Kat John is REAL, RAW, RELATABLE

I set a cruel intention seven years ago that I had to wake up happy and be happy all day in order to be a good spiritual person and a coach. Ugh, I know! This intention was a wasted chase of striving for perfection for six months, inevitably leading to stress, being down on myself and losing faith on the path I was walking. Lucky I caught myself out!

I experienced sexual abuse at the age of six and it was one of, if not the most uncomfortable experiences of my life. For nearing two decades after the abuse, I was ruled by a limiting belief system that I had created that deemed me worthless, un-loveable and that no-one, especially males, don't support or love me. These limiting beliefs created one hell of a life that I wanted to escape from, but discovered how hard it was to escape those demons in my head. I saw no other option than to face them and free myself. 

The amount of fks I gave about so many things that in truth, really didn't matter, blows my mind. I was holding myself back from being and doing "me" because I preferred to be liked, accepted and keep the peace. After a relationship breakup and countless dates that ended as quickly as they begun, I was left looking in the mirror at a version of myself I didn't really like and needed to make a choice to keep up with my facade, or start facing the truth. This is when the zero fks life came to life.

In 2010 I was ready to check out of my life. I was overweight, depressed, an absolute drainer to be around, riddled with chronic pain and addicted to high-dose pain killers. It's fair to say I wasn't the picture of health and happiness I am today. I blamed the world for how I was and could barely look at myself in the mirror. In this episode, I share what it took to get out of my darkness and into my light, what I call from pain to power.