Melancholy Minutes

Common Question: Why should I talk about it?

This episode is a dark one as it shows the self-betrayal of my depression and the rampant need to please others in order to make myself happy.

To be honest, waking up under a cubicle on Christmas morning blows unlimited chimps.

More value, more truth. 

If you know someone who is suffering, share this episode!

WARNING: This episode is dark and talks about my suicide ideation. 

This episode touches on the second darkest night of the soul, but this is where I found my freedom and some measure of peace. It gave me a place to put my foot down and work toward getting healing.

What went through my mind as I struggled with my first time around?

This episode covers the mentality and reflects the poor mental health I still carry to today.

WARNING: This is going to be a darker episode

This episode is about my first attempt at ending my life and the vision I had to prevent it.

This subject is a touchy matter, so I share more of my story about the stigma of money and what it does to me. Suffice to say, this is important for many people.

NOTE: This episode is more a reflection on how important it is to acknowledge the people out there.

NOTE 2: I mention Mountain View only because the numbers say a large chunk of listens come from that area. I love you all and thanks for listening no matter where you are.

This episode isn't shareable except with those who know the show. I want to thank each and everyone one of you for listening. No matter what happens, it is only you that makes this message worth delivering. We must talk about our depression. We must share what makes our lives tick. We must not be afraid to open up.

It is through your help this show grows. I love you all!

Beware of the "Hustle" demons tempting you to be a part of the 1%. You are listening to this podcast, so you are a part of the 1% already. 

It is a part of perception and dealing with it means you will have a greater chance to build on something important. When you know you are already HAPP (the Old Norse name for Luck), then you can build form there. It is when you build on an abundance of lack is when you have greater issues with your happiness and health, both mental and physical.

What story am I telling myself? What sort of myth have I built up to defense my sensitivities? This is the vital part of my life story, laid bare for anyone to listen to.

What is more important is there are more people involved with transactions like this than the world cares to know or admit. People need to open up about their experiences. We need to have honest conversations about situations like this. 

Please share this episode.

(Recorded on St. Patty's Day)

What parts of your story do you hide? What parts do you forget? This episode touches on this idea of self-denial in our stories. My family is Irish, but I was petty enough to crush our family dreams.

Of course, being a victim of multiple abuses, is it really petty?