In my last episode, I opened up about being in a depressive state—and, honestly? That hasn’t changed. Life has just been hard for a while now. And while I don’t want to minimize real pain (because sometimes, things just f*cking suck), I had a huge realization this week: The small choices I make every day are either helping me or hurting me—and I’ve been adding fuel to the fire.

So, I’m starting a 30-day challenge where every decision I make has to prove love—either for myself or for others. No strict rules, no rigid plan—just a daily commitment to ask: Does this choice prove love? If not, I don’t do it. Period.

In this episode, I break down:
🔥 How a simple one-liner from my best friend flipped a switch in my brain
💡 The small, seemingly harmless choices that have been making me feel worse
❤️ Why strict challenges and diets never work for me—but this reframe might change everything
📅 What this 30-day challenge looks like, and why I think it’ll bring me clarity, peace, and maybe even the results I’ve been chasing

I’ll be back in 30 days to share what happened. But in the meantime, if you’ve been feeling stuck, lost, or just off—I invite you to try this with me. Ask yourself: Am I proving love? Or am I just coasting?

Let’s see where this takes us.

So... it's been three months since my last episode—whoops! In this one, I get real about where I’ve been: dealing with depression, burnout, and falling out of my routines. I didn’t even realize how much time had passed until I finally checked the calendar.

I also reflect on how stepping away from social media hasn’t gone exactly as planned. I thought it would help my mental health, but without the built-in accountability of posts and updates, I ended up losing track of everything. Now, I’m rethinking how I want to use social media moving forward—finding that middle ground between balance and staying present.

Join me for a candid update on life, mental health, and what's next for the podcast. It’s good to be back!

Happy Halloween!

Social Media. Whether you love or hate it or somewhere in between, we can all agree that it has taken over our society.

With smartphones, Instagram, and TikTok, we are connected and available 24/7, but we are no where near how we used to live just 15 years ago.

How we interact and communicate with each other has changed drastically. In the beginning, it was a way to communicate more often and more quickly, but is it better?

For me? It's become an issue, an issue that I need to face and deeply evaluate.

A little update for you guys! It’s been a little over a month since my last episode and I didn’t want to keep you hanging. More to come next Thursday!

I stepped into the co-parenting world in March of 2022, a difficult but necessary shift. There were two main things that I was fearful of upon entering into this chapter of my life:

1.) The guilt I would feel knowing my little boy would have a difficult time with this transition and that I wouldn't always be there to guide him through his pain.

2.) 50% of my child's adolescent years would be lived apart from me.

I had no idea how I was going to manage living in that reality and the pain that came with it. It seemed impossible to me and for over a year I accepted that this was how I would feel forever and that this part of my life simply just "fucking sucked".

And that mentality is where I stayed, some days worse than others. Until, the Christmas season of 2023, the first Christmas I'd spend without my son where I had a lightbulb moment that changed everything for me.

Your reality is based heavily on the mindset that you are living in, and I realized if I ever stood a chance at living in the grief that comes with having to share time with your child, then my mindset would have to shift immediately.

August 4 was a milestone for me. I reached one year of intentionally living a sex-free life.

I entered into this practice after my last sexual experience left me feeling empty, and that's when I realized that sex without an emotional connection would no longer be in the cards for me.

This past year I have been able to reflect and deeply connect with what I'm after, and I have had to face myself and my past habits with the utmost honesty, which although uncomfortable, has brought me to a place of clarity and peace.

Purposefully putting sex on the back burner is not somewhere I ever thought I would be, but it has done absolute wonders for my overall well-being, despite having moments of really missing it.

Read about transmutation of sexual energy:

https://www.mindbodygreen.com/articles/sexual-transmutation-how-to-transmute-sexual-energy

July 7th marked one year of this podcast! I honestly can't believe it.

I am truly proud of myself and the journey I've been on as far as this dream goes. My vision for this podcast is evident and I know that I will one day make it to the "finish line" (meaning my podcast is one of the top in the world)...

BUT

I'm nowhere near where I thought I would be with this.

Life happened and life continues to happen.

And I tried to push myself. And I pushed and pushed and pushed until I couldn't push any further and was forced to sit my ass down and take a break.

Work hard, go after your dreams, and continue down the path that you want to walk. But please make sure that you are moving at a pace that is cohesive with everything else that is going on in your life.

Hi guys!

In this episode, I had the pleasure of speaking with Dan Fagan, a Project and Sales Manager for StormGrade Roofing in Wilmington, NC. We were connected through his sister, an old friend of mine, Cayce Fagan after I posted on my story asking if anyone knew of anybody who was intentionally practicing celibacy.

Dan is coming up on almost three years of sobriety, and during his first year of recovery, he abstained from any romantic or sexual relationships after his sponsor suggested this. He then chose to take a vow of celibacy for himself, separate from recovery and is now almost two years abstinent.

We dove into his journey to becoming present, becoming spiritually fit, his life post alcohol and drug abuse, and his drastic shift in the way he views sex and women.

Yesterday I finished the mini-series "Normal People" and was deeply moved by the story and how relatable it was. A major highlight of the story touched on the realities of miscommunication, words left unsaid, and the consequences of this.

Communicating is hard.

We make the mistake of assuming and projecting.

Speaking up can feel incredibly daunting.

Asking for what you want can be silenced by an overwhelming fear of rejection.

But what if by speaking up and having the hard conversations we get what we want? What if what we desire and are after was available to us all along? But we never knew because we never spoke the words that we were too afraid to speak?

Christine Layer everybody, back for round two!

Christine and I met over a decade ago and immediately bonded over the fact that we were raised in the Catholic Church and had a similar upbringing.

From a young age, we were told that one day we would get married and start a family, which would be the general basis of our life. This is what we both sought after and expected for ourselves, thinking we would fall in the footsteps of our parents and find and marry our spouse by the age of 25 at the absolute LATEST.

And here we are, in our 30s, two single women in NYC navigating the overall shift that has occurred in society, and our change of mindset when it comes to finding "the one" and settling down.