Was Joseph Smith into drugs?? And did he drug his congregation??? We're gonna "high" to Kolob in today's episode that features guest hosts, Bryce Blankenagel, of the Naked Mormonism podcast, and our favorite therapist, Kimberly Anderson. Bryce presents strong evidence for the alleged use of psychedelics in the early Mormon church. And be advised, the LDL podcast and our guests in no way advocate for illegal drug use of any kind. Don't try this at home kids.

For further study:
Mormonism Unveiled by Eber D. Howe
Studies of the Book of Mormon by B.H. Roberts
"The Higher Powers of Man" by Frederick M Smith (FUMPOTD inspiration)

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Whattya know,, we made it to 100!! And we put the call out for audio submissions and you answered! A huge thanks and sloppy wet kisses to everyone who contributed and also to every single one of our listeners! This Thanksgiving we feel grateful for all the ways in which we are loved and supported!! We couldn't do this without you!!!!

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Trigger Warning: in this episode we discuss delicate themes such as conversion therapy, anorexia and suicidal ideation. If these topics are triggering for you, feel free to pause the recording, listen in a supportive environment or skip this one. In the fall of 2019, Nathan Winterton pulled over to the side of the road because they couldn't stop the flow of tears over the news that the LDS church essentially defended the practice of conversion therapy by attempting to prevent the passing of a Utah state law that would make it illegal. That day, Nathan took a selfie that went viral on social media. A year later, they agreed to come on our podcast and talk about it. We feel honored that Nathan so openly shared their experience with all of us. It's an extraordinary story.

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Fair warning: this week we get a bit sacrilegious and come to the conclusion that 2,000 years may not actually be enough time to process trauma, so you take your time Jesus. Annnnnd...we're back in the temple for the LAST TIME!! Bye bye LDS temple. Try not to let the door hit ya where HF split ya! We also, want to give a special thank you to Pirate God for their contribution to the temple episodes. Pirate God is a non-binary being and requests they/them pronouns. They thank you.

In this episode we discuss our amazing trip to Utah and Mary's 10-year-old boy joke (she really can't help herself). Also, we hear from our long lost Sister Fanny Fact Check. Welcome back Sister! You have been missed. Oh, and we're back in the temple briefly. Thankfully, we're almost out of there. Enjoy!

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This week, Shelly gets some much needed rest as Mary and Kimberly Anderson, MFA, MA, AMFT, discuss resiliency, guilt, shame and lots more. If this episode causes you to trigger, please feel free to step away or listen in a supportive environment, and you can always refer to the below links for help.

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 800-273-8255 / https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org
Trans Lifeline: 877-565-8860 / https://www.translifeline.org
The Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386 / https://www.thetrevorproject.org
Alliance of Hope support groups: https://allianceofhope.org/find-support/find-a-support-group
LGBTQ+ subsidized therapy: https://flourishtherapy.org
Find a therapist: https://www.psychologytoday.com/us

Topics in today's episode:
Neil deGrasse Tyson: Stardust: https://youtu.be/kl0J6Le5MpM

John Bowlby: attachment theory: http://homework: research on attachment theory - John Bowlby https://heeoe.hee.nhs.uk/sites/default/files/attachment_disorders.pdf

Further reading on attachment theory: https://www.csyw.qld.gov.au/resources/dcsyw/child-family/foster-kinship-care/training/attachment-handouts.pdf

James Marcia: Identity Foreclosure: https://www.gracepointwellness.org/1310-child-development-theory-adolescence-12-24/article/41164-james-marcia-and-self-identity

Podcast: Therapist Uncensored: https://therapistuncensored.com/episodes/

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This week Diana keeps "Shelly's seat warm" and picks up the guest hosting slot. I stump her on a FUMPOTD courtesy of Bryce Blankenagel of the Naked Mormonism podcast. She and I also discuss family relationships and boundary setting, as well as attempts to fill the "bottomless well" of affirmation needs. It's a good one, so please give a listen on your favorite podcast app.

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Sooo....Shelly lied. We are actually back in the temple today for Lucifer's farewell speech. It's a classic. Shelly also dons a hideous temple outfit sent in by a listener (robe, apron, sash, veil). We also read an inspiring letter, and hear how some more LDL'ers got into our discussion group on Facebook.

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We are STILL in the stupid temple. Seriously so dumb. Pirate God pays us a visit there...in fact, you may actually find yourself thinking, "will someone please make Pirate God shut up???" We also discover what more folks said to "get into the group," and this episode wouldn't be complete without another triggering entry from Shelly's creepy 1990's journal. Join us!

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Yup, this week we get up close and personal with the Mormon Missionary handbook. So ditch those toe rings and break out a ruler cuz those sideburns are looking a little shaggy. We also find out what more listeners said to get into the group, and learn about Lucifer's ATM machine. Join us!!

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