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This is December 24 — Welcome, Fellow Griever
For Christmas Eve, today’s Daily Nugget is a little different.
Instead of a longer reflection, Melissa shares a grief-tender reimagining of a familiar holiday reading — written to hold memory, absence, love, and quiet endurance.
And the House Held Its Breath- ’Twas a Christmas Eve Rebuilding
by Melissa Bottorff-Arey
’Twas the night before Christmas, and all through our spaces,
Our houses hold breath with slower, softer paces.
Not everything sparkles, not everything shines.
Some traditions rest, some moments keep time.
The stockings weren’t placed the way they once were.
Some memories still tender, some feelings astir.
We didn’t fix everything, and we didn’t pretend.
We noticed what’s missing — what there’s no way to mend.
The lights felt too bright, or perhaps not enough.
The songs hit a nerve, where the love meets the loss.
We whisper their names in quiet in-betweens,
What once was our normal, and what now isn’t seen.
Somewhere a laugh lingers, familiar, alive,
In the warmth of the kitchen, the joy that survived.
Not the joy we went looking for, not something we planned,
But a moment that found us, and then held our hand.
There’s no magic tonight that makes sorrow depart,
No sleigh that can mend a broke-open heart.
And yet in the stillness, something remains:
The love we keep carrying through the truth and the pain.
So here on this evening, I offer no false cheer —
Just a place for longing, the memories, the tears.
And maybe a breath. And maybe a pause.
And permission to hold it — with or without a 'Claus(e)'
Christmas Eve — A Daily Journal Prompt:
“What feels most present for me tonight — and what would it mean to let that be enough?”
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