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Alexa Conlon joins me to share the story of her son, Kayde, who was stillborn after a pregnancy that appeared healthy and full of hope. In this episode, Alexa reflects on the shock of stillbirth, the unraveling that followed, and what it means to continue mothering—both the children she holds and the one she carries in her heart. We explore healing after stillbirth, the complexities of motherhood after loss, and the quiet resilience that so many loss mothers embody.

We talk about:

• The shock and disbelief that often accompany stillbirth
• Letting go of the illusion of “safe” milestones in pregnancy
• Grieving a baby while parenting living children
• The long, non-linear path of healing after stillbirth
• Creating space for grief without trying to fix it
• Honouring a baby’s legacy through advocacy and community support
• The quiet strength of mothers who carry both love and sorrow

This episode is a powerful reminder that grief and beauty can coexist—and that love continues, even after goodbye.

Get to Know Alexa:
Alexa Conlon is a nurse, mother of two earthside children, and a loss mom honoring her stillborn son, Kayde. Based in Alberta, Canada, she is the founder and host of Beyond the Birth Story Podcast and the Founder & Coordinator of The Kayde Foundation, a non-profit offering perinatal loss support services. Alexa shares her story with honesty and heart, believing deeply in the quiet strength of mothers who carry both love and sorrow.

Instagram: @beyondthebirthstorypodcast @alexaa.conlon @thekaydefoundation
The Kayde Foundation: https://thekaydefoundation.wixsite.com/thekaydefoundation

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🕊 RECLAIM — The PAL Birth Course: thedoulalife.ca/reclaim (use code RECLAIM to save $100)
🌸 Mother Like No Other — Loss Mom Community: thedoulalife.ca/mother
📸 Instagram: @the.doula.life

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In this episode, Deanna shares the story of her miscarriage during an already emotionally heavy season — planning a wedding in the middle of COVID, navigating infertility, and finally seeing two pink lines. Her pregnancy loss unfolded quickly, quietly, and just days before a major life milestone, forcing her to carry grief alongside celebration. We talk about trusting intuition, the complicated nature of early miscarriage, and how pregnancy after loss reshaped her understanding of motherhood, healing, and care.

We talk about:

• Experiencing miscarriage just days before a wedding
• Early pregnancy loss and the validity of early grief
• Trusting intuition and body awareness during pregnancy
• Navigating milestones while grieving
• Pregnancy after loss and becoming a mother
• How loss changes identity and life direction
• Bringing lived experience into motherhood and caregiving
• Holding grief and gratitude at the same time

This episode is a powerful reminder that grief doesn’t follow timelines — and that even early loss can leave a lasting mark. It’s a story about honoring intuition, making space for sorrow, and finding your way into motherhood after loss.

Get to Know Deanna:

Deanna is a registered nurse, mother of two, and perinatal support provider living in Newtonville, Ontario. After experiencing miscarriage and pregnancy after loss, her personal journey deeply shaped the way she shows up for families in the early stages of parenthood. Through her work, she brings empathy, presence, and lived understanding to the care she offers parents navigating both joy and grief.

Instagram: @dee.themamacoach

Website: deanna-kennedy.themamacoach.com

Life With a Baby: lifewithababy.com

Still Held: @still.held

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🕊 RECLAIM — The PAL Birth Course: thedoulalife.ca/reclaim
🌸 Mother Like No Other — Loss Mom Community: thedoulalife.ca/mother
📸 Instagram: @the.doula.life


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In this episode of The Rainbow Connection, Kristin sits down with Dr. Gertrude Lyons for a rich, grounding conversation about motherhood, identity, and what so many women quietly grieve after becoming mothers. Together, they explore how loss, transformation, and mothering intersect — and how many women find themselves navigating not only grief for the babies they’ve lost, but for parts of themselves that have shifted, softened, or disappeared along the way. This episode invites listeners into a more expansive understanding of motherhood — one that honors devotion without demanding self-erasure, and makes room for healing, spirituality, and becoming again.

We talk about:

• Motherhood as a transformational initiation
• The quiet grief of identity loss many mothers carry
• Rewriting inherited narratives of sacrifice
• Holding motherhood and selfhood at the same time
• Loss, healing, and expansion after life-altering transitions
• Why motherhood doesn’t require our disappearance
• Reclaiming creativity, spirituality, and wholeness

This episode is a powerful reminder that grief and growth can coexist — and that even after loss, there is space for truth, expansion, and remembering who you are.

