Journey to Change

I’m always gonna say this, my brain is always thinking about something and either I have to speak about it or write about it. And since I limit human interaction as much as possible ha, this is where it goes. I believe during the process of healing you recognize things such as what I spoke about. When a thought of something from my past comes up I just shake my head and laugh now because of what I used to do and then I have to feel proud that I no longer do it.

Yesterday, I didn’t feel this in because I just wasn’t feeling it at all. Today, I’m pretty good thankfully so here I am today to put something here. This episode was just about things that are right in front of our faces most of the time but yet we pretend like it’s not real, we don’t wanna believe it, but it’s real. If you wanna live life in a box live it in a box that’s fine, but when the storm hits and you spent your whole life pretending like it didn’t exist so now you don’t know what to do in that moment, you can’t be mad at nobody but you.

It’s me! Jessica! Haha if you know you know. That’s what my brain does to me sometimes.

My content will probably always have mixed thoughts from different topics.. because something is always coming into mind that has nothing to do with the current topic!

Hopefully it will keep people on their toes.. I don’t want to be in a box! Just let the thinking goooo out and be expressed. Well, some, because not all should be spoken out loud.

I woke up at 4 AM thinking about the chain that binds us again.

The Bible says that God forgets our sin, yet some of may not think that way about it.

If the truth sets us free, the Son sets us free, how come we’d still walk, talk, think, and act like we’re still held captive by our sin?

Oh ye of little faith?

Is it surface level for us? Outward appearing free yet the soul still tied to the old way..

I knew I would have something to talk about after my nephew‘s court date today. And after seeing him in the handcuffs and the chain that went to his ankle cuffs, I began to think about the things that we, who are seemingly free allow to keep us in bondage.

Had someone from the past make a statement of “if you’re the same as you were from back then that’s crazy!” Not so much directed at me specifically but in regard to certain things.

It got me to thinking and looking over myself. While I’m not where I was mentally, emotionally, spiritually.. I haven’t done much since I knew them.

It’s not about pressure, or the need to be like others. It just about progress, not remaining the same each day.

If there are things that you notice need work, do the work. If there’s a dream you have, go after it.

Walk it out, whatever you talk about, walk it out.

Got to reading and then got to thinking so had to add more to what I said earlier.

We can overcome evil with good, but it’s a never ending task.

Teach, teach, teach. But live by what you teach so as to not be a hypocrite.

Haven’t felt inspired to do much on here lately. If I want it to go somewhere I need to do the work right? Right.

Brain always going, but I don’t pick up the phone to record or a pen to write or the laptop to type.

I need motivation..

The battle between who you are and who you were is tough! But don’t add to it if you can help it!

Don’t put yourself in places that you have to try and be this or be that because you’re still working through things.

Take that time and space and do what you need to do.

There people will understand or they won’t. But it’s better for all to do that inner work rather than be out here struggling to be who you want to be. No need to rush it thinking that’s what you need to do to be there for others.