RIGGER WARNING: This episode discusses late-term stillbirth, medical trauma, and postpartum hemorrhaging.

"I didn't even have to hear the words. I could read it all over her face." Alyssa was 38 weeks pregnant—at the finish line—when the world stopped. In this raw conversation, Alyssa walks us through the devastating loss of her first daughter, Marianna Yvette, and the terrifying medical crisis that followed, leaving Alyssa "knocking on heaven’s door."

We dive deep into the reality of pregnancy after loss—the scans every two weeks, the inability to feel excitement until the baby is crying in your arms, and the bittersweet realization that one child's life only exists because another's ended. This is a story about honoring the dead while fiercely raising the living.

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