 999.

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A reflective, no-checklist conversation about conditional approval and the ache of trying to please people who won’t be pleased. We talk about the whiplash of “I’m proud of you… but,” why hope keeps sending us back, and the relief of stopping the audition for love. Gentle, honest, and human—this one’s about remembering you were never hard to love.