What if your biggest dreams aren't behind you...

What if they're just waiting for your permission?

In today's Future Self Diaries, I'm taking you behind the scenes as I dream out loud about the life I'm intentionally creating. No perfect plan. No pretending I've arrived. Just an honest conversation about the future I'm choosing to build—and why I think every midlife woman deserves to do the same.

Because here's what I've learned...

You don't accidentally become her.

You become her one tiny decision, one tiny habit, and one tiny act of courage at a time.

If you've been putting your dreams on hold while taking care of everyone else, this episode is your reminder that your next chapter doesn't have an expiration date.

It's time to dream bigger.

In this episode:

✨ Why dreaming is more practical than you think
 🧭 How your Future Self becomes your compass
 🌅 The power of visualizing an extraordinary life
 💗 Why becoming always comes before achieving
 🚀 One simple way to start becoming her today

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I lost 120 pounds. Regained 80. Losing it again, live, right here with you. 👇 Come build your ritual with us this week: [SKOOL LINK]

Diet culture has us believing the happy is at the skinny. Lose the weight, and then the happy shows up.

I did the opposite. I stopped chasing skinny and started chasing joy — and the weight came off anyway.

Then the opposite happened. Joy went out of my life, and the weight came back on. So it became a mission to create a life I loved again. And as I stepped into that, the weight started coming off again.

I'm still in it. I've still got work to do. And I'm doing it right here with you.

If you're a midlife woman who knows exactly what to do and still can't stay consistent, this one is for you. This isn't another video about discipline or willpower. Sustainable weight loss after 50 doesn't come from trying harder. It comes from building habits and rituals you actually want to wake up to.

In this episode I'm telling you the thing that finally made my habits stick. I was a 300-pound ball of misery in Phoenix, and the first habit I ever built was a 20-minute meditation I bribed myself into with a cup of coffee. That one small ritual started everything.

WHAT WE GET INTO:

→ Why your habits don't stick, and why it's not a discipline problem
 → The coffee bribe: why bribing yourself isn't cheating, it's the mechanism
 → Habit stacking (James Clear, Atomic Habits) and why a ritual is a habit stack with soul
 → How to build a morning routine you don't have to force yourself into
 → The beach house: I got everything on the vision board and I was still miserable
 → The candy jar, the meditation room, and quieting the food noise
 → Your primitive brain isn't broken, it's trying to keep you safe (nervous system regulation)
 → Weight regain: showing up through the sickness, the eczema, the gaining, and why I never stopped
 → Curiosity over judgment, and why awareness is your superpower

MY PROMISE EVERY EPISODE: one small thing you can actually do this week, or one idea that shifts something in your brain. Not more information. You've got plenty of that.

CHAPTERS:

0:00 The happy isn't at the skinny
 0:57 If you're new here
 1:38 My promise every episode
 2:37 Back in Phoenix, where it started
 3:00 The 300-pound ball of misery
 4:26 My very first habit stack
 4:57 I could just go walk five minutes
 5:22 Where does your ritual live?
 6:32 The coffee bribe
 7:12 James Clear and habit stacking
 8:53 Sick of doing it the same old way
 9:13 Pulling the card
 10:34 The beach house and the vision board
 13:37 The candy jar
 14:29 Your primitive brain is keeping you safe
 21:58 Showing up through the eczema and the flare-ups
 26:18 Curiosity over judgment
 26:34 The awareness is your superpower

This week inside Midlife Badassery we're building joy on purpose all week, leading into the Habits & Rituals workshop this Sunday. If you're done with diet culture and ready to build a life you love living, come walk with us.

 Get on the ride with me, because I'm not stopping. 

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Six months ago, I sat on this very mountain wondering what the next chapter of my life would look like.

Today, I'm back.

I'm 30 pounds lighter, my community has grown from an idea into 450 incredible women, and somewhere along the way... I stopped chasing a perfect life and learned to truly love the one I was living.

In this deeply personal reflection, I share what actually changed over the past six months—including the things I never saw coming.

