Welcome to March! In today's mini episode, I vent about how being healed and grounded can narrow down your dating prospects to near zero! Exciting? Maybe? I explain how I can quickly see through most people, and trusting myself means no one is passing the initial dating tests. I speak on casual dating and my current perspective on dating. Enjoy!

Hello! Welcome to the first episode of 2026! In this episode, I talk about how I rewired my brain to see acts of bravery as my new normal. A lot of my life has been composed of constantly taking leaps of faith, and this, although challenging, has been extremely useful in shaping my life into a fulfilling one. I'm a firm believer that life does not have to be hard or painful. The mark of true resilience is in shifting negatives into positives. We've been conditioned to believe that struggle is necessary, but all that is truly needed for human beings to be happy is to refine our belief system and the way we function automatically. Bravery is not necessary when we act from a place of joy because at that point, there is nothing to be brave about! 

For the last episode of the year, I sit down with my first-ever guest, Z33R0! Z33R0 has been my friend since 2021 when I first moved to LA and we have been through so many crazy fun times!

In this episode, we dive into his projects, dating and partying in the US vs Europe, kink shaming, and keeping strict standards in love. Plus, the questions you’ve been waiting for: Is painting the trade acceptable? Who truly deserves a deuched hole?

I believe at my very core that triggers are actually invitations to heal. In this episode, I talk about how On the Spot was born from my own VERY messy moments. Inspired by therapy and EMDR I created a method that helped emotionally regulate me on the spot as I felt overwhelming surges of emotion.

My Trigger Work Journal includes this 8-step guide I created to help turn emotional spirals into clarity, compassion, and calm. I hope this finds you at the right time, and I'm wishing you the best on your healing journey. 

00:00 - Intro

5:03 - Inspiration behind OTS

18:34 - Conclusion

In this episode of Cuntfessionals, I open up about my journey with bipolar disorder — from the day I was diagnosed, to the criteria I “met,” to the years of trial and error with treatments, mindsets, and healing. I share the things that absolutely did not work for me, the breakthroughs that did, and why I now believe I am truly cured. I also dive into my skepticism around the diagnosis itself, the power of belief, and how shifting my perspective completely changed the way I experienced myself and my mental health.

TT: https://www.tiktok.com/@zalza666?_t=ZT-8zMLEsrTXbL&_r=1

00:00 - Intro 

In this episode, I break down what it takes to achieve self-love through practical and easily applicable steps. I walk you through the exact things that helped me start showing up for myself in a real, deep way: building awareness, connecting with the tough emotions and beliefs, tuning into the body, gently shifting into new, empowering beliefs, and more. I also share pieces of my journey and how this process has truly changed my life. I know healing isn't a pretty process, and we can use all the help we can get in the journey. I really wish I would've had something like this in my teens and 20's. I hope it adds value to your life, enjoy <3. 

00:00 - Intro

2:44 - Background

5:36 - Awareness

8:29 - Negative Beliefs

11:23 - Sit with it

19:06 - Positive Belief + Identity Shift 

24:11 - It gets easier 

32:21 - Detach from the Outcome

36:35 - Healing Process Explanation

44:42 - Conclusion

In this mini I talk about the overlooked struggles of being a conventionally attractive woman—not to compare pain, but to highlight a specific kind. From being seen as a commodity to facing constant judgment and objectification—these issues aren't about beauty itself, but they're all actually rooted in misogyny. I reflect on public figures like Britney Spears and Amanda Bynes, and how the pressure to perform beauty has driven some to reject it altogether. I also stress the importance of protecting yourself and dive into my own experiences as well. Enjoy!

00:00 - Intro

2:30 - Beauty is Currency

9:09 - Careful What You Wish For

15:37 - Jealousy 

17:39 - Weird Behavior

21:09 - No Comparisons

23:25 - Conclusion

This episode was supposed to be a mini, but it definitely wasn't! This month, I unpack the truth behind lust, and how it’s typically deeper than just being horny. I explore how lust is often a symptom of unhealed trauma, repressed emotions, and a desperate hunger for connection and validation. From the different ways men and women experience and express it, to the way it masks as empowerment or desire but often stems from wounds. I also talk about how lust almost always inevitably results in using people and ascribing to misogyny. What are your thoughts?

00:00 - Intro

7:55 - Cheap Validation

23:58 - Objectification

36:15 - It's not about you

41:14 - Conclusion

This episode was supposed to be a mini, but it definitely wasn't! This month, I unpack the truth behind lust, and how it’s typically deeper than just being horny. I explore how lust is often a symptom of unhealed trauma, repressed emotions, and a desperate hunger for connection and validation. From the different ways men and women experience and express it, to the way it masks as empowerment or desire but often stems from wounds. I also talk about how lust almost always inevitably results in using people and ascribing to misogyny. What are your thoughts?

00:00 - Intro

7:55 - Cheap Validation

23:58 - Objectification

36:15 - It's not about you

41:14 - Conclusion

In this episode, I open up about the lessons that shaped me throughout my 20s. From navigating heartbreak and identity shifts to learning to live in the moment, forgive deeply, and master positive manifestation. I go deep into some of my darkest and also most beautiful moments that have shaped me into the person I am today. Navigating your 20s isn't always easy. Here are my most valuable takeaways.

3:49 - Mental Health is Worth Working For

12:12 - Don't Judge

15:11 - Break Harmful Generational Patterns 

19:48 - Beliefs Shape Your Life

27:21 - Life Is Worth Living 

35:25 - Ego Deaths Are Vital 

41:11 - Master Manifesting

48:57 - Live Life to the Fullest