K-Talk

So tired of people playing the victim. Like they attack you and come at you and then they cry, or get angry because you refuse to accept their behaviour. This is the cousin of gaslighting. People like to "tell you the truth" but whose truth is it? We all have a different perception of an event we all saw, because we are conditioned by our previous experiences and responses. When you tell someone something or ask them for advice be very careful because people have their own agenda, they also carry their baggage into your situation.

I am going to be honest here about how I have been feeling

Lets talking about relationships.

If anyone has had any unpleasant dealings with me, I will totally apologize. In this episode I get super vulnerable about something that has taken root in my life. A condition that has changed my outlook, and I think I went through the stages of grief, because the life I wanted not sure I can achieve it with the obstacle. But then in then through the podcast I realize I can I just have to change my procedure. Thus podcast episode is for anyone who is lost, do not wait to get a diagnosis to change, make the change now. Figure out what you want and what you need to do to sustain yourself.

When I was forced to make a change

Okay, so full transparency, when I recorded this, my migraine had disappeared. I suffer from migraines but never to this extent. Anyway, I was given a medication which I took to help me counter the pain I was in. I mean, my body swole, I felt hot all over, and on day 4, I thought I was losing my mind. What was interesting was how well I controlled my thoughts which I mean, the only thing I thought about and worried about was losing my mind, but also trying to stop the pain. No other concerns; I did not know about money, work, or anything. Just the migraine was my focus, and also be scared I would get a stroke from this. Where does the matrix come from? Well, I was given the blue pill to stop the migraine, and when I finally woke up migraine-free, things seemed very different; I realized that the migraine while I suffer from them is being fed by the current high intense stress I am under. The fact that I have been under an incredible amount of pressure from all outside factors... Listen to what happened next...

What are you maintaining in your life that you don't need to? Everything takes work. You have to preserve things otherwise, they wither and die, and sometimes even with maintaining, they die like plants. Some things are worth keeping, but not everything; some people will work seven jobs for something designer, but for what reason? Now I am somewhat materialistic, but I stopped maintaining things because I no longer have the mental space to do it. I now evaluate the maintenance of something such as a relationship. I ask myself, is this worth the care? It is like buying an expensive car, well it is costly to maintain the cost of the car...do you have the money? We have many thoughts about anything that involves money, but why not when it demands are energy?

Do you know a settled person is an unhappy person? What do you think about settling? A lot of people feel like settling is safe, but is it not a life not lived. Should you not take risks and stray off the path? Sometimes the best thing you can do for yourself is carving out your own path.

The family it the...Can you complete that sentence? Most of you were aware last year was very difficult because I have an aging parent. My father, unfortunately, takes advice from family members who do not care about him. I can be honest my father has not been the greatest with his siblings, sometimes being negative and getting into their business. So I get that, but people don't realize that some people mean you harm, see you in a vulnerable position, and finally use that to lead you to your demise. On the other hand, I am fair, and I realize people have their problems; as they age, they do not in any way want to hear about your problems. And thus, they will say whatever to get you off the line.

Be Wise