We talk about:

✨ Why the biggest transformation wasn't the number on the scale (although, I'll take 30 pounds down)!

✨ Building an alter ego that changed everything

✨ Learning to love my life—even when it was confined to one room

✨ Healing, health challenges, and why progress isn't always linear

✨ Dreaming bigger than weight loss

✨ Why I'm planning to work from Scotland next year (yes... really!)

✨ What I hope the next six months will bring

If you've ever felt like your life is meant for something more than simply losing weight, being on the hamster wheel of life, same day in and out...

This episode is for you.

Because sometimes the greatest transformation isn't becoming someone new.

It's finally becoming yourself. 

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Have you ever known exactly what you wanted to do... and still couldn't make yourself do it?

You want to stretch.
 You want to meditate.
 You want to lose the weight.
 You want to build the business.

So why does your brain seem to hit the brakes?

In this episode, I'm sharing one of the biggest breakthroughs I've had in years of coaching midlife women. What started as research for my EFT tapping workshop turned into a completely new way of understanding motivation, procrastination, and why so many of us get stuck during life's transition moments.

You'll learn why I no longer believe motivation is the problem—and why your nervous system may be trying to protect you instead.

We explore:

✨ Why traditional morning routines aren't the whole answer

✨ How your nervous system influences motivation and procrastination

✨ The "Smoke Alarm" analogy for fight-or-flight

✨ The ancient Chariot story and what it teaches us about the mind, body, and soul

✨ Why I see our Arch Nemeses (like the Wine Wench and Fog Witch) as protective parts instead of enemies

✨ A new concept I'm calling The Transition Chamber—a simple way to move from survival mode back into alignment with your Highest Self

Plus, I end with a short EFT tapping exercise you can use the next time you find yourself stuck, overwhelmed, or unable to take the next step.

If you've ever asked yourself...

"What's wrong with me?"

I hope this episode helps you start asking a better question:

"What is this part of me trying to protect me from?"

Because I have a feeling that question might change everything.

Chapters (Approximate)

00:00 – Why I think I finally figured this out

02:15 – My client's morning routine struggle

06:00 – Why morning routines aren't the real answer

09:30 – The nervous system & the Smoke Alarm

15:00 – The Chariot: an ancient map for the modern mind

22:00 – Why your Arch Nemesis might be trying to protect you

28:00 – The Transition Chamber

34:00 – EFT tapping for motivation & overwhelm

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If you've ever felt like you know exactly what to do but still can't seem to follow through, this episode is for you.

After losing 120 pounds, navigating a regain, and spending years exploring everything from mindset work to coaching to EFT Tapping, I've come to believe that most of us aren't stuck because we need more willpower.

We're stuck because something inside us doesn't feel safe.

In this episode, I'm sharing four powerful questions that can help uncover the hidden fears, beliefs, and emotional patterns that may be keeping you stuck—not just in weight loss, but in business, relationships, money, and life.

We'll also talk about EFT Tapping (Emotional Freedom Technique), why it's become one of my favorite tools for nervous system regulation, and I'll walk you through a simple tapping exercise you can use yourself.

The Four Questions

✨ What Happens If It Changes?

✨ How Will Other People Feel About It?

✨ What Pain Might I Experience If I Change This?

✨ What Will I Lose If I Make This Change?

The answers may reveal more than you expect.

Because they usually aren't about food.

They're about safety.

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Something cracked open inside Midlife Badassery this week — and Addie couldn't NOT talk about it.

In this episode Addie shares what happened when a group of midlife women showed up for a free 7-day kickstart challenge and had some of the most profound transformation moments she's witnessed in 8 years of coaching. No $10k mastermind. No suffering. Just alter egos, daily prompts, and a whole lot of fun.

In this episode:

• The one ingredient missing from every weight loss plan you've ever tried
• How Addie lost 20 pounds from meditation alone — and why that made her furious
• The birth of Slayer — her alter ego born from rage at a broken system
• Why the "you only value what you pay for" coaching myth is bulls**t
• Real wins from real women in the community this week
• Why groups create exponential transformation (and what Human Design says about it)
• What happens when you stop measuring macros and start measuring joy

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What happens when creativity becomes more than a hobby — and turns into a lifeline, a healing tool, and a business?

