Things hasn't been the best as the dosage of my prozac was increased; 2 capsule and it's been causing me abit of a brainfog.

It was hard to focus, and it felt like everything was a blur.

Perhaps I was also going through a spiral, and I have been down.

But on the bright side we would be coming back to doing weekly podcasts for Rye off the Bat on Wednesday!

There are always nights that hits me, when I was burying myself with work and life. I was once broken and depressed; spending time listing to songs of melancholy, getting myself lost in memory lane, stuck in the past and wondering what things could have been.

And... sometimes I realize it's okay. This bizarre way of pacing my sadness helps. And sometimes it is what I need; to feel alive again.

In this episode of Rye off React, Chilli and I checked out this interesting story of a friend group. What if you have a friend who have sort of a disability; and asked you to do a group cosplay for a costume party?

I decided to put myself through this cringefest again, doing a translation of this after I shared and after speaking to some close ones who'd taken a peek; I decided to do an English version.

I guess I had more fun doing this, as I'm commentary in hindsight and also how it felt for me back then. Commenting as a more mature person made me felt like... dammit, I really love myself really little back then, and was grabbing at anything who fed me with any little attention.

Perhaps a hopeless romantic no more.

Come join me for part 2 with a tinge of dark comedy and humour as I throw myself back into this emotional roller coaster ride again because I came across some Chinese songs that sent me on an emo spiral.

This is a special 2 part episode where I bare my heart out and found myself using dark humour and comedy to cope (and perhaps that's why I resort to laughter to cover my pain).

Part 2 is probably something unexpected; and due to the intensity of the content, this would be posted back to back (on Wednesday and Thursday)

I guess I'd consider this part of my collective. It was one of the days where I was listing to emotional Chinese songs on repeat; and I decided to dig around...

Only to find this :')

It was a letter in Chinese that I'd wrote to this girl whom I'd loved and disappeared and probably changed me... for better (or worst).

It was a can of worms that I'd never thought to open, but somehow the songs kinda just pushed me to it, however, maybe it's the universe's wishes; just felt alot more cathartic after.

Upon checking it happened in 2016, but last edited in 2018. Probably I itchy hand went to read and pressed something in Apple Notes.

This is a special 2 part episode where I bare my heart out and found myself using dark humour and comedy to cope (and perhaps that's why I resort to laughter to cover my pain).

Part 2 is probably something unexpected; and due to the intensity of the content, this would be posted back to back (on Wednesday and Thursday)

In this episode of Rye off React, Chilli and I dive into this story as the sister was wondering if she'd been an asshole for kicking her sister out of her house. Understand that our family members is always our soft spot, but at what point do we be firm and have boundaries?

Come find out!

P.S. we may have digress quite abit in this one

What are we? Who are we?

This is a question that I struggled with growing up.

Are we always in the process of understanding and identifying ourselves?

But what if people around you have a strong opinion on assumption on how you should be, how you should act; instead of who you really are?

What is princess syndrome to you? We were wondering if they were referring to what the Chinese called 公主病 (directly translated to princess illness), the desired to be treated like a princess.

It was to our surprise that it was pretty... "literal", but the development of this story is very different from what we expect, come listen and find out!

Have you ever felt like a wallflower? I decided to share about this part of me; the person taking the backseat, observing, a writer, a narrator of sort telling stories, listening.

Perhaps it's this persona that opened up difference doors for me, even though I'd never truly ever walked in one, but it'd given me a glimpse or a peak to the different worlds in this universe.

And it's perhaps one of my perks of being a wallflower.

We are back again with Rye off React with Chilli and in this episode, we explored the end of a relationship... what happens if you initiated a breakup and you were just meet with an "okay" before your partner block you? Is this enough for a closure? Or it was so quick that you didn't see it coming