In this surprise episode Nita shares how she lost herself. How her personal identity became so detached that she stood on the paint isle looking at all the colors for an hour simply trying to see which colors felt right, because she had no idea of the woman within. Her boundaries had been non existant since childhood and she became a chameleon who could shrink or grow to any situation because there was no Nita; only a hollow shell of a woman who kept all her feelings locked deep inside and presented "public" Nita to everyone around her.

One day after an honest, raw message of grief from our survivor, we gain insight into her therapy session this afternoon and what she's learned about her grief, PTSD, trauma brain and how she's applying what she learned and the immediate mental lift she's experienced. Don't miss the healthy aftereffect of an afternoon in therapy.

Nita is bombarded by trauma induced emotions and PTSD that centers around grief. Specifically the loss of her son nearly 18 years ago. In this episode you'll gain truly intimate insight into her world as she grieves. See her raw, honest approach to healing... through the tears...

Mother's Day Leveling Up 💥becoming the mom they deserve💥 It hit me yesterday afternoon as our day took new turns and twists that the old was gone. No more dad chasing around kids to deliver breakfast in bed, driving us on an adventure making sure the day stayed on course....and you know what? It felt good. It felt good to accept whatever came our way. For me to release all expectations and simply enjoy each moment that came to my kids and I.

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Our survivor levels up internally with her mental step from being a really good mom to transforming into a really authentic mom who took a hard look at how the abuse was harming her children.

In this Mother's Day episode Nita shatters the notion that "staying for the children" was helping her kids.

With children suffering from; self loathing, self harm, suicidal ideology, rage, learned abuse behaviours, external vs internal worth, Nita realized that staying in abuse for them was only training them to hate themselves. Exactly as she hated herself and cycled invisibly with her internal worth. Her staying was only teaching them to become victims and/or abusers. Leveling up was the only path for this courageous mom of 5.

Our survivor talks about her acceptance of being an addict with special guest Jon Dale. Nita's trusted friend and mentor, Jon shares some of his journey on recovery with us. Listen today as Nita and Jon give you a glimpse into their experiences on self abuse, being locked in your own mind and addiction. This episode is a breakthrough first for Nita in welcoming a guest and opens up invaluable insight as to why people stay in the destructive cycles as experienced by these two survivors.

Nita struggles with those who still try to push control over her and how they react with such hurt and dismay when they run head first into a boundary that she is learning are the healthiest things in the world as she begins the new journey of putting herself first. The journey where loving herself and choosing herself first will bring internal Nita and external Nita still closer together which will make a woman whole enough to give and receive love, to be cherished and to cherish... Our Nita finally accepts she has no control but her reactions and as she limits others access to her, she limits their attempts at controlling her.

Raw and vulnerable Nita talks about safe spaces in the healing process. When you loose one how do you handel it if PTSD looms? What connects you to reality and pulls your sanity to healthy ground. Listen to the intimate details of Nita's journey out of abuse.

Learning to set boundaries is complex and difficult to do. Check in on Nita's progress as she continues to break out of unhealthy habits learned from her abusive marriage and discover what she learned about her never ending smile. In her case that gorgeous smile truly hides a million secrets.

Our mom of 5 breaking a cycle of domestic abuse talks about therapy and the changes she's witnessing in herself. The challenges and dark moments that are turning her into the beautiful, courageous, sexy woman taking charge of her life.

As our divorcing mom of 5 continues breaking the suffocating cycle of domestic abuse she shares a secret glimpse into being beautiful and the darkness and disgusting way that her beauty was used to shame, humiliate and control her. To this day she struggles internally with the need to justify her 'look', and strives to break her mental self away from learned household norms.