1. In today's vid, we're diving deep into some real talk with the amazing Faith Erickson! How does Faith describe the difference between dangerous and righteous desire? Let's discuss. We kick things off with Faith explaining her lifelong curiosity about sex and her journey from fearing it to owning it like an A+ boss. Faith drops some wisdom bombs on us about finding a new understanding of morality and making those agreements with ourselves. Plus, we chat about questioning perspectives, stepping out of that comfort zone, and showing yourself some major self-love. Sexuality and self-love connect to literally everything in life, so trust us, you don't wanna miss a single minute of this epic convo. Desire? Play? Give yourself permission to do all that in the bedroom AND watch this delightful interview!
2. Faith's Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/faith_ironically/
3. Mormon Stories: Redefining Sexuality and Body Autonomy - Faith Erickson's THRIVE Story: https://www.youtube.com/live/5oeoIYjyCJM?si=MCetG_omERkX4Rzq
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Welcome to the live stream with two gals whose post-Mormon path wasn't giving life. Is your religion not true for you like it used to be? Are you tired of the mental gymnastics? If you won the prize and the trophy wasn't a trophy at all, but a black hole of nihilistic angst, then dismount into this thought-provoking and life-saving interview with Brittany Hartley. Britt is an atheist spiritual director and nihilism recovery coach who joins me for a tear-filled 3-hour chat. Follow Britt in all the places at No Nonsense Spirituality and look for her book when it comes out on April 22nd!

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1. Welcome to this soon-to-be legendary episode of The Mormon History Hoedown in which I interview Kwaku El, known for his staunch defense of Mormonism on Ward Radio, Saints Unscripted, and Jubilee’s Mormons vs. Exmormons! In the ring with Kwaku today, we kick it off with his conversion, liberal background, and perspectives as an apologist in the Mormon space. How did he make that shift, what's his deal and what's with all these a**holes? Moving on, we've got some drama brewing: Ad hominem attacks, DezNat showdowns, and all the tea on what Joseph Smith was really all about. Jumping ahead, let's get down to basics: What even is Mormonism, and how does Kwaku see it compared to the mainstream? Then, we're diving into the nitty-gritty: Kwaku’s version of Mormonism versus the beliefs of the masses. We've got some spicy topics to stir up: Is masturbation a sin, and are Mormons getting it on before marriage? What is "true," and does it even matter? The Book of Mormon – is it historical, or just a good story? We're breaking it down. Plus, we've got some tight vs. loose translation debates and a chat about anachronisms. Stick around as I engage in a spirited debate with Kwaku, the go-to guy for defending Joseph Smith and nuancing the modern LDS church.
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Speaking my peace on peace-ing out until someone tells me to shut up.

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Time codes: 00:00 Leaving to summer camp 7:10 Leaving Mormon Stories vs now 13:20 It’s a very nice camp 16:41 Making mistakes, processing attacks 19:45 Data on the church’s downfall 24:28 Being a boss in cute PJs at camp 28:10 John Larsen’s impact on me 33:27 John and Margi’s impact on me 36:12 Risks of taking breaks/parenting 42:32 What happened with Sam 46:00 How much money I make 48:20 Best advice John gave me on healing 52:45 Learning to let go, feeling safe 55:17 Tim Ballard 1:00:00 Charlie Bird stalking controversy 1:08:09 Accountability, communication, John 1:13:50 Equality Utah went too far 1:15:20 Do I see John like a dad? 1:16:00 My marriage 1:27:53 Bisexual outting 1:35:24 Taking down Cardon videos, being called a bully 1:51:20 Being traumatized by the stories 1:56:37 Briton, Matt, etc stay with me 1:59:11 LGBT outcomes, apologies to Ellis family 2:04:47 Should I go away? Why I don’t 2:08:35 New Name Nobody, ExMormons standing up for Kwaku 2:19:33 My silly bridge troll reply to Kwaku 2:26:10 Ward radio’s hilarious name calling 2:33:02 What I’ve learned 2:35:20 Wanna come travel with me?

