Most of us don’t avoid looking inward because we don’t care… we avoid it because we’re not sure what we’ll find if we do.

In this episode, Scott, Deb, Nick, and Crystal explore what it really means to take an honest look at ourselves—not alone, but with God.

Using Step 4 as a framework, they unpack how fear, resentment, and patterns can quietly block us from feeling God’s light—and why avoiding them only keeps us stuck.

But this isn’t about shame, and it’s not about fixing everything overnight.

It’s about discovering that when we bring God into the process, honesty leads to freedom—not fear.

If you’ve ever felt hesitant to look inward… this episode is for you.

Simple invitation: Take a few quiet minutes this week and ask: “Heavenly Father, what are You trying to show me about me right now?”

Not to shame you… but to free you.

This episode takes us back to where it all began.

In the middle of Holy Week, we’re revisiting the very first episode of Redeemed Through His Blood—a conversation that started with one simple truth:

Everything begins here.

From the Savior’s suffering in Gethsemane to His sacrifice on the cross and ultimate Resurrection, this week isn’t just something we study—it’s something we’re invited to live inside of.

As you listen, consider the question that still echoes today:

“What will you do with this Jesus?”

If you’ve heard this before, you may hear it differently now. If you haven’t—this is the perfect place to begin.

At 51 years old, a single phone call uncovered a truth Carmen never saw coming—and forced her to rethink everything she believed about her life… and about God.

In her book, Spaghetti, Lemonade and Finding Joy, Carmen shares the deeper story behind that moment—and the years that led up to it.

After a childhood marked by loss, instability, and a constant feeling of being overlooked, she spent years trying to earn her place—at home, in relationships, and even with God.

Deep down, she believed something many of us quietly wonder:

What if God forgot me?

In this episode, we talk about:

• growing up feeling unseen and unwanted
• the exhausting need to earn love and approval
• how God often reaches us through other people
• and the moment everything changed

This isn’t just Carmen’s story.

It’s for anyone who has ever questioned their worth… or wondered where God was in their life.

You may feel forgotten. But you’re not.

Even the people we love most can hurt us the deepest. In this episode, Scott and Deb explore why relationships are often so complicated—and how the Atonement of Jesus Christ can change the way we seek validation, respond to pain, and show up for the people in our lives. If you’ve ever felt unseen, misunderstood, or stuck in a cycle you can’t fix, this conversation points to the only relationship that can truly heal the rest.

What happens when you’ve done everything you know how to do… and it’s still not enough?

Whether it’s your life, your habits, your relationships—or your recovery—there comes a point where trying harder just stops working.

In this episode, Scott and Deb walk through what it actually means to let go—not as a concept, but as a lived experience. They talk about control, fear, and the quiet shift that happens when you stop running the show and start trusting God.

If you’re exhausted from carrying it all, this conversation might be exactly what you need.

You know you should feel gratitude… but what if you don’t?

In this episode, Scott and Deb talk about what it looks like to start where you actually are—not where you think you should be—and how gratitude quietly becomes the beginning of desire and connection with Jesus Christ.

If you’ve been feeling distant, numb, or just going through the motions, this conversation will meet you there.

Ever feel like you’re spiritually late—like you should be further along by now?

In this episode, Scott and Deb talk candidly about comparison, the “facade of perfection,” and the painful stories we tell ourselves when life doesn’t match the ideal. Using John 21, they explore Jesus’ simple redirect to Peter—“What is that to thee? Follow thou me.” If you’ve been measuring your discipleship by someone else’s timeline, this conversation will help you trade urgency for peace and refocus on the only thing that ultimately matters: your relationship with Jesus Christ.

Have you ever felt like God just… isn’t there?

Not gone completely—but distant. Quiet. Easy to miss.

In this episode, Scott and Deb talk about what it looks like to notice Jesus in everyday life—especially when life feels ordinary, busy, or even heavy.

They share simple but powerful shifts that help you recognize Him again—not in dramatic moments, but in the small, real ones.

If you’ve felt spiritually numb or disconnected, this episode will help you see what might already be right in front of you.

Scott and Deb are joined by Nick and Crystal for a powerful conversation on Step Two of recovery: “Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.”

Together, they explore why healing doesn’t come from trying harder, but from learning to trust God differently—not as a taskmaster to fear, but as a loving Father who finishes what we cannot. Through scripture, recovery experience, and clinical insight, this episode reframes recovery, faith, and repentance as relational, not transactional.

Whether you’re navigating addiction, fear, uncertainty, or the weight of life, this episode invites you to consider a deeper question: Can God be trusted with what’s broken in me?

You’ve made progress. You’ve tried. You’ve even changed some things…

So why does it still feel like you’re stuck?

In this episode, Scott and Deb explore the difference between behavior change and true transformation. They talk about why effort alone doesn’t always bring freedom—and how misunderstanding grace can keep you cycling in the same patterns.

This is a conversation about what Christ actually came to do—and how that changes everything.

If you’re tired of taking two steps forward and one step back, don’t skip this one.