Get to know Dr. Gertrude Lyons:

Dr. Gertrude Lyons is an author, coach, and speaker devoted to expanding how we understand motherhood, identity, and creation. Through her coaching, retreats, workshops, and her book Rewrite the Mother Code: From Sacrifice to Stardust, she challenges limiting beliefs around motherhood and gently dismantles the narrow roles women have long been placed in. Her work invites a more expansive truth — that all women mother, that mother energy is accessible to all of us, and that motherhood is deeply connected to spirituality, community, and creation. At the heart of her work is a celebration of women as powerful creators, reclaiming their fullest expression of life.

Instagram: @drgertrudelyons
Website: https://www.drgertrudelyons.com

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📍 Website: thedoulalife.ca
🌈 The Haven — Pregnancy After Loss Support Program: thedoulalife.ca/haven (use code RAINBOW to save $100)
🕊 RECLAIM — The PAL Birth Course: thedoulalife.ca/reclaim (use code RECLAIM to save $100)
🌸 Mother Like No Other — Loss Mom Community: thedoulalife.ca/mother
📸 Instagram: @the.doula.life

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In this episode of The Rainbow Connection, Alana Fear shares the story of her son, Warren, and the shock of experiencing stillbirth after a healthy pregnancy. She reflects on how quickly life can change, the grief that follows when the future you imagined disappears, and how loss reshapes your relationship with hope. Alana also opens up about her pregnancy after loss, navigating fear, cautious optimism, and the reality of carrying new life while continuing to grieve the child who should be here.

We talk about:

• Experiencing stillbirth after a healthy pregnancy
• The loss of innocence that comes with pregnancy loss
• Navigating grief when life felt “perfect” before loss
• Pregnancy after loss and holding hope carefully
• Living as a mother to both the son she lost and the daughter who came after
• How loss reshapes trust in your body and the future
• Finding grounding in simple, ordinary moments after grief

This episode is a powerful reminder that grief and beauty can coexist — and that love does not end when a baby dies.

Get to know Alana:

Alana Fear lives in Etobicoke, Ontario with her husband, Matt, and their dog, Walter. She is a mother to her son, Warren, whom she lives to remember, and is currently pregnant with her daughter, due this November. Alana finds meaning in the simple things — a warm cup of tea, time in nature, music that meets her in the moment — and finds comfort through journaling, creativity, and storytelling.

Instagram: @fearalana
PAIL Network: https://pailnetwork.sunnybrook.ca/

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📍 Website: thedoulalife.ca
🌈 The Haven — Pregnancy After Loss Support Program: thedoulalife.ca/haven (use promo code RAINBOW to save $100)
🕊 RECLAIM — The PAL Birth Course: thedoulalife.ca/reclaim (use promo code RECLAIM to save $100)
🌸 Mother Like No Other — Loss Mom Community: thedoulalife.ca/mother
📸 Instagram: @the.doula.life

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Kristen Dunbar shares the story of losing her baby to stillbirth at 38 weeks — a loss that arrived suddenly and changed everything she thought she knew about pregnancy, motherhood, and faith. In this episode, Kristen reflects on listening to her intuition, navigating pregnancy loss without answers, and continuing to mother her living children while grieving the baby she could not bring home. Together, we talk about healing after stillbirth, pregnancy after loss, and what life looks like when joy and grief exist side by side.

We talk about:

- Experiencing stillbirth late in pregnancy
- Intuition and recognizing when something feels wrong
- The shock and anger that can accompany pregnancy loss
- Grieving while continuing to parent other children
- Faith and meaning-making after stillbirth
- The loss of certainty in pregnancy after loss
- Motherhood after loss and continuing to show up
- Healing without answers

This episode is a tender, powerful reminder that grief and beauty can coexist — and that birth, even in loss, can absolutely be sacred.

Get to know Kristen:

Kristen Dunbar is a wife, mother, and homeschooling mom living in Lafayette, Louisiana. She and her husband have been married for nearly 21 years and are raising seven children on earth while honoring the babies they lost through chemical pregnancies, miscarriage, and stillbirth. A former educator, Kristen transitioned to homeschooling and full-time motherhood after a pregnancy-related stroke, grounding her life in faith, service, and family.

Redbird Ministries: www.redbird.love

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🌈 The Haven — Pregnancy After Loss Support Program: thedoulalife.ca/haven
🕊 RECLAIM — The PAL Birth Course: thedoulalife.ca/reclaim
🌸 Mother Like No Other — Loss Mom Community: thedoulalife.ca/mother
📸 Instagram: @the.doula.life


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In this tender and emotional episode, Lindsay Jackson shares the story of her daughter Amelia, who was born still just one week shy of seven months. Lindsay walks us through her pregnancies — a miscarriage, an ectopic pregnancy, and finally her long-awaited baby girl — and the moment everything changed at her anatomy scan. Through fear, intuition, medical trauma, and the sacred weeks she carried Amelia against all odds, Lindsay offers an honest and deeply human look at pregnancy loss, stillbirth, and healing after heartbreak.

