In this episode, I'm joined by Alex Beattie, founder of The Divorce Planner, to talk about what actually helps in the earliest stages of separation and divorce. Alex is a divorce prep coach who works with people before they hire attorneys or mediators, helping them get grounded emotionally and prepared practically before big, irreversible decisions are made.

We talk about the grief, shame, and identity disruption that often catches people off guard, even when divorce feels mutual, and why slowing down at the beginning can protect you emotionally and financially in the long run. Alex's web site: https://www.thedivorceplanner.net/

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Timestamps & topics

00:00 – What a divorce prep coach actually does How divorce prep differs from legal strategy and why preparation before calling a lawyer matters

02:15 – Why people want to "just get it over with" Emotional overwhelm, avoidance, and the risks of making decisions from shutdown or panic

03:50 – Divorce as the end of an imagined future Grief, loss of identity, and facing a blank slate you didn't plan for

06:10 – The emotional pain people underestimate Why sadness, grief, and shame still show up even when divorce is the "right" decision

08:40 – How childhood patterns resurface during divorce Why old narratives about worth, safety, and capability come back online

10:20 – Divorce and confidence collapse Questioning your value, competence, and future, especially for stay-at-home parents

13:05 – Reframing skills, worth, and capability Recognizing transferable skills and rebuilding self-trust

14:45 – Retraining the brain during a destabilizing life transition Awareness, emotional regulation, and building stability when everything feels uncertain

17:00 – Social stigma, family reactions, and judgment Why divorce still carries shame and how others' reactions can complicate healing

19:10 – The most unhelpful things people say during divorce "Well-meaning" comments that actually increase shame and self-doubt

21:30 – How friends can offer real support Listening, practical help, and showing up without trying to fix or judge

24:10 – Letting yourself receive support Why isolation makes divorce harder and how connection actually builds resilience

28:40 – Why you should never negotiate money without knowing your numbers How fear around finances leads to long-term regret

30:10 – The 5-5-5 decision rule Evaluating divorce decisions based on their impact over time, not just immediate relief

32:00 – Final advice for early-stage divorce decisions Why slowing down now protects your future self and prevents costly mistakes later

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Kim's website: https://www.kimpolinder.com/

Kim's Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/kp_counseling/

Kim's YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@engineeringlovepodcast

You understand why you avoid. You see the pattern. And you're still doing it.

In this episode, Kim Polinder explores the frustrating gap between self-awareness and actual change — and why insight alone rarely leads to different behavior.

Rather than framing change as a decision or a motivation problem, this conversation breaks down procrastination as a capacity issue. Kim walks through four common "false fixes" people rely on when they're trying to change — strategies that look responsible on the surface but quietly reinforce avoidance.

Using real-life relational examples, nervous system science, and practical reframes, this episode explains why waiting to feel calm, trying to be perfect, forcing yourself through hard moments, or endlessly consuming self-help content often backfires.

The focus is not on fixing yourself, but on building emotional capacity: the ability to stay present with discomfort, repair when things go sideways, and stop turning one hard moment into a verdict about who you are.

Timestamps & Topics

[00:00:00] – The Conundrum: Why self-awareness doesn't change behavior.

[00:01:39] – Defining Capacity: Why change requires extreme discomfort.

[00:02:48] – False Fix #1: Waiting to feel calm or "ready" before acting.

[00:03:59] – False Fix #2: The perfectionism trap and the cost of "doing it right".

[00:06:50] – False Fix #3: Forcing exposure without a support system.

[00:08:45] – Pausing to Avoid vs. Pausing to Build Capacity.

[00:14:09] – False Fix #4: Searching for the "Golden Key" of insight.

[00:16:40] – Short-term relief vs. Long-term training of the nervous system.

[00:19:35] – Why willpower fails under emotional threat.

[00:22:00] – Compassionate Curiosity: How to stop abandoning yourself.

[00:24:37] – Why we lose access to our skills when triggered.

