Naturalized Podcast

Just hear me out.

I'm delusional. I should be more delusional.

Feeling Like Everyone Else Got the Instruction Manual to Life | Am I Autistic or something?

I spent my early adulthood completely lost. I questioned everything — why society is organized the way it is, why people believe what they believe, who makes the rules, and how anyone is supposed to know right from wrong. It felt like everyone else was handed a secret user manual for life… except me.

Growing up with a single mom who was never home and a father who taught me almost nothing. Then, at age 10, moving from Japan to Canada — suddenly having to adapt to a whole new culture while feeling like a perpetual outsider. Being bullied, misunderstood, and constantly observing from the edges made me build my entire sense of reality from the ground up.

I share how this mix of minimal parenting, cultural whiplash, and immigrant experiences left me deconstructing every social norm, belief, and system just to make sense of the world. Was it autism? Was it trauma? Or was it simply what happens when you’re given no scaffolding and forced to figure it all out yourself?

Looking back at my old journals from 17 years ago, I see how intensely I questioned everything — and how that painful process eventually became one of my greatest strengths: an independent mind that doesn’t blindly accept “because that’s just how it is.”

If you’ve ever felt like you missed the manual to life…If you’re a 1.5-generation immigrant, Third Culture Kid, or anyone who had to rebuild their worldview from scratch…You might relate.

You try to help but often people don't really appreciate it. Even your friends. A lot of people are just focused on taking energy and not contributing anything. Which leads me to this conclusion. Stay in my lane, boy. Just do my thing. Leave those who can't be on the level in the dust. I ain't bitter. I just ain't got time for dumb shit.

The world is going absolutely insane it feels like and maybe civilization is on its way out but I'm just gonna keep ranting in my little corner of the internet. Thank you for coming. I like you.

Jaded romance is my lack of presence and attachment to outcome. I will prove myself wrong about women being hardened. That modern dating is ruined. That the world is going to shit. I will prove all of it wrong. I will prove that being jaded is reversible. I will prove that great things are possible.

For the next decade, I have to do whatever it takes to be the OWNER. Mainly an owner of my own business that serves directly to the people who will benefit from it. Not an assistant. Not a worker with a single function. I must serve directly to benefit people. That's the only way I will be truly free. This will take a massive transformation.

Bless y'all I'm welcoming the New Year in Japan, but wherever you are I wish you a Happy New Year for 2026.

I'm starting a tribe of people who are super generous, benevolent, always winning, having lots of sex and wish everyone in the tribe to be happy. You must pass vibe check to enter.

I dreamt that someone I don't know that well IRL, but in the dream felt like I knew this person all my life, died. I woke up very very upset.