I talk about how sometimes I doubt why people love and care about me, how I almost canceled my massage because of my mental health, and a brief story of being in jury duty for 2 days last week.

It’s suicide prevention month! I talk about a few of my experiences w/ suicide and how self harm affected me. (Trigger warning)

I talk about some stats on suicide, sometimes how I’m suicidal @work, the dumb decision I made in 2010, how desperation led me to even more depression, as well as a dream I had about my teammates/friends.

I talk about some of the lies that depression tell you as well as how they affected me, and the struggles I had of coming back into reality after depressive episodes.

I discuss the AFSP walks, as well as the different ways I handle suicide thoughts, depressive thoughts, and anxiety.

I talk about my MRI results, As well as the meds I’m now taking, plus the mental health nightmare that shook me just a bit a few weeks ago.

I talk about the recent tests that have been done on my brain. I’ve believed for the last few years that the head trauma I suffered through as a kid growing up have had a effect on the way I function today as well as my struggles w/ depression, anxiety and thoughts of suicide. I will know if that trauma has led to all of these things and I tell my audience a brief description of what happened the 3 times I had trauma.

I talk about the other reasons why people consider suicide other that just wanting pain to end, how depression causes anger issues, a depression poem, and something I did in High school because of anxiety.

Happy 4th!!! I talk about survival strategies for social anxiety, what it’s like living w/ anxiety, and a poem about living w/ depression and anxiety.

I continue to talk about the experience I had w/ suicide, support systems, and how reaching out has helped me through.