The Rainbow Connection

In this deeply personal solo episode, Kristin shares the sacred and heart-shattering story of her daughter, Vienna Elisabeth. Recorded on the 4 year anniversary of publicly sharing Vienna’s stillbirth, Kristin finally tells her full story — from pregnancy, to the subtle warning signs that were overlooked, to the sacred and devastating moments of birth, and the grief and healing that followed.

We talk about:

• Experiencing multiple pregnancy losses before Vienna
• Weeks of bleeding, bedrest, and the hope of reaching milestones
• The joy of preparing for a baby shower and dreaming of motherhood
• The ignored warning signs in her third trimester that led to stillbirth
• The powerful, sacred, and oxytocin-filled moments of birthing Vienna
• Holding, naming, and spending 24 hours with her daughter
• The heartbreak of leaving the hospital without her baby
• Receiving a diagnosis of antiphospholipid syndrome as the likely cause
• How Vienna’s life continues to inspire The Haven, her doula work, and her motherhood

This tender and transformative episode is a reminder that even in loss, birth can be sacred — and that our love for our babies never ends. 

Vienna, this one is for you. This is all for you. 🕊

Get to Know Kristin:🌷 Website: thedoulalife.ca🌈 The Haven - Pregnancy After Loss Support Program: thedoulalife.ca/haven — use promo code: RAINBOW to save $100📸 Instagram: @the.doula.life

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Siobhan Koch’s journey to motherhood spanned over a decade of infertility, foster parenting, adoption, and finally the miraculous unassisted pregnancy of her daughter, Talitha. In this sacred and heart-shattering episode, Siobhan shares the story of her waters breaking at 18 weeks, Talitha’s birth and brief life, and the trauma and beauty interwoven through her loss. She also opens up about becoming pregnant again by surprise, navigating the intense anxiety of pregnancy after loss, and how she and her family honour Talitha while raising her two brothers.

We talk about:

• 12 years of infertility and unexpected adoption of her son Paul
• Becoming pregnant with Talitha after years of fertility treatments
• Premature rupture of membranes at 18 weeks and the waiting game that followed
• Talitha’s birth, the sacred hour she spent alive, and saying goodbye
• Postpartum hemorrhage and trauma recovery
• Navigating deep grief while parenting an older child
• The surprise rainbow pregnancy with Silas and its intense anxiety
• Learning to hope again and finding support through loss
• Honouring Talitha daily and integrating her memory into family life

This episode is tender, raw, and full of hope— a reminder that grief and joy can coexist, and that every baby’s story matters. 🕊

Get to Know Siobhan:Siobhan Koch lives in Hamilton, Ontario, with her husband and two sons, Paul and Silas, while holding close the memory of their daughter Talitha. She is a former foster mom, adoption mama, and runs a charity building tiny homes for vulnerable communities.

📷 Instagram: @siobhan.koch

Connect with Kristin:

Website: thedoulalife.ca🌈 The Haven (Pregnancy After Loss Support Program): thedoulalife.ca/the-haven — use promo code: RAINBOW to save $100🕊 Mother Like No Other community: thedoulalife.ca/mother— use promo code: MOTHER to save 50% off your first month📷 Instagram: @the.doula.life

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Sarah Herron shares the deeply moving story of her son Oliver, conceived through IVF, and the heartbreaking moment she had to say goodbye. In this powerful conversation, Sarah walks us through the shock of infertility, the devastation of loss, and the sacred ways Oliver’s spirit continues to guide her. She also shares the emotional, high-risk journey of carrying twins after loss, their early arrival at 32 weeks, and what it means to step into motherhood with grief, gratitude, and resilience.We talk about:- Navigating infertility, IVF, and a diminished ovarian reserve diagnosis- The pregnancy and loss of her son, Oliver, at 25 weeks- Moving through postpartum grief, guilt, and spiritual searching- Choosing IVF again and discovering she was pregnant with twins- The anxiety and milestones of pregnancy after loss- Her daughters’ premature birth and NICU stay- The tension between grief and joy, and how Oliver remains present in her motherhood- Parenting twins while navigating physical disability and societal perceptions- The gifts, strength, and perspective loss brought to her life and marriageThis episode is a tender, vulnerable reminder that love and grief are forever intertwined— and that it can be a portal in becoming a more compassionate and loving human.

