In this episode I explore the field of emotional biology and the science behind how emotions are the scaffolding to idiopathic disease. How Entheogens are being shown to modulate the epigenetic component of illness status.

Coming back to some old texts while in a whirlwind of instability. Awakening to a better understanding of the Bardo Thodal and how it flavors my ambition to coping towards ambiguous loss.

Recognizing The Shadow in myself and in the collective to then explore how I can integrate the darker parts of my psyche. Why understanding my potential to be a monster allows for a higher understanding of my thoughts and actions

Finding comfort in a Ram Das lecture that reintroduced how a hierarchy of needs is attached to a false conditioned persona. How investment in this process can lead to separateness.

Exploring the emotional tension with a high and terrifying dose of cannabis. Treating this process as an extreme ritual to jumping into very uncomfortable and necessary spaces in facing what I’ve been denying. How learning to self love calmed a high state of anxiety on the upswing of the experience.

Here I explain the buildup and philosophy around my jiu jitsu program that helps new students integrate into academy’s more prepared.

Dealing with a triggering phone call that then allowed me to move through the fear it placed on my lap. A mild vision quest that enlightened me to the power of intently listening. How I’ve integrated leaning into the most uncomfortable questions with ceremony and plant medicines.

I recall a very significant trip to Colorado with a close friend. I discover more about my toxic attachments to my caretaker identity. How an ice bath spiraled me into an authentic emotional release. And when intentions are made, how serendipity gifts me opportunities to do hard inner work.

How shame may be my greatest ally in the continuous pursuit to change. Why enthusiasm and sparks of motivation are superficially naive tools. Attaching an action to something outside of yourself (meaning/purpose) yields consistency

Exploring the questions of accountability for members on FDA councils. Why so many therapies are restricted and why uprooting the idea that there’s countless accounts of conflicts of interest is seen as fringe thinking