[00:27:13] – The Lab Partner: The necessity of community and repair.

[00:29:14] – Invitation to the Virtual Cohort: Building capacity in real-time.

Kim's website: https://www.kimpolinder.com/

Kim's Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/kp_counseling/

Kim's YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@engineeringlovepodcast

In Episode 10, Kim opens Season Two by breaking down procrastination in a way most people have never heard it explained before.

This episode isn't about productivity, discipline, or time management. It's about emotional risk, fragile self-esteem, and the identities we built in childhood to survive.

Kim explains why procrastination shows up around the things that matter most. Big conversations. Creative work. Boundaries. Healing. Growth. And why avoidance isn't laziness. It's protection.

Drawing from attachment theory, trauma, neurobiology, and her own lived experience, Kim connects procrastination to emotional attunement, identity, shutdown, people-pleasing, catastrophizing, and the fear of inner collapse. She also explains why insight alone doesn't change behavior, and what actually has to shift for real movement to happen.

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00:00 – Rage, triggers, and decades of stored emotional memory

00:25 – Why feeling misunderstood cuts so deeply

00:52 – Procrastination isn't about time management

02:29 – Procrastination around hard conversations

03:01 – Mistakes, shame, and fragile self-esteem

05:28 – What self-esteem actually is (and isn't)

06:25 – Emotional attunement explained

07:37 – Why "they'll never understand me" isn't true

08:10 – Childhood emotional neglect and minimization

09:14 – Avoidant coping and jumping to solutions

09:57 – Why being sat with matters

10:27 – Religion, conflict avoidance, and emotional bypassing

11:30 – Biology of trauma and implicit memory

12:33 – Adoption, abandonment, and cognitive bias

13:46 – Anger as a lifelong trigger

14:52 – Suppression vs expression of emotion

15:41 – Coping mechanisms and shutdown

16:24 – Anxious vs avoidant responses in conflict

18:28 – Catastrophizing and control

19:13 – Why anxiety feels protective

23:14 – Childhood roles: good child, peacemaker, achiever

26:25 – Waiting until you're angry to speak

29:12 – Why your partner isn't the whole cause

30:07 – Shutdown as self-protection, not punishment

31:05 – Why insight doesn't change behavior

33:11 – Reframing hard conversations

36:16 – How family freezes you in old identities

37:35 – Why growth feels threatening

38:05 – Holding competing emotions about parents

39:22 – Letting go of old identities

40:05 – Why growth feels risky, not empowering

41:18 – What actually reduces procrastination

42:09 – Questions to ask yourself about avoidance

44:58 – Pay attention to what you avoid

45:26 – What avoidance is protecting ––––––––––––––––––

This episode is especially relevant if you feel stuck despite insight, avoid hard conversations, or keep postponing the things that matter most to you.

Kim's website: https://www.kimpolinder.com/

Kim's Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/kp_counseling/

Kim's YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@engineeringlovepodcast

In Episode 9, Kim answers listener questions about anxious–avoidant dynamics, communicating with partners who shut down, chronic self-doubt and perfectionism, and navigating a relationship when one or both partners are struggling with depression.

This episode explores what it actually means to move toward secure attachment, why avoidant partners disengage during future-oriented conversations, and when communication tools stop being enough. Kim also unpacks the roots of lifelong self-doubt, how self-criticism becomes tied to worth, and why letting go of perfection can feel terrifying but necessary. The final segment offers grounded guidance for couples navigating depression together without losing themselves or each other.