🕊 Oliver, this one is for you.Get to Know SarahInternationally recognized as “Sarah Herron from The Bachelor,” Sarah is more intimately known as an adventure enthusiast and IVF warrior. She has used the platform she gained from reality TV to build both virtual and real-life communities for women walking vulnerable spectrums of life—disability, infertility, pregnancy loss, grief, and now, motherhood to one-year-old twin girls.Sarah is the founder of the nonprofit SheLift, the virtual support group The Infertile Circle, and the hiking collective Tents Without Gents. Her work continues to inspire and uplift women navigating complex and courageous paths.🌐 Learn more at walkwithme.org📸 Instagram: @sarahherron

Connect with Kristin📍 Website: thedoulalife.ca🌈 The Haven — Pregnancy After Loss Support Program: thedoulalife.ca/haven🕊 Mother Like No Other -- TTC Community: thedoulalife.ca/mother📸 Instagram: @the.doula.lifeIf you enjoyed this episode of the podcast, please don’t forget to subscribe, rate and review—it helps get the show and these stories into the hands of the women who need them most. And share it with someone who could use this kind of support. Your support means so much.

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In this deeply moving episode, Amanda shares the sacred and heart-shattering story of her daughter, Iona. She takes us inside her beautiful home birth, the unimaginable loss that followed, and her journey through grief, healing, and now pregnancy after loss.

We talk about:

- The joy of being pregnant with Iona and choosing a home birth

- The beauty of her 25-hour labor and the shock of losing her daughter

- Facing judgment and misunderstanding after a home birth loss

- Navigating postpartum grief, isolation, and honoring Iona

- Rituals and ways Amanda connects with her daughter

- The hope, fear, and love of pregnancy after loss

This episode is a tender, courageous reminder that grief and love can coexist—and that our babies remain part of our families forever.

Iona, this one is for you 🕊

Get to Know Amanda: 

Amanda lives in the mountains of Mendocino County, Northern California, with her husband Leonello and their two pups. Before her loss, she worked at a pottery studio and loved baking sourdough. Now, she and Leonello spend their days tending fruit trees, caring for their old homestead, and walking the creek that runs through the land where Amanda grew up. Since losing her daughter Iona, she has found comfort in nature—especially swimming in ponds, creeks, and lakes nearby. At nearly 32 weeks pregnant after loss, Amanda is taking time to slow down, be present, and honour this tender journey. Her wish for other loss mothers is that they know they are never alone, and that connection and community can be found.

📸 Instagram: @amandakatz

Connect with Kristin: 

📍 Website: thedoulalife.ca

🌈 The Haven – Pregnancy After Loss Support Program: thedoulalife.ca/the-haven – use promo code RAINBOW to save $100 on enrollment

🕊 Mother Like No Other community - thedoulalife.ca/mother

📸 Instagram: @the.doula.life

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Danielle shares the sacred, heart-shattering, and hopeful story of her two children, Carter and Mackenzie, both lost to early-onset preeclampsia. In this deeply moving episode, she takes us through the shock of her first loss, the traumatic birth experience that followed, and the healing moments she found when holding her daughter, even for just a short time. Danielle also opens up about her decision to stop carrying pregnancies, her journey into surrogacy, and the beautiful ways she continues to honor both of her children.

We talk about:

• Experiencing early-onset preeclampsia in both pregnancies
• The day she couldn’t find her son’s heartbeat and knew something was wrong
• Navigating a traumatic D&E and the grief of not seeing her son
• The bittersweet gift of holding her daughter for an hour before she passed
• How Mackenzie’s birth brought a measure of peace after Carter’s loss
• The decision to pursue surrogacy and what that process has been like
• Building a deep connection with their surrogate and feeling excitement about pregnancy again
• The traditions they keep each year to honor Carter and Mackenzie
• Why continuing to check in with loss parents months and years later matters so much

This episode is a tender, powerful reminder that grief and hope can live side by side—and that parenthood can take many different, beautiful forms.

