This episode discusses severe alcoholism, suicidal ideation, and suicide attempts. Please listen with care.

I sat down with Nicole, a mother of five who lived a "normal" life on the outside while a dark hole was swallowing her from the inside. From her first blackout at thirteen to drinking a Costco-sized handle of vodka every 24 hours, Nicole’s story is a harrowing look at how addiction isolates us from the people we love most—including ourselves.

We dive deep into the moments the world doesn't see: the manipulation, the medical emergencies, and the day Nicole decided it would be better if she simply wasn't here anymore. But the pills didn't work, and what followed was a grueling, beautiful, and 180-degree transformation. This isn't just a story about quitting a substance; it’s about a woman who spent years unable to be alone with herself finally learning to love the person she sees in the mirror.

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TRIGGER WARNING: This episode discusses the sudden loss of a parent and substance abuse recovery.

When Kylie lost her mother unexpectedly in 2024, her life shifted in an instant. She didn't just lose her mom; she became the legal guardian of her teenage brother, Josh. But she wasn't alone. Her husband, Griff, didn't hesitate. Without a formal meeting or a long debate, he stepped into the role of a father figure, proving that family isn't just about biology—it’s about who shows up when the world falls apart.

In this episode, I sit down with Griff to hear the perspective we don't often get: the partner who chooses to take on the "messy" parts of a spouse’s history. From navigating vastly different upbringings to the reality of family therapy and the friction of parenting a teenager while still being "newlyweds," this is a raw look at resilience, loyalty, and what it actually means to be a team.

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Welcome to the very first episode of our Wallet Therapy miniseries!

Ever feel like everyone else got the "how to be an adult with money" memo except for you? You’re not alone. In this kickoff episode, sisters Becky and Alex pull back the curtain on their own bank accounts. Becky gets real about her "add to cart" addiction and the overwhelm of looking at a bank statement , while Alex shares how she went from financial chaos to becoming a Finance Coach.

It’s a kitchen-table conversation about our "Money Stories"—the good, the bad, and the expensive. We’re setting the stage to bridge the gap between being totally clueless and finally feeling in control. No shame, no jargon, just two sisters trying to help you (and each other) figure it out.

In this episode, we cover:

- The "Aha!" moments that led to this podcast.

- Alex’s non-judgmental approach to behavior-based coaching.

- How we’re going to survive these episodes without a sisterly blowout.

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TRIGGER WARNING: This episode discusses addiction, overdose, sudden death of a parent, and self-harm.

When Kylie was 21, she got the call every child of an addict dreads: her mother had overdosed. While her mother eventually found sobriety, her sudden passing in 2024 left Kylie with a choice that wasn't really a choice at all. Within 48 hours, she had to fight the state of Massachusetts to keep her 12-year-old brother, Josh, out of the system.

This isn't just a story about grief; it's about the "invisible" work of stepping up. From hunting down death certificates in different cities to explaining to a judge why a newlywed couple is the best place for a grieving teenager, Kylie’s journey is raw and unfiltered. Later in the episode, Josh joins us to share the perspective we rarely hear—the teenager’s side of loss and what it’s like when your sister becomes your "mom."

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One sister is a professional Finance Coach (Alex). The other... has a shopping cart habit she’s not exactly ready to discuss (Becky).

Welcome to Wallet Therapy, a new miniseries living right here in the For The Hayters feed. We’re bridging the gap between "I should probably save money" and "But look how cute this is in person."

Join us every other Thursday for a real conversation about the messy, emotional, and sometimes hilarious reality of money. We’re tackling the stuff that actually keeps you up at night:

• Why we spend when we’re stressed.
• How to break the paycheck-to-paycheck cycle.
• Navigating money with your partner without the fight.
• Real stories from the trenches (mostly Becky’s).

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TRIGGER WARNING: This episode discusses medical trauma, brain tumors, miscarriage, and infant loss.

