Words are your building source, wood, clay, nails, plumbing, electricity. Or conversely they could be your own decaying source. Please come to awareness to what conversations are going on in your inner dialog. You are a thought machine, time to tweek your machine to work FOR you, to benefit you!

I reflect, reason, review, rethink all that went down yesterday when I kicked her out of my place due to stomping all over my boundaries, personal space. Any I have, I give to her, from a place of joy, gifting, open heart, openheartedness. I think this out and also remember what it was like to be a young woman, with young rage internally, which either turns inward with a raging , hurtful inner critic. I tried tp give so much grace, apartment space , as much as I could give and beyond. So I'm counting my losses, from the damage done to my rugs, my items. Then I have an alternative voice , say, hey, remember, things are temporary, souls, relationships are eternal, forever. Keep forgiveness flow possibilities open for daughter. I heard myself say, keep working on self, self therapy, self vulnerability and then, be prepared, when daughter comes back, you will be open to her wanting to come back in. https://www.clubhouse.com/@vday789?utm_medium=ch_profile&utm_campaign=0LUduxHse_0vn_mF0wloXw-616765.

In this personal struggle I process an understanding that I have more tools than I know and I know there is more that I can do. I just get home from work and rest in getting into my kitchen chores, unloading the dishwasher and being in my personal space. I describe how honestly I'm still in processing the soft break up from a guy I met online, whom I told I only wanted friendship with, told me to stop contacting him. I'm still a little down over it. But I come to a knowing that there's more that I realize that I can. I sit and listen to my sad heart, and just be with the self. It doesn't look like anything productive or really big is going on here. However, the self is listening and it sees I come back to hear it, there by creating a self trust, which is the goal. Not everything will be fixed directly in the moment. Sometimes it's the proving to the self that you can actually be available should it feel sad, unsafe, ignored, not heard. If you've ever been with a friend and you just listened, but you know, the problem still exists, just the fact that someone cared enough to listen. That was the medicine, that's it. Self just wants to know you care for it.

Part 2, I've been soft broke up with. I was on these online dating streets and I felt a little empty. An almost something, hopeful maybe in a new person I was dating/friends with said stop contacting me. I did say I wanted friendship with him at the momemt. Him saying no, this is where it stops , that's truly fine. However it did shake me up. I go from some inner confusion to neutral and able to keep going and feel good with it just me again. In coupleship and oneShip it's still my responsibility to self sooth, self nurture, with someone it alone

Pt 1. Give a listen about how I resolve being a solo chic, after little family and recent divorce. was soft broke up with after I told someone I met on online dating to leave him alone and don't contact anymore. It can be disheartening to take a life inventory and account for what's left.  If I take a bad angle view about my life it can look so grim. However, I stayed with the ick feeling, let it's presence be known, then responded with a counter story. There is way more in the inventory than you think. Sometimes it takes a little work to get to loving what you have again. Our eyes being on what others have, comparatively to ourselves can cause emotional ripls in us. Fortunately you have your journalling, self love, self nuturing practices. If not then I give you some dialog on how to give it.

When a hardship, challenge, insult occurs it is an opportunity to speak to yourself and affirm a boundary, limitation. Listen to me as I talk of the ongoing journey of building up my feminine energy. I also bring up the perspective of the self and it's need to trust you. If you ignore the self, your self like he's, she's a stranger then you wont know a friend , that will always love you. Give this some thought 🤔. See how it sets with you

I check in with you on your Resolutions, your dreams you had on 1-1-23. I make a case for you becoming a podcaster yourself! I'm recording this from last year, 12-29-2022, 2 months ago. It's making use of podcast, doing batches of episodes, kind of like monthly cooking for the freezer, single serving style. I even bring in the reality that I may not even be alive come March 1, 2023. I'm speaking like I will be here, because until I'm not here, I'm still here, yay 😁☺️

I'm telling you, it's difficult to decipher what your soul is trying to communicate to you through your body symptoms, personal self truths spoken through digestion issues, joint pain, back pain, brain fog, continual unease, unrest, extreme fatigue. All those could be the soul saying to you, move this way, take this action, take this path, NOW and ignoring could be resulting you a souls crying though symptoms of pain from the ignoring. It's all theory and my opinions and personal life's experiences. I'm 49 and have had a particular set of life path points and people. With that, I've tried to make sense and reason from it. It's not professional, it's home grown heart deducings. Blessing Star Brights ✨✨✨

Why vows at the alter, wedding chapel, church need more thought about Who's doing the promising to another in marriage. Sure, it's the 20 year old Woman making that FOREVER promise. BUT, how can the 20 year old self make a promise for ppl she's never met (inside) which is the 30 year old, 40 year old, 50 year old. Listen as I describe this emotional relationship contract with another that we bring in the government into.

Last and final part to the Heal resist series, yay 😁! 5 of 5