Aaron Michael Marsh, Adult Child.  Here is my background.  Here is my story and I have been terrified to tell it my whole life.  I assumed if any of this ever got out that my family would kick me out of it.  The reality is I needed to walk away from any family that would rather keep this a secret and protect the abusers than stay in it.  That wouldn't and still isn't safe for me.  So this is how I got CPTSD, how I because an Adult Child, Family Scapegoat Abuse survivor, teenage homeless kid and how I got the wounds I would just try and ignore and confuse it for healing.  This is Act 1 of three.  The next act is how these wounds effected my adult life.  Act 3 is how I went in to hiding/healing.  There is hope.

It seems that my friends don't really know how to respond to any reference to my estrangement to my family.  So I am here to tell you as someone with no contact with my family, how I'd like to be talked to

I use to dread Mother's Day.  But this year I am feeling empowered, and more safe and more loved than ever.  And this is why you should feel the exact same way if you are also no contact with your mother on Mother's Day

Discovering my Adult Child journey and walking my way right in and through everything I have been avoiding emotionally.

The burden of existing

I have never experienced this so physically before.

I start to talk about boundaries and why I have so many for so many simples things.

I am embarressed to admit this, but also is this normal behavior?

Why it is a year between episodes.

How do you ask to be showered with love when you are desperately needing it.