Here's an update on life, and also how Rye off the Bat would be taking a slower pace from now. I'd been exhausted with a number of stuff; mostly my lawsuit, work, tackling my anxiety and depression while trying to function.

I'd finally took the courage to set a date for my operation; that's probably also another story to tell.

On the bright side, we are looking to get Rye off React back, I'll be looking to travel at least once before my op, and hopefully I can set aside more time for my content once my work settled down.

* Rye off the Bat would be releasing every other Wednesday for now, until I'm able to do something weekly.

It was a great show; my best medicine to depression and insomnia. I like how the laughing track made me feel less alone, though bittersweet, how each of the characters are charming in their own way. I'd say Howard's arc would be my favourite (might be an unpopular opinion), but being a timid person who was bullied made me felt somewhat relatable; especially being degraded often.

It was not just any show, as I'd get to know big bang theory in afew other occasions, but having to really get to know and watch the whole of it... it just made me felt something.

It was a night of drinking with my buddy on a Monday and I was reminiscing about the old times when these thoughts struck me. Oh, how I missed the old times and how naive we were, the seemingly perfect moment where I'd felt happiness... only at hind sight. But it sure didn't feel it that way then, pain is relative, and every day felt like a chore, being a student, schooling, being graded by your grades.

But going to work, seeing the other kids chasing each other, running around the neighbourhood, giving our all in our puppy love... that felt akin to happiness; or was it only a hindsight thing?

Do we really know what happiness was? Or it is just all a memory?

Who would have known this unsuspecting HDB flat would be where I'd feel alive after seeing all the artworks. It kinda felt like a way the universe wake up the artist in me, the one who'd get excited gallery and museum hopping. And it made me want to do this episode, so I won't forget that today... I felt alive.

In this episode Rye off React, we came across this story to discuss. Some friendships are tough, especially when it is at the mercy of both party's mental health. It's hard to balance, but sometimes do we set ourselves on fire to keep others warm?

In this episode, I'm feeling alittle positive and productive as I'd been trying to switch things up. There's always a pocket of time available; especially timing in between our tasks, appointments or during commutes.

Being aware of these times could also give us the chance to come up with mini-tasks that help us take tiny steps towards our goal, and these are 3 steps on how we can get to it!

In this interesting episode of Rye off React; Chilli and I dive into something alittle different. It's common for people to get a tattoo in a foreign language, what if the tattoo isn't what the person thinks it is, or worse, if the tattoo means something offensive?

Would you tell your friend the true meaning of their ink?

It was until my therapist pointed this part out that made me more aware of my nervous laughter tendencies; yes, I laugh at inappropriate times.

And it affected me throughout life... I didn't really know or have any explanation (or rather excuse), except to say that I usually use this to cope.

It was until I realize it is a thing... and it isn't easy to share/let people around me understand as they find it hard to accept my socially inappropiate behaviour.

Continuing from the episode from gifts, Chilli and I came across this story whereby the OP's husband didn't allow her to give a gift that to another guy at work. For context it's a gift that they received and they do regift things to others for things that they don't use.

We also learnt what's a Keurig today.