 🕊️ Carter and Mackenzie, this one is for you.

Get to Know Danielle:Danielle Kipp is a registered nurse, military spouse, and proud mom to two angel babies. Caring for pregnant women has long been one of her professional passions, but after walking through two high-risk pregnancies and losses of her own, it became a true labor of love. With a special place in her heart for the infant loss community, Danielle hopes her journey helps create space for connection and hope for those who need it most.

Connect with Danielle:Instagram: 

Connect with Kristin: 📍 Website: thedoulalife.ca 🌈 The Haven – Pregnancy After Loss Support Program: thedoulalife.ca/haven — use promo code: RAINBOW to save $100 on enrollment 🤍 Mother Like No Other Community: www.thedoulalife.ca/mother 📸 Instagram: @the.doula.life

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Lin Yuan opens her heart to share the story of her son Keelan, born still at 38 weeks, and the life-altering moments that came before and after his birth. She takes us into the day she realized he wasn’t moving, the surreal drive to the hospital, and the moment she saw his face — knowing instantly that he was both hers and gone.

Lin reflects on the early days of grief while parenting her toddler son, the quiet and everyday ways she continues to honor Keelan, and the complicated emotions of her pregnancy after loss with her daughter, Logan. She speaks candidly about navigating fear, reclaiming her birth preferences, and the power of calling her stillborn son into the birth space of her rainbow baby. Today, Lin carries Keelan’s legacy into her work as a doula, walking alongside other parents facing the unimaginable.

We talk about:

• The sudden and heartbreaking loss of Keelan at 38 weeks
• The moment of meeting her son and feeling both love and loss
• Parenting a toddler while grieving a baby who isn’t coming home
• The quiet, everyday ways of honoring a baby after stillbirth
• The complexity of pregnancy after loss — holding hope and fear together
• Advocating for birth preferences after loss
• Welcoming her rainbow baby, Logan, and calling Keelan into that space
• Turning grief into purpose through bereavement doula work

This episode is a tender, raw, and hope-filled reminder that grief and love can coexist — and that a baby’s legacy can live in the quietest moments.

 🕊️ Keelan, this one is for you.

Get to Know Lin:Lin is a proud mom of three beautiful children and calls Brooklyn, NY home. In April 2023, she lost her middle baby, Keelan Paxton, at 38 weeks—a heartbreak that changed everything. In his honor, she founded A Little Peace, a doula practice in NYC dedicated to pregnancy after loss and bereavement care. Lin has found her life’s work in helping families who walk this path feel less alone. She finds joy in arranging Trader Joe's flowers, baking birthday cakes for her kids, and commiserating with fellow Brooklyn parents over a glass of wine (or three). You can connect with Lin at littlepeacedoula.com. 

Connect with Lin:📸 Instagram: @linyuan15Little Peace Doula: @littlepeacedoula

Connect with Kristin:📍 Website: thedoulalife.ca🌈 The Haven - Pregnancy After Loss Support: thedoulalife.ca/the-haven — use code RAINBOW to save $100🕊 RECLAIM -- The PAL Birth Course: thedoulalife.ca/reclaim -- use promo code: RECLAIM to save $100

📸 Instagram: @the.doula.life

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MJ shares her raw and powerful story of being told she would likely never be able to have children—and the emotional, spiritual, and physical healing journey that followed. After a heartbreaking miscarriage and years without a menstrual cycle, MJ began the work of reconnecting with her body, her nervous system, and her grief. In this conversation, we explore the pain of medical dismissal, the surprising discovery that changed everything, and the deep healing work that eventually brought her to her two living children.

