A Beautiful Shitshow

Life is uncertain. We don’t actually know what’s around the corner, and that can be really scary.

In this episode, I’m talking about being brave enough to step into the unknown anyway. How fear is a normal part of growth, why staying in your comfort zone can quietly keep you stuck, and why some of the hardest or most uncertain moments in life often lead us somewhere better than we expected.

If you’re standing in front of something right now that feels a little scary but also exciting, this is your reminder that you don’t need to have everything figured out before you take the next step.

Sometimes the only way to discover what’s waiting for you is to be brave enough to turn the corner.

If you’re single on Valentine’s Day and feeling a little sad about it, this episode is for you.

Not in a “just love yourself” way, because honestly… people are tired of hearing that. Romantic love is real, it’s a specific experience, and it’s normal to want it.

In this quick episode, I’m talking about why being single isn’t proof that you’re behind or unlovable, it’s just proof that you haven’t met the right person yet. And why being alone is still better than being in a relationship where you aren’t cared for, chosen, or treated with real love.

If today feels heavy, let yourself feel it, but don’t let this day trick you into lowering your standards or going back to someone who already showed you who they are.

You deserve real love. And it exists.

Happy Valentine’s Day. 🤍

What happened to you is not your fault. The trauma, the grief, the pain, the things you didn’t deserve, none of it is your fault.

But healing from it is your responsibility.

And I don’t mean that in a harsh “get over it” way. I mean it in a real life way. Because if you don’t start healing, you’ll bleed on people who didn’t cut you. You’ll keep reacting from old wounds, sabotaging good things, pushing away love, and living your life through the lens of what hurt you instead of who you are now.

In this episode, I talk about why healing is messy, slow, and uncomfortable, but also necessary if you want peace, stability, and a life that actually feels good. You’re allowed to grieve forever if you need to, but you also deserve to be functional, grounded, and free.

This is your reminder that no one is coming to save you, but you don’t need saving. You need to choose yourself, one small decision at a time.

For a long time, I thought I felt terrible because life was just… hard.

Family court, co-parenting stress, healing from trauma, single-mom exhaustion — I fully believed that feeling sad, foggy, inflamed, and exhausted was just my baseline.

Turns out, it wasn’t.

I recently found out I have Hashimoto’s, an autoimmune disease that attacks the thyroid — and suddenly, years of mental, emotional, and physical symptoms finally made sense. In this episode, I talk about how mind and body are deeply connected, how inflammation can impact mental health, what changed when I finally got blood work done, and why accepting “this is just how I feel” can sometimes mean missing something important.

This isn’t medical advice — it’s a PSA.

Life is hard, but you shouldn’t feel this bad just for being alive.

If this resonates, please go get your shit checked.

For a long time, my whole thing has been freedom. Independence. Protecting my peace. And at the same time, I’ve always deeply wanted love. Real love. Passion, intimacy, connection.

For a while, I told myself those two things couldn’t exist together. Either you want peace or you want love. Either you want freedom or you want partnership. And honestly, that belief usually comes from experience.

In this episode, I talk about that tension. About wanting both, even if you don’t have proof yet that it’s possible. About how lack of evidence isn’t the same thing as impossibility. And about refusing to settle for versions of love that require you to shrink.

More on dating, love, and sex coming soon, especially in deeper conversations with Christine on Patreon. But for today, this one’s just a reminder that you’re allowed to want peace and love at the same time.

This is a short, honest episode, more like a voice note than a full sit down.

Lately I realized my priorities were a little off. Not in a dramatic way, but in the everyday ways. Working out only if I had time, doing things for myself after everything else was done, telling myself I’d get to it later. And the truth is, later never really comes.

In this episode, I talk about why taking care of yourself isn’t a reward or something you earn after being productive. It’s the foundation. When you put yourself first, your body, your energy, your well being, everything else actually becomes easier.

This isn’t about perfection or adding more to your plate. It’s just a reminder that you deserve to be a priority in your own life.

I'm back! And thrilled to be here. I missed you guys.

In this episode, I talk about why 2026 is the year I'm choosing to live more analog...more present, more human, and less tethered to the screen.

This conversation isnt about nostalgia or rejecting modern life. It's about recognizing what we've lost, why so many of us feel disconnected, and how choosing intention over convenience can quietly change everything.

I share why turning 34 shifted something in me, how motherhood sharpened this clarity, and what living differently actually looks like in real life.

Happy New Year, my friends.

This is not a polished episode. I recorded it on my phone, in one take, while lying in bed — because that’s all I had in me. No editing. No script. Just the truth.

I’m stepping away from the podcast for a while. I don’t know for how long. Maybe longer than I’d like. But I need to make space to take care of myself, my mental health, and my son. I haven’t been able to be consistent with this because life has been full — and sometimes healing has to come before creating.

Thank you for listening, for growing with me, and for being part of this. This isn’t goodbye forever… just the end of the podcast as we know it.

In my last episode, I opened up about being in a depressive state—and, honestly? That hasn’t changed. Life has just been hard for a while now. And while I don’t want to minimize real pain (because sometimes, things just f*cking suck), I had a huge realization this week: The small choices I make every day are either helping me or hurting me—and I’ve been adding fuel to the fire.

So, I’m starting a 30-day challenge where every decision I make has to prove love—either for myself or for others. No strict rules, no rigid plan—just a daily commitment to ask: Does this choice prove love? If not, I don’t do it. Period.

In this episode, I break down:
🔥 How a simple one-liner from my best friend flipped a switch in my brain
💡 The small, seemingly harmless choices that have been making me feel worse
❤️ Why strict challenges and diets never work for me—but this reframe might change everything
📅 What this 30-day challenge looks like, and why I think it’ll bring me clarity, peace, and maybe even the results I’ve been chasing

I’ll be back in 30 days to share what happened. But in the meantime, if you’ve been feeling stuck, lost, or just off—I invite you to try this with me. Ask yourself: Am I proving love? Or am I just coasting?

Let’s see where this takes us.

So... it's been three months since my last episode—whoops! In this one, I get real about where I’ve been: dealing with depression, burnout, and falling out of my routines. I didn’t even realize how much time had passed until I finally checked the calendar.

I also reflect on how stepping away from social media hasn’t gone exactly as planned. I thought it would help my mental health, but without the built-in accountability of posts and updates, I ended up losing track of everything. Now, I’m rethinking how I want to use social media moving forward—finding that middle ground between balance and staying present.

Join me for a candid update on life, mental health, and what's next for the podcast. It’s good to be back!