We talk about:

• Lindsay’s first miscarriage and the difficult, drawn-out process that followed
• Navigating an ectopic pregnancy and the emergency decisions she was forced to make
• Becoming pregnant again after loss and the terror of every ultrasound
• The moment her anatomy scan revealed devastating news
• How Amelia continued to hold on for six more weeks
• Hearing “there’s no heartbeat” and walking into labor with a broken heart
• The physical trauma and multiple surgeries that followed her loss
• How she and her husband are beginning to consider their future — including surrogacy
• What hope looks like when life keeps dropping you to your knees
• The ongoing process of healing while still honoring her daughter’s life

This episode is a tender, powerful reminder that grief and beauty can coexist — and that birth, even in loss, can be sacred.

Get to Know Lindsay:
Lindsay Jackson is a marketing professional living in Fort Lauderdale, Florida with her husband of four years and their beloved 14-year-old dog. Originally from Georgia, Lindsay has spent the last several years navigating a long and deeply emotional journey through miscarriage, ectopic pregnancy, and the stillbirth of her daughter, Amelia. Her story is one of courage, intuition, and the daily work of choosing hope even when the path ahead feels uncertain. Lindsay’s openness, honesty, and resilience offer comfort and connection to anyone walking the road of pregnancy loss or motherhood after loss.

Instagram: @lsparis

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📍 Website: thedoulalife.ca
🌈 The Haven — Pregnancy After Loss Support Program: thedoulalife.ca/haven

🌸 Mother Like No Other: thedoulalife.ca/mother
📸 Instagram: @the.doula.life

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In today’s episode, I’m joined by mother and coach, Joy Harrington, who shares the powerful story of her son, Sterling — a beautiful baby boy who died shortly after birth from early onset Group B Strep. Joy brings us into the shock, trauma, and unraveling that followed, and the long path toward healing, pregnancy after loss, and welcoming her rainbow baby, Stella. Now pregnant again, Joy also talks about intuition, spirit baby connections, and the grounded peace she feels in this pregnancy.

We talk about:

- Joy’s pregnancy and home birth with Sterling
- The signs that were missed and the shock of losing him within hours of birth
- Navigating trauma, marriage strain, and the search for answers
- How infant loss reshaped her motherhood, identity, and marriage
- Her spiritual experiences and the belief that Sterling wasn’t “done”
- The infertility journey that followed and the eventual conception of her rainbow baby
- How pregnancy after loss felt physically, emotionally, and spiritually
- What bringing Stella home healed — and what it didn’t
- The grief differences between partners and rebuilding connection
- Her current pregnancy and the profound sense of knowing she carries with her

This episode is a tender, powerful reminder that grief and beauty can coexist — and that birth, even in loss, can absolutely be sacred.

Get to Know Joy:

Joy Harrington is an Arizona-based mother of three, currently pregnant with her fourth baby, and the host of The Resentment Trap — her signature program supporting high-functioning women in healing resentment within their marriages. After losing her son, Sterling, in 2022 to early-onset Group B Strep, Joy’s life, motherhood, and marriage were reshaped in profound ways. Her story weaves together grief, redemption, spiritual connection, and the courageous journey of pregnancy after loss. Today, Joy shares her lived experience to help other women feel seen, supported, and less alone.

Instagram: @joyharrington.ig

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🌈 The Haven — Pregnancy After Loss Support Membership: thedoulalife.ca/haven
🌸 Mother Like No Other — Loss Mom Community: thedoulalife.ca/mother
📸 Instagram: @the.doula.life

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In this deeply moving episode, Bethany Womack invites us into her decade long journey through recurrent miscarriage, preeclampsia, emergency birth, postpartum PTSD, NICU trauma, and the heartbreaking loss of her son Gabriel. She speaks honestly about the emotional and physical toll of pregnancy loss, the impossible decisions she faced, the grief that reshaped her, and the long, winding path toward her rainbow baby, Teddy, born after years of fear, healing, and rebuilding trust in her own body.

Her story is a powerful testament to the truth that joy and grief can coexist — and that motherhood after loss unfolds in many forms.