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00:00 – Listener questions preview • Communicating with avoidant partners • Self-doubt and confidence • Relationships and depression

02:00 – Faith in yourself explained (without religion) 03:10 – Fear vs doubt and why fear blocks change 05:05 – Why belief in change matters before action 06:40 – CBT basics: thoughts, feelings, behaviors 08:35 – Identifying core beliefs and inner dialogue 10:20 – Taking accountability for change

11:30 – Question 1: Communicating with avoidant partners 13:05 – Anxious, avoidant, and fearful-avoidant dynamics 15:10 – Why anxious partners get labeled as the problem 17:30 – Emotional shutdown and childhood origins 19:45 – Why anxious and avoidant partners attract each other 22:30 – Independence vs emotional unavailability 24:40 – Where attachment patterns are formed 27:10 – Why communication feels one-sided 29:30 – Soft startups, timing, and asking for consent to talk 31:45 – Putting responsibility back on the avoidant partner 34:10 – When communication tools stop working 36:30 – Values, emotional needs, and secure attachment 38:45 – When it may be time to walk away 41:20 – Sampling behavior to predict the future

43:10 – Question 2: Self-doubt, confidence, and perfectionism 45:05 – How self-criticism becomes tied to worth 47:40 – Childhood roots of self-doubt 50:10 – Why self-blame once served a purpose 52:35 – Separating past conditioning from present reality 55:20 – Attributing success without self-punishment 58:10 – Letting go of people who mistreat you 01:01:00 – Tolerating loneliness during growth 01:03:45 – Making mistakes on purpose 01:06:10 – Learning to take life more lightly

01:09:00 – Question 3: Navigating depression as a couple 01:10:40 – Why dual depression adds strain 01:12:30 – Therapy, medication, and evaluation basics 01:15:10 – Genetics, trauma, and self-acceptance 01:18:00 – Day-to-day functioning and division of labor 01:20:30 – Supporting each other without enabling 01:23:15 – Empathy, communication, and shared responsibility 01:26:10 – Using CBT to manage depressive thinking

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This episode is especially relevant if you're questioning whether communication is enough, struggling with self-worth, or trying to hold a relationship together while managing mental health challenges.

Kim's website: https://www.kimpolinder.com/

Kim's Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/kp_counseling/

Kim's YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@engineeringlovepodcast

In Episode 8, Kim answers listener questions about trauma bonds, abusive relationship cycles, repeated infidelity, and navigating boundaries with family members after postpartum harm.

This episode looks closely at why "sudden change" can feel untrustworthy, how remorse differs from temporary improvement, and why love alone is not enough to repair long-standing harm. Kim also breaks down trauma bonding in plain language and explains why people stay in relationships that continue to hurt them, even when they know better intellectually.

The final section focuses on in-law boundaries, postpartum vulnerability, and how to get a peacemaking partner on board when accountability threatens family harmony.

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00:00 – Listener questions preview • Abusive partner claiming sudden change • Repeated cheating and false reconciliation cycles • Postpartum boundary violations with in-laws

01:27 – What trauma bonds are and how they form 02:25 – Reward and punishment cycles in abusive relationships 03:23 – Power imbalance, conditioning, and familiarity with harm 03:57 – Why people return after leaving abusive partners 04:20 – Why consistent kindness can feel "boring" or unsafe

06:00 – Question 1: "My abusive partner says he's changed, but it feels fake" 07:38 – What "fake progress" often signals 08:27 – Psychiatry vs therapy and limits of medication alone 09:45 – Why years of abuse don't resolve in a few sessions 10:41 – Medication as stabilization vs real healing 11:39 – What genuine repair actually requires 12:07 – The role of couples therapy and trauma-informed work 12:58 – Safety, boundaries, and rebuilding self-advocacy 13:48 – How to define measurable signs of real change 15:04 – Why five therapy sessions is not enough 16:11 – Apology, accountability, and empathy as non-negotiables 17:38 – When love becomes endurance instead of care

19:02 – Question 2: Repeated cheating, devastation, and reunion cycles 20:16 – Why repeated betrayal points to deeper issues 20:46 – What true remorse looks like 21:07 – How to assess the quality of an apology 22:26 – Common patterns behind infidelity 23:45 – Cheating as coping, rebellion, or avoidance 24:37 – Trauma bonds and why leaving feels impossible 26:25 – The "rescuer" role and saving dynamics 27:37 – Supporting someone without sacrificing yourself 28:30 – Receiving care and challenging worthiness beliefs 29:39 – When patterns won't change without real work