1. In this episode, I interview the wise and delightful Suzy Baker, co-founder of The Psychedelic Assembly. We explore her life in Mormonism in Alabama, Utah and New York City, as well as the dark side of dating her zone leader on her mission and the events that led her out of the church. Cozy up with Carah with Suzy for this special reveal of Suzy's mission experience. Serving the Lord? And serving the lust. And shame. A place where hopes, consent, and a whole lot of trauma collide. We discuss the pressure to boost baptism numbers, and the surprising events that led to her zone leader asking Suzy to pray to fall in love with him.
2. We hope this story celebrates the power of humanity and community while dishing out some sage advice on spotting red flags, including what Suzy wishes she could tell her younger self.
3. Suzy's Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/suzycbaker/
4. Below is a great article from an active support network called Psychedelic Support and they talk about what to look out for when choosing someone to work with in a healing context: https://psychedelic.support/resources/dark-side-plant-medicine/The Women's Visionary Council is an amazing organization that my dear friend Annie King founded. They have incredible resources about best practices for people using psychedelics in group settings. The below three documents go over:1. Safety Tips: https://visionarycongress.org/articles/wvc-articles/safety-tips-r3/2. A Manual of Best Practices for Radical Risk Reduction: https://visionarycongress.org/articles/wvc-articles/manual-radical-risk-reduction/3. Safety Protocols for Event and Community Organizers: https://visionarycongress.org/articles/wvc-articles/safety-tips-r3/
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1. This is part four where Barbara and I discuss the Mountain Meadows Massacre, a tragic event in Mormon history where a group of Mormons in 1857 killed a large group of innocent men, women, and children.
2. We kick things off with a review of the brutal crime of wiping out all the innocent people including young witnesses. As tensions soar, the Mormon leaders are left reeling at the shocking aftermath of their actions. Lies fly and a frantic cover-up ensues, leaving everyone scrambling to keep their secrets buried. The whole situation blows wide open when freighters stumble upon the scene. Amidst the chaos, questions arise about what the orphaned kids might know and how to make them forget. Things take an even more sinister turn when leaders start bragging about their misdeeds in church and resort to making violent threats, then telling prophet Brigham Young a fictionalized version of events.
3. Pick up the book Vengeance Is Mine from your local bookseller or online: https://www.amazon.com/Vengeance-Mine-Mountain-Massacre-Aftermath/dp/0195397851
4. Listen to the audiobook of Vengeance Is Mine: https://www.audible.com/pd/Vengeance-Is-Mine-Audiobook/B0C6FPQFB5?eac_link=QUOOMHSekDaE&ref=web_search_eac_asin_3&eac_selected_type=asin&eac_selected=B0C6FPQFB5&qid=xMIVfP7ajx&eac_id=140-1729692-0760619_xMIVfP7ajx&sr=1-3
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1. I'm so honored to have Dillan Conrad from Jubliee's Mormons vs ExMormons panel joining me along with Shelise from Cults to Consciousness in studio! Dillan shares his journey, from how he landed on Jubilee, to reflections on Tember and Cardon, coming out to his wife, and leaving his Mormon upbringing behind, but taking many of the LDS values with him.
2. Watch part 1 with Shelise Dillan here: https://www.youtube.com/live/csvnJ7vYB_M?si=VrETrH3MmSmHb4ka
3. Check out my response to the Mormons vs ExMormons Jubliee video here: https://youtu.be/ubja03yeDQc
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1. Pleasure is the measure, so satisfy your longings to hang out with me for an hour of free education from Natasha Helfer, a certified sex therapist! React with us as we watch Girl Defined's most uncomfortable, now deleted, highly controversial video where Bethany interviews Christian "sex counselors" as they detail their path through God-honoring, non-orgasmic, duty-bound sex. In this enlightening video, we take a deep dive into the world of purity culture through the hellscape of Mormonism and Christianity. You've heard of Girl Defined reaction videos, but all pale in comparison to the wise, empathetic education Natasha brings to this discussion for those looking to still deconstruct unhelpful Christian sexual dogmas.
2. Check out Natasha's website and come out to her reclaiming female sexuality event that I'll be speaking at on April 20th in Ogden, Utah! https://www.natashahelfer.com/retreat
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It’s not every day that the YouTube Gods look upon the ExMormon world and grant us a blessing such as this.

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1. I've started a new multi-part series on The Mountain Meadows Massacre with historian, author, director of Signature Books, content editor of the award-winning "Massacre at Mountain Meadows" and co-author of "Vengeance Is Mine, The Mountain Meadows Massacre and Its Aftermath" Barbara Jones Brown.
2. This is part three where Barbara and I discuss the Mountain Meadows Massacre, a tragic event in Mormon history where a group of Mormons in 1857 killed a large group of innocent men, women, and children. Practice self-care, grab a box of tissues, and buckle up for the horrifying story of the Mountain Meadows Massacre as we delve into the tragic events that unfolded on September 11th, 1857. Barbara brings to light the complex and heart-wrenching story of this massacre for listeners with a complete murder-by-murder breakdown for you as you break down. With Barbara's dedication to researching this massacre, giving a voice to the defenseless victims, and her heartfelt storytelling, you'll leave this episode rocked to your very core.
3. We also touch on Barbara's personal journey of uncovering her ancestral connection to this dark chapter in Mormon history. Join us in honoring the memory of the victims and exploring the significant lessons this incident holds for us today. Don't forget to share your thoughts and subscribe for deeper historical explorations on Mormon history.
4. Pick up the book Vengeance Is Mine from your local bookseller or online: https://www.amazon.com/Vengeance-Mine-Mountain-Massacre-Aftermath/dp/0195397851
5. Listen to the audiobook of Vengeance Is Mine: https://www.audible.com/pd/Vengeance-Is-Mine-Audiobook/B0C6FPQFB5?eac_link=QUOOMHSekDaE&ref=web_search_eac_asin_3&eac_selected_type=asin&eac_selected=B0C6FPQFB5&qid=xMIVfP7ajx&eac_id=140-1729692-0760619_xMIVfP7ajx&sr=1-3
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