We talk about:
- Recurrent early miscarriages and the shock of becoming “the statistic”
- Bowen’s traumatic birth, preeclampsia, hemorrhage, and postpartum PTSD
- Navigating a 22-day NICU stay during Hurricane Harvey
- The emotional and physical devastation of losing Gabriel at 20 weeks
- The sacred, heartbreaking moments of saying goodbye
- How trauma shaped her next pregnancies and birth choices
- Anxiety, hypervigilance, and learning to feel safe in her body again
- The long journey to her rainbow son, Teddy, and his 28-day NICU stay
- Grief within marriage and how she and her husband supported each other
- What it meant to finally leave the hospital with a living baby after so much loss

This episode is a tender, powerful reminder that grief and beauty can coexist — and that birth, even in loss, can be sacred.

Get to know Bethany:

Bethany Womack lives in Houston, Texas with her husband, Mark, and their three sons, Bowen, Jack, and Teddy,  while lovingly holding the memory of their son, Gabriel. Her journey through motherhood has carried her through recurrent miscarriages, preeclampsia, traumatic birth, postpartum PTSD, and the tender complexities of NICU life. A photographer and storyteller at heart, Bethany shares her experiences with honesty and warmth, helping other loss mothers feel seen in their pain and reminding them that joy and grief often live together. She is passionate about creating space for women to feel less alone in the aftermath of loss.

Instagram: @bethanybwomack

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📍 Website: thedoulalife.ca
🌈 The Haven — Pregnancy After Loss Support Membership: thedoulalife.ca/haven 
🕊 RECLAIM — The PAL Birth Course: thedoulalife.ca/reclaim (use promo code RECLAIM to save $100)
🌸 Mother Like No Other — Loss Mom Community: thedoulalife.ca/mother
📸 Instagram: @the.doula.life


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In this solo episode of The Rainbow Connection, Kristin Mundy shares more of her personal motherhood story — including her first miscarriage, a significant health crisis, and the early experiences with grief that shaped who she is today. Kristin reflects on where her motherhood truly began, long before holding a baby in her arms, and how loss quietly influences identity, timing, and becoming. This episode offers an honest look at the parts of the journey that are often unseen, and why slowing down and telling the fuller story matters.

In this episode, Kristin shares:

- Why she felt called to record a solo episode and revisit her own story
- Her experience with her first miscarriage

- Finding herself paralyzed and navigating a major health crisis

- Being diagnosed with Transverse Myelitis and Lupus

- The decision to start chemotherapy on her baby's due date

- Living in the “before” and “after” of loss
- What a viral post revealed about visibility, grief, and untold parts of the story


This episode is a gentle reminder that motherhood doesn’t always begin the way we expect — and that grief, healing, and becoming often start long before the moments the world can see.

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📍 Website: thedoulalife.ca
🌈 The Haven — Pregnancy After Loss Support Program: thedoulalife.ca/haven
🕊 RECLAIM — The PAL Birth Course: thedoulalife.ca/reclaim
🌸 Mother Like No Other — Loss Mom Community: thedoulalife.ca/mother
📸 Instagram: @the.doula.life

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In this episode of The Rainbow Connection, I sit down with Canadian mom and pediatric nurse, Carmen Grover, to talk about her eleven pregnancies — including early miscarriages, TFMR, the second-trimester loss of her daughter Kaia Bell, and the long, complicated road of pregnancy after loss. Carmen speaks so beautifully about the memories that tether her to each of her babies, the moments that nearly broke her, and the ones that helped her begin to heal. This is a tender story of grief, motherhood after loss, and finding hope again.

We talk about:

- Carmen’s first pregnancy and the early losses that followed
- The heartbreaking diagnosis that led to the TFMR of her daughter Kaia Bell
- How writing became a way to hold, honor, and remember each of her babies
- The complexity of pregnancy after loss and learning to celebrate again
- Parenting living children while grieving the ones you never got to raise
- How partners grieve differently and the strain loss can place on a relationship
- What it looks like to honoUr all of her babies as her family grows
- The unexpected ways her children continue to teach her about love and grief
- Finding healing through community, ritual, and small everyday moments


This episode is a powerful reminder that grief and beauty can coexist — and that birth, even in loss, can absolutely be sacred.

Get to Know Carmen:

Carmen Grover is a Canadian mom to eleven babies — four in her arms and seven she carries in her heart. A pediatric nurse and gifted storyteller, she speaks openly about miscarriage, second-trimester loss, TFMR, and the complex emotions of pregnancy after loss. Carmen’s writing and quiet rituals have become the way she continues to honor each of her babies. She shares her journey in hopes that no parent walking through grief ever feels alone.

Instagram: @adiarytoourbabies
A Diary to my Babies: Find Carmen's book here

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📍 Website: thedoulalife.ca
🌈 The Haven — Pregnancy After Loss: thedoulalife.ca/haven
🌸 Mother Like No Other — Loss Mom Community: thedoulalife.ca/mother
📸 Instagram: @the.doula.life


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