30:34 – Question 3: Postpartum harm, resentment, and in-law boundaries 31:28 – Healthy vs toxic resentment explained 32:31 – Lowering the pedestal and grieving lost trust 33:29 – Peacemakers, people-pleasing, and boundary collapse 34:25 – Why boundaries must be specific, not vague 35:38 – Testing alignment with your partner 36:40 – Empathy as the key to shared boundaries 38:17 – Examining your partner's "math" around harm 39:26 – Repair vs boundaries with parents and in-laws 40:10 – When to stop pursuing reconciliation 40:53 – Role-playing boundaries before conflict happens 41:52 – Helping a peacemaking partner build empathy

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This episode is especially relevant if you feel stuck between leaving and hoping, or if you're questioning whether change is real or simply temporary relief.

Kim's website: https://www.kimpolinder.com/

Kim's Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/kp_counseling/

Kim's YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@engineeringlovepodcast

Episode 7 dives deep into attachment dynamics, shutdown, commitment anxiety, and the hidden costs of people-pleasing. Kim answers listener questions about anxious–avoidant relationships, silent treatment, marriage timelines, and the martyr complex, with a focus on responsibility, boundaries, and realistic decision-making.

This episode is for anyone who feels stuck chasing clarity, carrying more than their share, or waiting for someone else to change.

Topics include attachment theory explained simply, why anxious and avoidant partners are drawn to each other, how stonewalling differs from the silent treatment, and how martyrdom quietly erodes self-respect and relationships.

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00:00 – Listener questions: shutdown in conflict, marriage pressure, martyr complex 01:00 – What attachment theory actually explains 02:10 – The four attachment styles and how they form 04:18 – How attachment styles show up in adult relationships 08:34 – Why people mislabel themselves as "secure" 10:00 – Moving past attachment labels toward secure functioning

10:29 – Why anxious and avoidant partners find each other 12:02 – Anxious–avoidant conflict and chronic shutdown 13:23 – Stonewalling vs the silent treatment (Gottman framework) 14:44 – Why breaks longer than 24 hours cause harm 16:49 – How anxious partners unintentionally reinforce shutdown 18:00 – When you've done all you can and nothing changes 20:29 – Deciding what you can live with

23:25 – Marriage timelines and commitment resistance 25:23 – "If you loved me, you would…" and weak arguments 27:21 – Fear, attachment, and self-sabotage around commitment 29:56 – The risk of forcing readiness 31:55 – Resentment as the real long-term threat

33:35 – What a martyr complex really is 36:17 – How suffering becomes tied to worth 38:28 – Faulty "martyr math" and unmet expectations 40:29 – Martyrdom, trauma, and low self-esteem 42:14 – Why misery feels safer than happiness 43:43 – Challenging beliefs and learning to say no 46:17 – Resentment, manipulation, and people-pleasing 47:59 – Closing reflections and community resources

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If this episode resonates, consider sharing it with someone who feels stuck in the same patterns.

Kim's website: https://www.kimpolinder.com/

Kim's Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/kp_counseling/

Kim's YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@engineeringlovepodcast

In Episode 6, Kim is joined by relationship coach Mason O'Sullivan to answer listener questions about empathy, emotional support, grief, and long-standing self-sabotage patterns.

This episode focuses on one of the most common breakdowns in relationships: trying to fix emotions instead of understanding them. Kim and Mason unpack why empathy is not agreement, why problem-solving too fast makes partners feel alone, and how learning to sit with discomfort can change the entire tone of a relationship.

The conversation also explores how to show up for someone who is grieving when you feel awkward or unsure what to do, and how to begin untangling self-sabotaging behaviors that have been in place for years, especially when disability, shame, or past mistakes are involved.

