God's Huntress

Isn’t life lived mostly in the meadows? Sometimes we hit high peaks in the mountains, sometimes we’re in a blue valley, but most of the time life is lived on an even keel for me now.

It’s hard to be ordinary, isn’t it? It’s hard to live in constant pain and it’s hard to live in the plains of life.

When you live with chronic abuse, you get addicted to the highs of the chaos. Don’t take that to mean that I liked the abuse, but the level of constant churning drew me in. Time and time again I found myself living out the riddle of the abuse cycle.

This episode is also available as a blog post: http://prisonerbynocrimeofmyown.com/2021/08/04/the-meadows/

A preview from the soon-to-be published book, A Poisoner by No Crime of My Own, Chapter 6 | D E A T H †

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When you come from deep trauma, the past isn't really the past. 

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There is a lot of talk about how childhood sexual abuse hurts a woman, destroys her worth and mocks her femininity. But, what about a little boy that comes through such tragedy?

What happens when a little boy’s father is his abuser? Or his uncle? Or male cousin? How does that little boy perceive masculinity if his mother was his abuser?

This episode is also available as a blog post: http://prisonerbynocrimeofmyown.com/2021/11/10/masculinity-maimed/

What is integrity? What is judgment? 

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Question: When you look in the mirror, do you like the person looking back at you?

This episode is also available as a blog post: http://prisonerbynocrimeofmyown.com/2022/10/10/mirror-mirror-do-you-like-what-you-see/

How do you find comfort? Where does comfort live?

This episode is also available as a blog post: http://prisonerbynocrimeofmyown.com/2021/10/20/hush-little-baby/

How do you carry on from childhood tragedy?

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I am not the darkness I came through. As we heal and retell our stories, it seems like the darkness is a persuasive constant. Healing takes you through some very dark places. I am reminded that I don’t have to camp there – a visit through to expunge the ugliness is the only reason I return.

This episode is also available as a blog post: http://prisonerbynocrimeofmyown.com/2022/02/05/jewels-gems-gunpowder-32/