Content warning: This episode includes discussion of depression and suicide. Please take care while listening, and give yourself some extra grace this holiday season.

In this episode, I mark a significant chapter of The Aether. Punta Monterrey, Mexico | November 4, 2025 My most potent & undeniable psychic confirmation event. Included is my emotional, real-time testimonial as I reflect on the three-week pause which allowed me sufficient time for real processing and somatic integration following such a jarring & life altering experience.

I speak candidly about moving through a dark, extended period of depression, attachment, unresolved grief, and the quieter aftereffects of this mediumistic work, even when supplemented by daily ritual.

At the center of the episode is a recorded conversation with the woman I was paired with during the exercise that became this confirmation event.

The Aether: giving form to the formless.

Episode Art By Lex Lee

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