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00:00 – Listener questions preview • Struggling to empathize instead of fixing • Supporting someone who is grieving or sad • Long-term self-sabotage and accountability

01:00 – Introduction to Mason O'Sullivan and his coaching background 02:30 – Why people seek coaching and therapy 03:35 – Creating safe spaces for vulnerability 04:30 – Finding your voice, identity, and boundaries 06:05 – What authenticity actually means 07:25 – People-pleasing and not knowing your needs

08:57 – Question 1: "I don't know how to empathize if I can't fix it" 10:23 – The urge to problem-solve and prove value 11:26 – Empathy vs sympathy explained 12:33 – Why solutions often miss the point 13:36 – Guessing needs vs asking directly 14:50 – Role play: what not to do 16:22 – Why reassurance can still feel invalidating 17:44 – Role play: responding with empathy 19:36 – Paraphrasing emotions and checking understanding 21:02 – Empathy is not agreement 22:30 – How validation opens the door to repair 24:09 – When and how to move into solutions

25:42 – Question 2: Supporting someone who is grieving or sad 26:35 – Awkwardness, nervous laughter, and discomfort 27:45 – Why grief is hard to sit with 28:21 – Letting someone lead with what they need 29:14 – Holding space instead of fixing 30:10 – Why silence can be supportive 31:10 – Grief, avoidance, and freezing time 32:42 – Talking through grief as healing 34:11 – Exploring your relationship with sadness

36:10 – Question 3: Breaking a decade of self-sabotage 37:41 – Disability vs avoidance as a coping strategy 39:13 – Realistic goals and self-assessment 40:08 – Self-fulfilling prophecies and sabotage 41:31 – Choice, agency, and accountability 42:22 – Core beliefs and self-worth 43:34 – Forgiveness, mistakes, and lovability 45:24 – Awareness as the first interruption 46:03 – Self-sabotage as predictability and protection 47:25 – Leaving before being left 48:37 – Encouragement and counting progress

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This episode is especially helpful if you've been told you're "bad at empathy," feel helpless around grief, or recognize patterns of self-sabotage you're ready to change.

Kim's website: https://www.kimpolinder.com/

Kim's Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/kp_counseling/

Kim's YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@engineeringlovepodcast

In Episode 5, Kim answers listener questions about boundaries in family and romantic relationships, people-pleasing, guilt, and the emotional fallout of avoiding conflict.

This episode breaks down why boundaries feel so threatening for people pleasers, how guilt gets wired into saying no, and why resentment is often the first signal that a boundary is needed. Kim walks through boundaries not as rules or ultimatums, but as a skill rooted in self-trust, emotional awareness, and realistic expectations of others.

Topics include navigating estranged family relationships without becoming the go-between, understanding micro-violence and triggers in couples conflict, and learning how to tolerate disappointment in others without collapsing into guilt or self-abandonment.

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00:00 – Listener questions preview • Managing estranged family relationships • Boundaries in romantic relationships and micro-violence • People-pleasing and guilt

00:39 – Why boundaries are a people pleaser's worst nightmare 01:13 – The subconscious purpose of not setting boundaries 01:36 – How people-pleasing keeps peace and avoids abandonment 02:05 – Why new behaviors must outweigh old coping strategies 02:35 – Core beliefs that block boundary-setting 03:00 – Guilt, conditioning, and fear of punishment 03:25 – Assertiveness vs deeper self-worth beliefs

03:57 – Knowing what you want before setting boundaries 04:22 – Resentment as a boundary litmus test 05:02 – How resentment poisons relationships over time

05:56 – Question 1: Being stuck between estranged family members 06:44 – The role of the middle person and hidden costs 07:08 – Deciding your limits as a go-between 07:50 – Why it's not your job to repair others' relationships 08:15 – Identity, value, and being needed 08:51 – Unfinished business and personal resentment 09:44 – Letting adults carry their own accountability 10:30 – Practicing and enforcing family boundaries

