After every holiday Jill feels like she has ridden the Scrambler ride too many times at the fair. She is overcome by sadness and anger as the flurry of happy FACEBOOK friends shares their FUN-FILLED LIVES. Moments that remind Jill that in her life those moments come at a cost. Intense planning, high anxiety and later complete low cortisol exhaustion.

The scrambler ride effect buries Jill in sadness and wondering why her life is NEVER EASY. Why can't she live the life she planned? A widow at 24 and pregnant with her son only to come into an emotionally abusive marriage that destroyed her self-worth and amid everything diagnosed with ADRENAL INSUFFICIENCY. A disease she knew of all her life as her father died of an adrenal crisis at 56 years.

A few days a "POOR" Jill and she knows she needs to see WHAT IS not might have been. So many WONDERFUL things in her life to celebrate. Maybe life for her is not elaborate parties and functions...maybe is it quiet excitement on her terms with the bright lights in her life. And she has a lot of BRIGHT LIGHTS.

She took a BIG step today and wore a Halloween costume to work. She did it without the fear of ridicule from voices in the past. She did it with self-love and allowing herself to live her best life. Because she deserves it.

Today she moved forward with ADRENAL INSUFFICIENCY.