In this episode of Midlife Badassery, I’m joined by Katya McEwen, creator of Oracle Connections and Oracle Cards Magic, mindset coach, hypnotherapist, and soulful creative guide. I also fully confess that I am basically Katya’s biggest fan. Badge included. 😂

Katya shares her powerful story of being born in Russia, raised in Ukraine, and moving through the grief and identity crisis that came after the war in Ukraine began. When her usual mindset tools stopped working, she found her way back to creativity through painting, AI art, and oracle cards — eventually turning pain into purpose and “war into art.”

We also talk about the money blocks spiritual creatives carry, why women need to stop martyring themselves, how oracle decks become transformational tools, the ethics of AI, community over competition, and why midlife women belong in rooms where money, magic, and impact are all allowed to exist together.

This conversation is soulful, practical, funny, a little woo, and deeply human.

In this episode, we talk about:

Katya’s LIFE philosophy: love, impact with integrity, freedom of expression, and evolvement

Why so many women think they “aren’t creative anymore”

Using art and AI as a way to process grief

The story behind Katya’s Ukrainian goddess of protection images

The ethical conversation around AI and creativity

Money, spirituality, and why Katya says, “I know my shit and I’m going to get paid for it”

How oracle cards can become healing tools, business tools, and transformational tools

Why your next deck, offer, or body of work may already be hiding in your Google Drive

Community, collaboration, and the power of women lifting women

The magic her younger self would see in her life now

Chapters / Timestamps

 00:00 — Meet Katya McEwen + why I’m her biggest fan
 03:04 — Katya’s LIFE philosophy: love, impact, freedom, evolvement
 08:05 — What to do when you don’t feel creative anymore
 12:38 — Katya’s childhood in Russia and Ukraine
 16:11 — The war in Ukraine, identity crisis, and finding AI art
 22:38 — The ethical conversation around AI and creativity
 28:11 — Detaching from outcomes, goals, and the Skool Games
 34:17 — Money blocks, spiritual work, and getting paid for your gifts
 41:07 — Oracle cards as healing tools, business tools, and transformational tools
 49:36 — Community, collaboration, and women lifting women
 59:06 — The signature magic question 

Katya McEwen joins Midlife Badassery to talk oracle cards, AI art, creativity, money, community, and her powerful journey of turning grief from the war in Ukraine into art, purpose, and transformational work.

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I thought I was bringing Slayer back.

You know... the weight loss alter ego who helped me lose 120 pounds and completely change my life.

I showed up to an Alter Ego workshop ready to resurrect her. Instead, I walked away with a surprising realization: the woman I need now isn't exactly the same woman I needed back then.

The weight is coming off.

The business is growing.

But my sacred morning time? The time that keeps me grounded, creative, and connected to myself? That's been getting hijacked.

In this behind-the-scenes episode, I'm pulling back the curtain on the exact Alter Ego process I teach inside MEFirst and sharing what happened when I used it on myself.

We talk about Slayer, Brookster, the Wine Wench, the Time Bandit, and why identity—not willpower—is what actually changes your life.

If you've ever felt like you're becoming someone new, or like the version of you that got you here might not be the version that gets you where you're going next, this episode is for you.

In This Episode:

✨ Why I originally created Slayer and how she helped me lose 120 pounds

✨ The surprising problem that showed up this time

✨ Why I think my new arch nemesis is The Time Bandit

✨ Future Self vs. Alter Ego—and why the distinction matters

✨ The role identity plays in lasting transformation

✨ Midlife, menopause, healing, and learning to work differently

✨ The question that changed everything for me:

What am I capable of doing that I'm not doing?

Grab a notebook and come behind the scenes with me.

Until then, witches and bitches...

Dream big.

Become her.