11:05 – Question 2: Boundaries and micro-violence in a relationship 11:30 – Focusing on triggers instead of rules 12:23 – Projections vs transference in conflict 13:15 – Childhood patterns and learned communication 13:57 – Empathy as the antidote to escalation 14:54 – Unprocessed trauma and volatility

15:48 – Question 3: People-pleasing and guilt after setting boundaries 16:44 – Why guilt assumes others don't care about you 17:29 – Learning to tolerate disappointment 17:53 – Challenging irrational inner dialogue 18:43 – Fear of rejection and early abandonment 19:38 – Re-orienting to the present instead of childhood fear 20:28 – Receiving love without earning it 21:43 – Letting evidence of support rewire old beliefs 22:13 – Why boundaries feel harder before they feel easier

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This episode is especially relevant if you struggle with guilt after saying no, feel responsible for keeping the peace, or notice resentment building in your relationships.

Kim's website: https://www.kimpolinder.com/

Kim's Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/kp_counseling/

Kim's YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@engineeringlovepodcast

In Episode 4, Kim answers listener questions about self-esteem, identity, people-pleasing, and how to build a sense of self without losing connection to others.

This episode explores how self-esteem is formed early in life, why people-pleasing and conflict avoidance feel safer than honesty, and how avoiding discomfort slowly erodes integrity, intimacy, and identity. Kim breaks down impostor syndrome in plain language, reframes comparison culture, and offers practical ways to build happiness, self-care, and self-trust both while single and in relationships.

The throughline of this episode is learning how to be your own anchor rather than outsourcing worth, happiness, or direction to other people.

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00:00 – Listener questions preview • Being your own source of happiness while dating • Practicing self-love in a relationship • Constant comparison to others

00:00:33 – Introduction: self-esteem, identity, and impostor syndrome 01:02 – What impostor syndrome is and what it isn't 01:30 – Why impostor syndrome isn't a DSM diagnosis 01:58 – How impostor syndrome impacts self-esteem 02:44 – Self-doubt, comparison, and inner dialogue

03:10 – How self-esteem is formed early in life 03:36 – People-pleasing as a response to insecurity 04:01 – Why people-pleasing is transactional, not kind 04:55 – Resentment, manipulation, and emotional cost 05:18 – Conflict avoidance and long-term damage 06:15 – Losing integrity through silence 06:40 – Identity loss in long-term relationships 07:00 – Conflict avoidance at family and community levels 08:23 – Regret, bitterness, and the cost of not speaking up 08:43 – Learning communication and confrontation as skills 09:09 – Integrity as the foundation of healthy relationships

09:19 – Question 1: Being your own source of happiness 09:59 – Why many people don't know what makes them happy 10:22 – Tuning out your own needs to care for others 11:16 – Finding purpose through community 12:10 – Experimentation and trial-and-error while single 12:36 – Removing fear of rejection from self-discovery 13:00 – Using your past as a happiness blueprint 13:29 – Separating happiness from romantic partners 14:19 – The importance of platonic friendships 14:47 – Practicing vulnerability and repair with friends 15:19 – Why friendships strengthen romantic relationships

16:19 – Question 2: Practicing self-love and self-care in a relationship 16:57 – Defining what self-care actually means to you 17:20 – Why knowing what you need isn't enough 17:43 – People-pleasing and difficulty asking for care 18:05 – Self-care as boundary-setting 18:26 – Fear of tending to your own emotions 19:17 – Avoidance, trauma, and disconnection from the body 20:08 – Why self-care goes deeper than surface habits

20:50 – Question 3: Constant comparison to others 21:16 – Social media and distorted comparison 22:18 – Curated lives and emotional disconnection 23:05 – Edited identities and blocked intimacy 23:46 – Objectification and fantasy thinking 24:07 – CBT tools for interrupting comparison 25:01 – Using comparison as motivation instead of shame 25:39 – Healthy role models and mentorship 26:22 – Community, collaboration, and shared growth

27:34 – Closing reflections and final quote

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This episode is especially relevant if you feel disconnected from yourself, struggle with people-pleasing, or find your self-worth rising and falling based on comparison or approval.

