Poetic properties w/Kamplexx EP.99 No GPS

The past two weeks have been crazy, between me turning 40, my main computer going on the fritz, and trying to figure out my next steps, has me in the blender. I’ve noticed that I have become more intentional in a lot of what I do now so I’m not moving unnecessarily nor being driven by my emotions. Not going to hold you though, my emotions are backseat driving like crazy right now. There has been a change in the program and I'm just trying to figure it out, in attempting to do so m learning so much about who I have grown to be and who I am becoming as a human being. I pride myself on being able to produce unconditional love and boundaries 

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Poetic Properties w/Kamplexx Ep.98 Spiraling

This week was the first week in a while where I was able to catch my breath a little bit no new trauma on the negative side just was reconciling or attempting to reconcile some triggers that still have hold of me. This healing journey is not easy at all but with dedication to yourself, you can find your place and be able to take a new step. 

There was also a moment this week where I think I finally accepted my purpose wholeheartedly, y’all know the goal for me is for us to not hurt how we hurt alone for us to have the knowledge that there are other people going through what you are and can benefit from the knowledge that they aren’t alone. 

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Poetic Properties with Kamplexx Ep.97 Random Thoughts  

Been a very uneasy week, getting closer to my 40th trip around the sun. I am grateful for everything but exhausted. You all know my main goal is to have more good days than bad, and unfortunately, I am getting my ass handed to me; I am however trying to find the silver lining in the blah days, the days I see gloom and fog, the day's words allude my voice and silence sets in. it's difficult and disheartening, but I refuse to give up on trying to make life better for myself and others. Light doesn’t ask for permission to shine it just does. Remember you are the light so shine. Patient Purpose Order   

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Poetic Properties with Kamplexx Ep.96 tell me  

The week was Insane on the emotional level. I went from being lied on, at work to being offered a new gig. That gets me away from the people who have so desperately tried to demoralize me at every step. Though I'm aware that there are challenges in every place of business. This slight change may relieve a lot of my daily stress, it may not, but I won't know unless I try. My brother helped me break some mental strongholds over the past month. Both in my personal, and entrepreneurial life. Opened my eyes to some things that have been in my face all along. Tune in for more 

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Poetic Properties with Kamplexx Ep.95 Stage Five  

This week was a testament of strength for me, I am trying to master the art of not going into a complete panic at the sight of trouble, I am constantly fighting myself looking for the why instead of paying attn to what is. it's like a beginner-level skydiver getting the chute tangled with nothing but air and opportunity separating them from life and death, it's gonna take a minute but they will figure it out or they won’t that’s how heavy things feel in my mind, every minute every second, every day and it overloads my brain. It often shuts me down. The level of mental anguish I go through that turns into physical issues is crazy. I was reading articles this week about how depression affects the brain. And it's much more than a chemical imbalance that I previously thought as our brain muscle reshapes. Studies show in a deep level of depression the brain transforms so much that in the event a person beats depression there is a high chance of extreme memory loss. That sent me into a complete panic. And I realize now the importance of meds besides balancing imbalances its bigger than a mood change. It validates the feeling that I have it brings further to light that I'm not just tripping. It also created a higher level of defense for me. So adjustments have to be made, in real-time. I have to pick up more memory-based activities, be more patient with myself, more understanding of this process.

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Poetic Properties with Kamplexx Ep.94 It’s Bigger than that

Man, I missed y’all these past 3 weeks have been some of the most difficult weeks in recent times. My mental has been disrespected by people in my personal and professional life, and even though I know that we are just BINGO balls rotating vigorously in a bingo cage I try to give folks the benefit of the doubt, and each time it's some bullshit. Work went Immediately left, and the Super that I was hesitant about turned out to be a snack, the entire time she played in every conversation we had, but was secretly trying to get me fired, created this long email of lies once I responded to receipts now, they are acting like everything is normal and it definitely is not, not even close. Turned around and learned a valuable lesson in ownership or lack thereof in my personal life. It brings back to memory one of my favorite quotes. “If you expect the world to be fair with you because you are fair, you're fooling yourself. That's like expecting the lion not to eat you because you didn't eat him”. John Spence. Even though I know the world is cruel I have this idea that it isn’t and that is my fault. I have hella trust issues hella emotional issues, yet I believe that people can be good for the most part in my experience the last few people I’ve given the benefit of the doubt shown how dark they can be. And Mentally I can’t live in that space my growth is contingent on the peace I obtain through my journey my belief in myself has to be stronger than my belief in others. 

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Poetic Properties with Kamplexx Ep.93 Brake Click  

This was a very trying week, the camera being broken last week affected so much as it results in time, it knocked everything out of whack, all I could think about was getting everything fixed just to be able to record. Once everything was fixed something else broke. And I got so frustrated because my life is surrounded by workarounds. The issue never gets fixed there is just an unspoken agreement that everyone knows it's broken but no one wants to fix it at the foundation. I experience that daily at work where things don’t work and we have to find a workaround once that works something else breaks. I know this has been the way of life for eons but I am tired I want things to work how they are meant to work no workaround no rigging. I think about how often this affects my personal life. How many friendships or relationships could have worked out if the issue was tackled at the foundation this is why I take my mental health so seriously, I have been to therapy a few times very consistent, but I was going for a workaround I needed a way to be able to just function so I was cool with being able to go in there and vent and hear someone tell me what they thought I should do. And for a while I was ahead of it I obtained the skill to mask it to be silent and when things happened to me I always told myself this happens to everyone. Everyone struggles with this and that, the workaround was for me to mask the trauma as if it never existed. This week we begin unmasking

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Poetic Properties with Kamplexx Ep.92 Face it

Handled this week a little better both emotionally and mentally it was still a bit difficult, but I maintained. this work week was not as annoying as usual, but still had some bumps in the road. The more I reduce my emotions as it results in my overall actions the clearer it gets. While meditating this week a sad realization hit me, I have allowed myself to be too many people's anchors while not having my own. I’ve allowed people to count on me, allowed myself to be their safety through whatever situation they are going through and when it goes bad I pour into them still no questions asked giving all of me even the portion that belongs to me. That is a hard reality to come to. Because either people don’t understand how that feels OR they don’t care about you for real. I don’t ask for help from anyone I figure it out, and if I can’t figure it out It ain't for me. The more I try to heal my trust issues more things pop up  

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Poetic Properties with Kamplexx Ep.91 Collateral Damage

In today’s session we go over collateral damage, being the cause of it rather purposely or unknowingly, being a victim of it, and the importance of being aware of our surroundings in the midst of healing. Stay focused and get to the light

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Poetic Properties with Kamplexx Ep.90 Screen Saver

Every week we start with our mental health check, this week is no different. We also get into our true identity, insecurities, and how being in safe mode is both helpful and harmful.

The intent of the episode is to help you free yourself from the nonsense and be who you are supposed to be; how you’re supposed to be it. stop hiding in comfortability   

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