Embrace It All!

Shortly after Jessica's death, a friend of mine shared with me that there is a high percentage of marriages that don't survive after the death of a child.  Although shocked at first that she would share this with me so soon after Jessica's passing, it gave Dave and I a chance to discuss our commitment to each other, and how we were going to make a conscious effort to turn toward each other during the most difficult trial we were facing.    It would be so easy to turn inward as we process and grieve the death of our daughter, but neither of us wanted that.

In this episode I will share some simple things that we have done over the last year and a half to stay connected as we have chosen to turn toward each other.  

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For the past several weeks I have been going through pictures and trying to organize them. 

Each picture created a memory and gave me a chance to reflect on how our family has evolved and grown over the years.  The experiences captured in these pictures not only tell a story, but they also create feelings of love that have deepened over time through shared experiences.  

Usually, the way we process the experiences in our lives is what creates the feelings we have about that experience. Our perception of any experiences creates an emotion.  And it is those emotions that jog  our memories. 

There are many times in our lives when we feel something, a feeling so strong and undeniable during certain experiences.  These feelings can bring tears of joy.  Have you ever experienced something like that in your life?  I would be willing to bet we all have a time or two.  These strong, undeniable feelings can fill you with so much joy and happiness, it’s as if your very your very  soul fills up  with light, even for a moment.  These are the experiences we always want to remember.  But if we are not careful, they can be so easily forgotten. 

In today's episode I will share with you what I am learning about the importance of remembering, why we forget so quickly, and how we can make sure to keep these memories from fading away.  

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Over that last three months a lot has happened with our family.  So many wonderful and hard experiences at the same time.  And in the middle of all of it,  my faith and trust in God and my Savior was stretched more than it has ever been.    
In today's episode I will share this personal experience with you and how I am learning that faith and trust in God, and surrending my will to His is hard.  And it is an every day process.  

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I am learning that after experiencing a traumatic event, your mind is constantly on high alert, just waiting for the next traumatic thing to happen.  This is quite normal, but it is not easy to go through.  In this short episode I will share an experience that is helping me to put it all into better perspective.  

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This month was filled with celebrations, and also many "firsts".  During the first year after a loved one dies, you experience the holidays and celebrations for the first time without them, and it can be so painful.  I've struggled a lot this month, and my tears flow daily.  But as I have reflected on the memories each "first" presented, I'm seeing  the miracles we've experienced along the way.  

Ronald A. Rasband reminds us that miracles are a lifeline from heaven to earth.  And I believe that 100%.  As I have been finding and reflecting upon my own miracles, the sorrow has become less heavy.  When we seek for our miracles, with even just a tiny particle of faith, God will show them to us.  

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Over the last 8 months I am learning what it means to become resilient.  Some people think that resiliency means that you brush off your challenges, pull up your boot straps, and move on.  But as I continue on this journey, I am coming to understand that resiliency is definitely not that at all.  On today's episode I will share what I am learning  about becoming resilient and how it has helped me.  

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There will be times in our lives when we receive strong impressions.  Sometimes those impressions make sense, but more often than not, at least in my life, they don't.  Today I will share one such impression with you and why I am so grateful that I followed it even though at the time it didn't make complete sense.

I will also share with you what I learned from feeling angry.  I am realizing that anger is a natural emotion that occurs when going through any type of grief.  When it hit during these last few weeks, it was difficult.  I tried to ignore it, I judged myself for it, and then I decided to let it be there.  Today I will share where the anger was coming from for me and how I let it teach me.  

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Two months after Jessica's death, I would consistently wake up in the middle of the night with my stomach in knots.  I would try to figure out what triggered it, using some familiar tools, but nothing worked.  In this episode I will share what I am learning to do when sleep doesn't come.

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The way we experience grief can be so different in the way others do. One of the things I am noticing in my own grieving process is that I am moving at a much slower rate than I ever have been.  On today's episode I talk about what this looks like and how I am learning to embrace this in myself.  

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I thought I knew what it meant to mourn with those that mourn and comfort those that need comforting.  But I didn't quite fully undersand.  In this brief episode I will share with you what I am learning and the impact it is having on my family.

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