A few days ago, I was invited to a small church. Today, after my regular mediation meeting, I attended that church for sunday service . Lots of youth and energy!

Being alone is healthy when it's not too much (isolation) or too little (lost identity). I try to mix a little alone time in my life to maintain my mental health.

There was a disagreement at group this morning and one guy became upset and stormed out because of the decision. Seemed like an over-reaction to me, and reminded me of my behavior in the past. Conflict with people can make me upset, but there are healthy ways to get along with others, even after blowing up.

I know men dont normally get hot flashes, but I felt two today. And the ringing in my ears has been getting worse. Could this be related to cortisol?

The last time I experienced a dream was when last quitting marijuana. I am happy to report that I am dreaming again and have been journalling what happened in my dream, as well as any sensations or emotions felt. Dreams are gifts from my subconscious that I pay attention to, because some deeply buried emotions and inner conflicts are hidden within them. Most pot smokers dont get to dream.

The anxiety from yesterday drained me so that I woke up late this morning. Exhaustion and lethargy have been predominant symptoms whenever I quit THC.

I felt depressed for no logical reason. Rather than being self-critical, I did some reading and introspection instead.

Last night I felt socially akaward, that I was boring and did not fit in. But feelings dont necessarily match reality.

I had been impatient over the past day but a yoga class has me feeling centered and relaxed. I must remember to leave the outcome of things outside of my control in God's powerfuls hands.

When I say NO to others I feel like a bad person, my chest grows heavy and the temptation to use drugs enters my mind.