"I’m going to be strong for you." It’s the vow every caregiver makes, but rarely do we talk about the crushing weight of that promise. Ryan Leonard joins me to pull back the curtain on what it’s actually like to be the "well-spouse." When his wife Cheryl—who had already survived two brain tumors—experienced a sudden, sharp pain just four months after the birth of their second child, their world shifted back into a nightmare they thought they had escaped.

Ryan opens up about the "beauty and the burden" of caregiving. We dive into the reality of medical gaslighting between oncologists and radiologists, the agonizing choice between life-saving treatment and the dream of having more children, and the moment Ryan had to swallow his pride to ask for help. This isn't a story of toxic positivity; it’s a raw look at marriage, resilience, and choosing love even when it feels like a heavy weight.

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TRIGGER WARNING: TW: This episode discusses addiction, abandonment, child medical trauma, and miscarriage.

Daniella became a mom at 20, expecting a "normal" transition into adulthood. Instead, she found herself navigating a high-risk pregnancy, a disconnect with her newborn that lasted nearly a year, and a partner lost to addiction.

But the fight was just beginning. From holding her two-week-old son down for painful medical tests to battling doctors who dismissed her oldest son’s "staring spells" as daydreaming, Daniella’s story is a masterclass in maternal instinct. She opens up about the reality of "grieving the life you expected," the terror of invisible illnesses like epilepsy, and how a local barber stepped up to heal three hearts without ever breaking them.

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TRIGGER WARNING: This episode discusses postpartum depression, suicidal ideation in children, chronic pain, and mental health crises.

When Katie sat down with me, she described a moment leaning over her 6-month-old’s crib, crying so hard that her baby stopped crying out of shock. That was the moment she knew she was in the "vortex." After a 20-year career in nursing, Katie found herself battling severe medical gaslighting during pregnancy, debilitating chronic migraines, and the terrifying reality of parenting a child with severe mental health struggles.

But the hardest thing she had to do? She had to learn how to emotionally detach from her daughter’s pain in order to save her. In this raw conversation, we talk about the identity shift of leaving a stable career, the lie of "balancing it all," and how to find peace when your body and your family are in crisis.

Connect with Katie: Host of The Midlife Purpose Project https://katiefarinas.com/ Substack: Katie Freeness

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This episode discusses death of a minor, emotional abuse, family estrangement, and traumatic birth/NICU experiences.

Ciyla Fletcher is only 25, but she has lived a dozen lifetimes. From moving 15 times before adulthood to being raised by grandparents while her parents drifted in and out, Ciyla learned early on that "chaos felt like safety." But the hits didn't stop at childhood instability.

At 16, Ciyla lost her best friend and first love, Bailey. Instead of support, she faced a campaign of jealousy and rumors from her own family members who told her she "had no right to grieve." Now, as a mother of two and a nursing student, Ciyla is rewriting the definition of family. In this raw conversation, we discuss the pain of having a father who calls you a "stranger," the maturity required to co-parent peacefully at 20 years old, and why being thankful you don't understand betrayal is the ultimate sign of healing.

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Trigger Warning: This episode includes detailed discussion of miscarriage (including missed miscarriage and medication-assisted miscarriage), grief, medical trauma/insensitive care, anxiety/SSRI withdrawal, and fertility-related testing. Please take care of yourself while listening.

Today’s episode of For The Hayters features Kim Gordon, who shares the reality of navigating two miscarriages—and the complicated, layered grief that comes with each one. Kim opens up about the shock of learning her baby had no heartbeat during what was supposed to be a joyful milestone, the painful and traumatic experience of taking medication to miscarry at home, and the ways medical systems can fail people when they’re most vulnerable.

Kim also talks about how grief impacted her marriage—how she needed to talk while her husband shut down, and how their emotional experiences flipped during the second loss. From advocating for better care, switching providers, exploring progesterone support and blood clotting labs, to rebuilding her mental health, Kim’s story is raw, honest, and deeply validating for anyone who has experienced pregnancy loss—or loved someone who has.

To connect with this week’s guest, you can reach out to them through: @gordongirl21

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