Kim's website: https://www.kimpolinder.com/

Kim's Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/kp_counseling/

Kim's YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@engineeringlovepodcast

In Episode 3, Kim breaks down resentment: what it is, why it lingers, and how to work with it without letting it harden you.

This episode introduces a key distinction between toxic resentment and healthy resentment, especially in the context of abandonment, infidelity, and long-standing friendships that no longer feel safe or reciprocal. Kim walks through how resentment often signals ungrieved loss, unmet expectations, and misplaced responsibility, and why learning to "lower the pedestal" can be an essential part of healing.

Listener questions include navigating anger toward an abandoning co-parent, repairing trust after repeated infidelity, and deciding when it's time to end a friendship that has become painful or one-sided.

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00:00 – Listener questions preview • Anger and resentment toward an absent co-parent • Infidelity, divorce, and reconciliation • Ending a long-standing friendship

00:00:50 – Introduction: what resentment is and why it matters 01:17 – Two types of resentment explained 01:45 – Toxic resentment and how it corrodes over time 02:12 – Healthy resentment as grief and disappointment 02:38 – Why having no expectations isn't realistic 03:06 – Resentment as waiting for someone to make things right 03:35 – How resentment reveals attachment and care 03:58 – A simple question to distinguish healthy vs toxic resentment 04:25 – When resentment is justified 04:47 – The pedestal problem 05:16 – How people get put on pedestals 05:42 – The process of downgrading 06:13 – Superficial validation and shallow loyalty 06:44 – Codependency and misplaced trust 07:10 – How introspection rebuilds self-respect

07:42 – Resentment with family 08:05 – Why family resentment hurts more 08:36 – Independence, boundaries, and healing 08:59 – Accepting that some family members won't change 09:20 – Grieving unmet parental love 10:03 – Choosing healthier attachment figures 10:26 – Vulnerability, shame, and receiving love 10:57 – Being selective about who you open up to 11:19 – The "closet of shame" and blocked intimacy

12:28 – Question 1: Anger toward an absent father 13:04 – Untangling anger from sadness 13:30 – Self-blame and inappropriate responsibility 14:19 – Correlation vs causation in abandonment 15:15 – How childhood conclusions repeat in adulthood 16:04 – Expressing anger safely 16:27 – Writing as emotional processing 17:09 – Identifying patterns of abandonment 17:56 – Seeking support and restoring self-worth 18:56 – Accountability in possible reconciliation

19:40 – Question 2: Infidelity and saving a marriage 20:26 – Understanding resentment from the betrayed partner's side 21:24 – Why some couples do work through infidelity 22:17 – Infidelity as a coping mechanism 23:14 – Patterns, unmet needs, and identity 23:57 – Steps of a proper apology 24:26 – Owning behavior without defensiveness 25:16 – Empathy, remorse, and rebuilding trust 26:45 – Answering questions and holding space 27:28 – Why trust takes time

28:28 – Question 3: Ending a long-standing friendship 29:11 – Healthy resentment and failed repair attempts 29:37 – Clarifying needs and roles 30:15 – When boundaries replace reconciliation 31:11 – Expectations, reality, and disappointment 31:57 – Pedestals, roles, and disillusionment 32:49 – Who changed: you or them? 33:39 – Growth, people-pleasing, and identity shifts 34:40 – Replacing unsafe family roles with chosen support 35:29 – Adult responsibility and boundaries 35:55 – Encouragement for speaking up

36:16 – Closing reflections and quote

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This episode is especially relevant if you feel stuck in resentment, carry responsibility for other people's choices, or are trying to decide whether to repair, redefine, or release a relationship.

Kim's website: https://www.kimpolinder.com/

Kim's Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/kp_counseling/

Kim's YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@engineeringlovepodcast