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So many of us want to break the silence around mental health and trauma, but few dare to share the raw, unfiltered truth. Carolyn Dreyer did, and her story is a rollercoaster of pain, resilience, and breakthrough that made me speechless for the first time in 128 episodes. From unprocessed grief and survival shame to harrowing assaults and the fight to regain safety, her journey is a masterclass in facing the darkest moments and choosing to heal anyway.

Ever wondered what it takes to turn a childhood dream into a radical community movement? Meet Che Monique, founder of the Society of Fat Mermaids, who went from stapling paisley fabric on a homemade tail to being one of Netflix’s most unexpected mermaid stars. Her journey is a splash of activism, creativity, and self-love, proving that liberation can start with a fantasy and blossom into a vibrant movement. In this episode, Che shares how a Pride Parade inspired her to create a size-inclusive mermaid fashion line that celebrates fat bodies, Black mermaids, and queer joy. You'll discover how representation fueled her dream, why mermaiding isn’t just costume play but a form of liberation, and how her viral Netflix documentary exposed both the magic and the pressure of being a visible fat mermaid influencer. Plus, she reveals how the community shifted her from silent supporter to a fierce advocate, and what’s next for her mission of radical acceptance. We break down the real stories behind fighting fat discrimination in healthcare, the importance of community-building through paid memberships, and the power of imagination in driving social change. Che drops gems on embracing transitions, the importance of self-awareness in a digital age, and how to start loving yourself today: no filters, just raw truth and some mermaid magic.

When people think of poetry, some can think it's just pretty words, but for Deanna Repose-Oaks it’s the secret weapon behind surviving a lifetime of trauma, mental health battles, and a crazy family saga. She’s penned six poetry books, each one a raw, beautiful reflection of her journey through chaos, depression, and healing. Deanna opens up about her tumultuous past: being adopted, growing up amid drug addiction and shattered family ties, and battling the invisible wounds of trauma. You’ll hear how she turned her darkest moments into power, using poetry as both refuge and rebellion, hiding her feelings in verse when words failed her. Her story proves that even in pain, there’s hope and sometimes, hope comes in the form of a carefully crafted line or a heartfelt stanza. She breaks down her unique process of translating trauma into poetry, how she uses writing to process everyday triggers, and even how hormonal chaos fuels her creativity. Plus, she shares why play therapy isn’t just for kids and how her latest book, “The Order of Chaos,” is her blueprint for finding balance amid life's mess. And listen: if you’re in crisis, don’t wait. Dial 988. Your story matters, and help is just a call away. Deanna’s journey from darkness to light is a testament: your voice, your story, can save you.

Content creators are finally beginning to talk about the toll fame takes on mental health, and Andy Neal has been talking about it for a while. He went from 5,000 followers to international news in just months, all while balancing hiking, body positivity, and the reality of living in the spotlight. He dives into how viral fame isn’t just about likes: it’s about managing the unexpected attention, the trolls, and the sweet moments of connection with celebs like Deborah Messing. Andy also talks about how he turned his passion for outdoor mental health into a full-blown career, why authenticity beats AI every time, and the wild ride of navigating fame as a plus-sized influencer who’s breaking stereotypes. We break down the ups and downs of going viral, the importance of setting boundaries, and how to stay true to yourself when your face is everywhere.

Most of us have been conditioned to see anger as a dangerous, destructive force, but what if we’ve been totally wrong? Davina Hehn flips the narrative, revealing how anger is actually a vital compass guiding us toward self-awareness, healing, and transformation. Davina shares her wild personal journey from Hulk-smashing walls to masterfully managing her rage all while navigating marriage, parenting, and her own mental health crises. If you’ve ever felt like your emotions are a ticking time bomb or that dealing with anger means self-sabotage, this episode is your game-changer.

CONTENT WARNING: suicidal ideation, attempts & passive suicidality

Most conversations about mental health tiptoe around the passive side of suicidality, but Olivia Meyer and I are here to blow the lid off that silence. When surviving multiple suicide attempts, you realize it's not just about wanting to die, sometimes it’s just about wanting the pain to stop, and nobody talks about that. You’ll discover how passive suicidality impacts attempt survivors long after the scars fade, and why society’s obsession with "the dramatic" leaves countless suffering in the shadows. Olivia, a survivor herself, shares her raw journey from trauma to recovery, breaking down the myths around attempts, attention, and validation. I dive into the overwhelming weight of societal stigma, the toll on first responders and youth workers, and how social media has turned vulnerability into a desensitized spectacle. We break down why mental health in the post-pandemic era still feels out of reach: especially for those whose struggles don’t make for a “good story”, plus, honest tips for starting real, judgment-free conversations about the unseen battles. If you or someone you love is managing mental health or passive suicidal thoughts, please call or text 988 in both the US & Canada.

Most people think podcasts are all about Hollywood gossip or the latest TikTok trends. Franky Corcoran proves it’s also about mental health, sobriety, and busting imposter syndrome wide open, all while joking about dogs eating cat poop. Yup, this episode isn’t your typical HME story; it’s a candid, hilarious deep dive into navigating life’s toughest moments with authenticity and humor. Franky’s journey from battling crushing anxiety and pandemic breakdowns to becoming a fearless mental health advocate is nothing short of inspiring. He shares how he quit drinking, how therapy saved him, and why talking about grief should be an everyday habit, not just an annual fundraiser. Plus, he spills his secrets on how the power of storytelling and a good podcast can literally save lives, and how meeting big names like Patrick Fabian from Better Call Saul made him question, “Why me?” The answer: because your story matters more than you think. Catch Franky on his podcast: The Corcoran Entertainment Show everywhere you get your podcasts.

Most of us are just trying to keep it together, but what if the key to self-healing is blending music, therapy, and a little bit of parts work? Justin Randolph: songwriter, trauma-informed artist, and guy who moved his family to Thailand drops some seriously mind-expanding insights that could revolutionize how you handle your inner chaos. Justin's story is a wild ride through musical journeys, mental health breakthroughs, and how internal family systems (IFS) became his personal soundtrack for healing. He’s not just singing about feelings; he's capturing his inner parts in a concept album that explores everything from people-pleasing to boundary-setting. Trust us, this is an artful, soulful dive into the parts we all hide and how befriending them can lead to harmony, whether you’re making music or managing your mental mess.

Most entrepreneurs are one bad mental health day away from meltdown mode... unless they listen to this. Christi Johnson reveals her struggle with a burnout so severe, it shut her business down & almost made her lose herself completely. But that didn't keep her down, she’s now building a business and life that prioritize her mental health first. Her story is a rollercoaster from hypomanic episodes and emergency crashes to radical self-care and boundary-setting that turned burnout into breakthrough.

Most pageant queens are all glitz, glam, and a sprinkle of cattiness, but Gillian DiAddazio is rewriting the script. After retiring her crown at 16 and making a bold comeback as an adult, she proves that authenticity beats perfection every time. You’ll discover how Gillian’s journey from shy girl to pageant queen transformed her outlook, and why modern pageantry is more about integrity and purpose than pom-poms. We break down the real pressures behind those sparkling crowns, including the mental health struggles, the social media comparison trap, and the toxic “glitz pageant” culture she’d rather see fade away. Plus, Gillian shares her top tips on navigating competitiveness, embracing imperfections, and using a pageant platform to inspire others.