In this episode I open up and empty around 15 years of resentment that I have against my father. I open up about the feeling of rejection, worthlessness, and guilt, the events and the pain of growing up with a parent that had their own limits and their own mental health conditions and treated me like I wasn't wanted.
I do not blame, I do not put the responsibility on him, but I explain how his actions transformed my life, my relationships with men, my self worth and my identity.
I go over what happened and try to explain why it happened with the knowledge of mental health I've acquired until now, and finally I thank him for the lessons he gave me, and for how he shaped me.
I also try to reverse the societal conception of "daddy issues" by showing that, first, women shouldn't be shamed for it, and second, that you can work on it and use it to your advantage if you look in the right places.