We talk about:

• Growing up without regular periods and being told pregnancy might never be possible
• The trauma and heartbreak of miscarriage after a miracle conception
• Being gaslit by doctors—and trusting her intuition anyway
• The white-knuckling anxiety of pregnancy after loss
• Postpartum OCD and navigating intrusive thoughts
• How somatic healing, breathwork, and nervous system regulation changed everything
• Why creating safety in her body—and her life—was key to welcoming new life
• Her passion for helping others cry, heal, and reconnect with their emotional bodies

This episode is a beautiful reminder that grief and joy can live side by side—and that healing is possible when we honour all that we’ve been through.

🕊️ This one is for MJ’s first baby, never forgotten.Get to Know MJ:

MJ Renshaw is a breathwork facilitator, podcast host, author, and founder of The Being Method, a science-backed spiritual education platform that teaches students to heal and reconnect with their bodies through breathwork. After her own journey overcoming childhood trauma, MJ launched The Being Method in 2020, quickly establishing it as uniquely comprehensive, blending breathwork science, trauma-informed care, and practical business training. Her podcast, also ‘The Being Method,’ explores the intersection between science and spirituality. Her new book, How to Cry, a #1 New Release in Emotional Mental Health, explores the powerful science behind the emotional release of crying.

Connect with MJ:Instagram: @beingmethodbreathworkGet one month free of breathwork with The Being Method here: https://shorturl.at/7HFHvWebsite: https://www.beingmethod.ca/How to Cry: www.howtocry.caConnect with Kristin:

📍 Website: thedoulalife.ca 🌈 The Haven - Pregnancy After Loss Support: thedoulalife.ca/the-haven — use code RAINBOW to save $100 🤍 Mother Like No Other Community: www.thedoulalife.ca/community

 📸 Instagram: @the.doula.life

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Jasmine shares the heartbreaking story of her daughter Braelynn, who was stillborn at 40 weeks due to a tightly wrapped nuchal cord—a tragedy that could have been prevented. In this vulnerable and powerful episode, Jasmine walks us through her full-term loss, the moments in the hospital that still haunt her, and the journey through postpartum grief, anger, and deep questioning. She also shares the tender and fearful path to her rainbow baby, Archer, and what it took to feel safe enough to give birth again.

We talk about:

• What it’s like to be dismissed by medical professionals while advocating for your baby
• The trauma of leaving the hospital with a box instead of her baby
• The role of grief counselling and community in her healing
• Creating boundaries after loss to protect her space and heart
• The emotional complexity of pregnancy after loss
• The beauty of choosing a birth team you trust
• The empowering birth of her rainbow baby, Archer
• How she keeps Braylon present in their lives every day This episode is a fierce, emotional reminder that mothers know, that advocacy matters, and that healing is possible—even when the pain never fully leaves.

🕊️ Braelynn, this one is for you.

Get to Know Jasmine:

Jasmine lives in Sudbury, Ontario with her husband, their son Archer, and their 12-year-old German Shepherd, Radar—her first and forever furry best friend. She originally studied nursing, but after everything she’s walked through, she’s not sure if returning to the field is part of her future—and she’s learning that sometimes dreams change, and that’s okay. These days, Jasmine is navigating new motherhood while trying to carve out time for connection—with her family, her friends, and herself. You’ll often find her on the dock or curled up on the deck with a good book during quiet moments.

Connect with Jasmine:

Instagram: @jas_kappes

Connect with Kristin:

📍 Website: thedoulalife.ca 🌈 The Haven - Pregnancy After Loss Support Program: thedoulalife.ca/the-haven — use promo code: RAINBOW to save $100🤍 Mother Like No Other Community: www.thedoulalife.ca/community 📸 Instagram: @the.doula.life

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Brianna shares the sacred and heart breaking story of her daughter Caroline, born with a complex heart condition and an incredibly rare genetic diagnosis. In this tender, raw, and deeply moving episode, Bri walks us through her high-risk pregnancy, the decisions that no parent should have to make, and the immeasurable love that carried her through it all. She also shares the beautiful way she now honours Caroline’s memory— through her nonprofit, Caroline Cares— and opens up about pregnancy after loss and what it’s been like to carry her rainbow baby boy.

