I Have No Idea What I’m Doing

A car accident, a snowstorm, two writing competitions, and how I am afraid of losing memories that I no longer have anyone to remind me about if/when I forget.

As always, I swear and talk about a lot of heavy stuff; you've been warned.

Circus was a semifinalist in Screencraft's Cinematic Short Story Competition

Keeping Up With Jones was a semifinalist in Screencraft's Cinematic Book Competition

I haven’t had time to participate in the Prompts challenges lately, but I’m still including the link to that and my Twitter.

Reedsy Prompts Profile: Here

Twitter: @cassieprmkhtr

In this one, I talk about still having a hard time with this being the final month before Mom’s one-year marker, loving Lady Gaga, some life updates, the disappointment of the acquittal, grappling with guilt and frustration concerning the process of grief and the non-linear aspect of it. I talk about what reading and writing do for me, and how I need to do more of both, and how I’m trying to practice self-love and compassion. I promise to write something and read it next time.

As always, I swear and talk about a lot of heavy stuff; you've been warned.

I haven’t had time to participate in the Prompts challenges lately, but I’m still including the link to that and my Twitter.

Reedsy Prompts Profile: Here

Twitter: @cassieprmkhtr

I talk about writing, editing, Month 11 without Mom, how things may be working out in a lot of different ways all at once, feeling like Mom has something to do with those things happening, feeling mildly okay with the successes I have?

As always, I swear and talk about a lot of heavy stuff; you've been warned.

I haven’t had time to participate in the Prompts challenges lately, but I’m still including the link to that and my Twitter.

Reedsy Prompts Profile: Here

Twitter: @cassieprmkhtr

I talk about inauguration day, medication debacles, ER visits for people and for pets! I also talk about Mom, and grief activated by cars, mattresses, and medical misadventures. Oh, and some coronavirus exposure, the anxiety around the waiting game of this virus and this pandemic. I skirt the topics of editing and writing at some points in there as well.

As always, I swear and talk about a lot of heavy stuff; you've been warned.

I haven’t had time to participate in the Prompts challenges lately, but I’m still including the link to that and my Twitter.

Reedsy Prompts Profile: Here

Twitter: @cassieprmkhtr

I talk about my birthday, practicing self-care, trying to remember to love myself, why I’m still stalled on the artist’s way by Julia Cameron, the way that the current events in the news is keeping me tied up vs focusing on creating, the way depression and some other unexpected reasons are also playing into that inability to focus. I also share a quick personal achievement that is very exciting! I talk about grief and missing Mom, and how weird it is that she’s gone, and I wonder about the seconds vs the firsts of things without her. I also mention this cool thing I learned about recently called the Telephone of the Wind, and I urge you to look it up.

As always, I swear and talk about a lot of heavy stuff; you've been warned.

Reedsy Prompts Profile: Here (https://blog.reedsy.com/creative-writing-prompts/author/cassie-poormokhtar/)

Twitter: @cassieprmkhtr

I talk about my week started and it ended. The depression and emotional hangovers, the good personal news I received, and oh yeah, how could I not mention the mob that took Capitol Hill in an attempted coup d’état at the behest of the sitting president of the USA?!

As always, I swear and talk about a lot of heavy stuff; you've been warned.

Reedsy Prompts Profile: Here (https://blog.reedsy.com/creative-writing-prompts/author/cassie-poormokhtar/)

Twitter: @cassieprmkhtr (https://twitter.com/cassieprmkhtr)

I talk about the week leading up to Mom’s birthday, the new year, a letter I wrote to Mom, how I’m trying to maintain a leveled-out place emotionally and not allowing grief to take complete control, prose poetry I’m working on, what I’m reading, what I recently finished reading, and how I’m celebrating Mom’s birthday. Happy birthday, Mom.

As always, I swear and talk about a lot of heavy stuff; you've been warned.

Reedsy Prompts Profile: Here (https://blog.reedsy.com/creative-writing-prompts/author/cassie-poormokhtar/)

Twitter: @cassieprmkhtr (https://twitter.com/cassieprmkhtr)

https://charlotteseley.com/poetry for her chapbook, Die Young: Letters to Ke$ha.

I talk about making it through Christmas without Mom, the dread of the week leading up to, the missed signs that she was with me, the realization of those signs later, and the nerves about her birthday this weekend, and my birthday that comes soon after hers. I read some scattered thoughts I had throughout the last few weeks: just a jumble of thoughts I'd jot down as I was having them. I read a few journal entries with memories related to Mom and how I felt this week, and how I felt on Christmas Eve.

As always, I swear and talk about a lot of heavy stuff; you've been warned.

Reedsy Prompts Profile: Here (https://blog.reedsy.com/creative-writing-prompts/author/cassie-poormokhtar/)

Twitter: @cassieprmkhtr (https://twitter.com/cassieprmkhtr)

I talk about the occipital neuralgia flare up I'm having, the last few weeks of grief, anxiety, and depression building up and spilling over, the holidays are here, how the universe is reminding me I’m not alone despite what my brain is trying to tell me. I apologize and say I’m sorry about not telling people about this podcast, and I also ramble a bit about what books I’ve recently finished and what I’m focusing on with my craft for writing.

As always, I swear and talk about a lot of heavy stuff; you've been warned.

Reedsy Prompts Profile: Here (https://blog.reedsy.com/creative-writing-prompts/author/cassie-poormokhtar/)

Twitter: @cassieprmkhtr (https://twitter.com/cassieprmkhtr)