What if repentance isn’t about punishment, shame, or self-improvement... but about coming home?
In this episode, Dr. Michael Christian & John are joined by Fr. Michael Butler (Avg2Alpha) for a deep, pastoral conversation on the Parable of the Prodigal Son & the Church’s wisdom in placing it at the heart of the Triodion, just before Great Lent begins.
Together, they explore repentance not as despair or moral failure, but as return... a healing movement of the whole person: body, soul, & attention. From shame & resentment to mercy, discipline, & sonship, this episode speaks especially to those who feel scattered, exhausted, or quietly resentful while trying to “do everything right.”
This is not a call to perform better.
It’s an invitation to come home.
This conversation is part of the Triodion mini-arc leading into Great Lent, focusing on the Church’s preparation of the heart before ascetic effort begins. Episode 48 centers on the Prodigal Son; the next episode continues with Meatfare Sunday & the call to mercy in love of neighbor.
Takeaways:
Repentance in Orthodoxy is not self-hatred, but reorientation & return
God meets us exactly where we are, but does not leave us there
Mercy is not permissiveness; it is grace that calls us higher
The “older brother” temptation is often resentment disguised as obedience
Distraction, overstimulation, & restlessness mirror spiritual exile
True healing involves confession, stability, & embodied spiritual rhythm
Discipline of the body must serve communion with God, not ego or control
Sound Bytes:
- “God meets us where we are, but He calls us back into the home.”
- “Repentance isn’t about self-condemnation... it’s about coming to yourself.”
- “Mercy does not mean permissiveness. God never leaves us where we are.”
- “The older brother did everything right... & still couldn’t rejoice.”
- “When we’re scattered spiritually, it shows up as restlessness in the body.”
- “The Church is not a courtroom. It’s a hospital.”
- “The real victory in wrestling with God is learning how to surrender.”
Chapters:00:00 Opener
01:29 The Prodigal Son & the Purpose of the Triodion
03:56 Meet Fr. Michael Butler (Journey to Orthodoxy)
11:27 The Prodigal Son: Repentance, Mercy, & Return
14:22 Reality Is Informed by Christ (Not Psychology or Ideology)
16:10 Jordan Peterson, Young Men, & the Search for Meaning
24:17 Why the Orthodox Church Is Growing (Especially Among Men)
28:01 “He Came to Himself”: Repentance, Attention, & Healing the Mind
33:34 Distraction, Digital Scattering, & Spiritual Fragmentation
36:24 Can Yoga Be Christianized?
39:46 The Father Who Runs Toward the Prodigal
42:15 Slaves, Servants, & Sons: Remorse vs. Repentance
46:30 The Elder Brother: Resentment, Covert Contracts, & Pride
50:44 The Royal Path: Avoiding Both Legalism & License
56:18 Mentorship, Fatherhood, & Spiritual Authority
01:00:14 Confession as Therapy: The Church as a Hospital
01:02:16 Wrestling with God (& Hoping to Lose)
01:05:21 Bodybuilding, Asceticism, & Discipline of the Body
01:16:15 Fr. Roman Braga & the Meaning of Veneration
01:16:57 Spiritual Legacy, Saints, & Faithfulness Over Time
01:20:42 Coming Home: Practical Steps to Return to God During Lent
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