We talk about:

• Receiving a fetal heart diagnosis at 29 weeks
• Relocating for high-risk care at Stanford
• Balancing hope and fear while fighting for her daughter’s life
• Caroline’s birth and time in the NICU on ECMO
• An emotional mix-up that changed everything
• Making the heartbreaking choice to remove life support
• Holding Caroline for the first—and last—time
• How grief shaped her purpose and how Caroline Cares was born
• The complicated journey of pregnancy after loss

This episode is a powerful reminder that grief and love are never separate— and that even in the most devastating loss, mothering never ends.

🕊 Caroline, this one is for you.

Get to Know Brianna:

Hi, I’m Bri. My husband and I are parents to our beautiful daughter, Caroline, who passed away at 27 days old in 2023 due to a rare congenital heart condition called Ebstein’s Anomaly. We miss her deeply every single day and continue to honour her life through Caroline Cares, a charity we founded to support other NICU families by delivering care bags to local hospitals.

In 2024, we experienced an ectopic pregnancy — a heartbreaking loss that came just as we were beginning to hope again. After walking through so much grief, we are now joyfully expecting our rainbow baby this August.

Caroline made me a mother. Her story changed everything. And now, I carry her legacy forward—through advocacy, through love, and through every family Caroline Cares is able to reach.

Connect with Brianna:

Instagram: @briannahansenSupport Caroline Cares: www.carolinecares.us

Connect with Kristin:

📍 Website: thedoulalife.ca 🌈 The Haven - Pregnancy After Loss Support Program: thedoulalife.ca/the-haven — use promo code: RAINBOW to save $100 🕊 RECLAIM — The PAL Birth Course: thedoulalife.ca/reclaim — use promo code: RECLAIM to save $100🤍 Mother Like No Other Community: www.thedoulalife.ca/community 📸 Instagram: @the.doula.life

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Jessalyn shares the deeply personal and emotional story of her angel baby Camila, who was stillborn at 20 weeks, and the high-risk, complicated journey to welcoming her rainbow baby, Colby. In this moving episode, Jessalyn walks us through the shock of pregnancy loss after an uncomplicated first birth, the heartbreaking misidentification of her baby’s gender, and the complex layers of grief that followed. She also opens up about the fear, anxiety, and resilience it took to navigate a subsequent pregnancy filled with complications, including PPROM, hospital bedrest, and a NICU stay.

We talk about:

• Experiencing a missed miscarriage after her first healthy pregnancy 
• Losing her daughter Camila at 20 weeks and discovering her true gender days later 
• The emotional and physical toll of an induction after loss 
• The complicated decision to try again while deep in grief
• Navigating pregnancy after loss with high-risk care 
• A ruptured membrane at 26 weeks and hospital bedrest far from home
• Bringing her son Colby home after a premature birth and three weeks in the NICU 
• The ongoing balance of grief, healing, and joy in parenting both her living and angel children

This episode is a tender, honest reminder of the strength it takes to survive life after loss and how joy and sorrow can exist side by side. Jessalyn’s story is proof that even through the most devastating chapters, we can find our way through.

🕊️ Camila, this one is for you.Get to Know Jessalyn:

Jessalyn is a 35-year-old mom of three — an angel baby and two living children — living in Clarington, Ontario with her husband Carlos and their rescue dog, José. She grew up in Port Perry and still holds a special love for her hometown, with hopes of moving back one day. Jessalyn and Carlos have known each other since their early teens and have been together since their late teens, with a few years apart along the way. She works in Toronto and commutes a couple of days a week, balancing family life, work, and the ongoing journey of mothering all of her children.Connect with Kristin:

📍 Website: thedoulalife.ca

🌈 The Haven — Pregnancy After Loss Support Program: thedoulalife.ca/the-haven — use promo code RAINBOW to save $100 on enrollment

🕊️ RECLAIM — The PAL Birth Course: thedoulalife.ca/reclaim — use promo code RECLAIM to save $100

📸 Instagram: @the.doula.life

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