Chapter Markers

00:00 - My Weight Loss Alter Ego Returns

03:12 - Why I Needed Slayer Again

07:08 - The Problem Wasn't the Scale

10:42 - Current Reality vs. Wonder World

15:06 - The Health Journey Nobody Sees

19:20 - Identity Shifts and Lasting Change

24:14 - Midlife, Menopause & Energy

29:48 - The Question That Changed Everything

33:11 - Future Self vs. Alter Ego

38:05 - The Batman Effect

42:52 - Meeting a New Alter Ego

47:20 - The Wine Wench & The Time Bandit

52:04 - Creating New Beliefs

55:18 - My New Creed

57:04 - Slayer Out

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If you're a woman over 50 on a weight loss journey who has tried every program, every diet, every coach — and you're still not there — this episode is for you. This is the midlife transformation story nobody talks about. Not another weight loss tip. Not another mindset hack. This is how I created an alter ego, stepped into her, and lost over 100 pounds — and how that identity shift became the biggest personal growth catalyst of my life. If you're in midlife and feeling like you've hit a wall, if the weight loss feels impossible and you're quietly giving up — I see you. I was you. And this is your midlife reset. 🔥

I was leading a workshop this week and I looked out at the room and saw myself staring right back at me.

She had tried all the things. Every diet. Every program. Every coach. Every Monday morning promise. And she was done. She had quietly given up on believing her body could ever change.

I had something to tell her that nobody had ever told me.

This episode is for every woman in despair who has done everything and still hasn't gotten there. The woman who is quietly giving up. The woman who doesn't believe anymore.

I was her. And then I did something nobody taught me to do.

I built an alter ego. I stepped into her. And I lost over 100 pounds.

This is what nobody tells you about that.

In this episode I share:

• The rock bottom moment that changed everything — Game of Thrones, yoga pants, and three days in bed
• Why I looked into weight loss surgery and what stopped me
• The Everyday Adventure List that cracked my mind open for the first time
• How I discovered the think, feel, act cycle and why it should be taught in fourth grade
• How Slayer was born — and what she unlocked that had nothing to do with weight loss
• Why regaining weight this time felt completely different from every time before
• The role of community in keeping you going through the messy middle
• Why awareness is the real superpower — and how your alter ego accidentally builds it

I didn't set out to teach thought awareness or alter ego work. I set out to lose weight because I was a ball of misery. And when I built Slayer, I accidentally became an observer of my own life.

Awareness was the superpower I didn't know I was building.

The only thing stopping you from feeling good right now is your mind. And okay, maybe a little bit of hormones depending on where you are with perimenopause. 😄

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Have you ever been pulled into an office, a meeting, or a conversation and told you were too much?

Too loud. Too emotional. Too ambitious. Too intense. Too spiritual. Too big.

This week Addie gets real about a moment that kept her up at night — being told by a coach that her energy can scare people. And instead of shrinking, she did what she always does: she got honest, got into it, and came out the other side more herself than ever.

In this episode Addie talks about:

• Why being called "a lot" has followed her from corporate America to the coaching world — and why she's finally done letting it stick
• What Human Design revealed about her energy and why she's wired this way
• How years of shrinking herself to fit in contributed to 80 lbs back on her body
• Why your alter ego GPT might be your best hype person when you need a reality check
• The truth about who your people really are — and why the wrong room is actually a gift
• What's happening inside the MEfirst community, the Alter Ego Challenge, and her first YouTube video
• Her morning routine that's changing everything — yoga, meditation, treadmill, MEfirst Guide
• Brookster, her CEO alter ego, and why putting on real pants is her talisman
• Her HRT journey, inflammation, and why sleep changed when she went back to her estrogen cream
• The visioning book club happening inside MEfirst Becoming

If you've ever been told you were too much of something — this one's for you.

Go light this bitch up. Go be too much of something. It's your mission.

CHAPTER MARKERS

00:00 — You're A Lot. Good. (Intro + the moment that kept her up at night) 

08:11 — Creating and Leading With Purpose (MEfirst community, Alter Ego Challenge, Brookster) 

16:27 — Morning Routines and Self-Care Practices (yoga, meditation, HRT, weight loss update)

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